Married to a Narcissist- Am I Crazy!?

Please learn from my mistakes 😔

Mon, 02 Mar 2020 08:18:06 +0000

I’m feeling pretty frustrated with myself. At this point, I don’t even know why I’m still with my husband. Maybe the fear of being alone has finally hit me. Maybe I feel too damaged for a healthy relationship. There is no justifiable reason that comes to mind, though. Sigh... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Well, I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. He’s ignoring me again.

Sun, 23 Feb 2020 21:22:19 +0000

My husband has been especially distant lately, and his stonewalling has been studying earlier and earlier every weekend. Do I still love him? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Another Attempted Guilt Trip

Sun, 16 Feb 2020 02:55:19 +0000

I’m getting tired of being ignored every weekend and feeling like the last thing on my narcissist’s list of priorities. Sigh... --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Working Through My Negative Emotions and Seeing the Benefits!

Thu, 13 Feb 2020 02:01:31 +0000

I woke up late this morning, and was feeling pretty depressed and unmotivated. When I got stuck in traffic and realized I was going to be late for work - again! - I felt like just calling in sick to work, but I sucked it up and went in. I’m so glad I did! The DBT skill “opposite action” has been sooo helpful, as has “building mastery.” I hope these skills can help you too! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Do you think he kept his promise and called me last night?

Sun, 09 Feb 2020 01:23:34 +0000

This episode is a brief update/follow-up to yesterday’s episode. This is how things played out. --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Shame and Its Powerful Effects

Sun, 09 Feb 2020 01:16:17 +0000

I was recently listening to a speech about shame given by the author Brené Brown. It serves a powerful reminder of the catastrophic a sex I was soon as well as ways to overcome this harmful emotion. In this episode, I talk about one way it has came into play in my toxic relationship with my narcissist. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Narcissists: The Ultimate Hypocrites

Wed, 05 Feb 2020 04:57:19 +0000

Ugh, so he’s gotten under my skin again! 😒. After ignoring my phone calls for a few hours, he finally called me back and decided to freak out at ME. I know, I know, on a logical level, I am completely aware that this will be a recurrent pattern for as long as I’m with him. So why do I let it affect me? --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Is He Toxic? Here’s a Red Flag to Help You Decide

Mon, 03 Feb 2020 22:29:12 +0000

Are you wondering if you are dating a narcissist or other type of toxic person? In this episode, I talk about one of the red flags commonly seen with this type of toxic person. I also give you all an update regarding how things are going between my narcissist and me. I hope you find this episode helpful, and I thank you so much for your support! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Narcissist and Manipulation: Pity Plays

Fri, 31 Jan 2020 23:18:41 +0000

Narcissists, especially the covert types, will take advantage of your empathy and try to guilt-trip you are make you feel sorry for them to get what they want. Don’t give in! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Daily Journaling

Fri, 31 Jan 2020 13:19:06 +0000

In this episode, I share my daily journal entry, as well as the structure I have found most beneficial. Enjoy! --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

How Narcissists Use WhatsApp to Drive You Crazy

Wed, 29 Jan 2020 18:12:24 +0000

Narcissists- especially the covert type - know how to push your buttons and drive you crazy. Gaslighting is a surprisingly effective manipulation tactic. Social media gives toxic people another tool to manipulate you. Trust your instincts! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

My Mental Health and Medication Issues: Does he really support me?

Tue, 28 Jan 2020 18:24:11 +0000

I’ve been trying to wean myself off Adderall for about a week now. Things were going well until I had a mini-breakdown last night. I was crying and looking for detox centers. Here’s how I’m feeling today... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Yay - My Narcissistic Husband Didn’t Ignore Me!

Mon, 27 Jan 2020 19:26:51 +0000

So, my husband usually gets drunk and ignores me in Sundays. I’m happy to say that this was not the case yesterday! (I’ll also let you ask know how my Adderall taper-down is going.) --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Therapy and Psychiatry: I Will Get Through This!

Sun, 26 Jan 2020 22:48:27 +0000

I just finished my first appointment with a therapist who specializes in anxiety disorders and addiction. I am super excited about taking this new step! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Back on Track 😊

Sun, 26 Jan 2020 05:49:03 +0000

So I was able to regulate my emotions, apologize to my mom, and get things done today despite reducing my Adderall dosage. Things are looking up! 😃 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Do I Deserve to be Treated Badly?

Sun, 26 Jan 2020 00:41:33 +0000

Yesterday, my therapist mentioned the fact that many people get into relationships with a person who does not treat them well because they feel that they don’t deserve any better. I did not think that was the case with me, but after having a difficult day and letting my emotions get the best of me, I am reconsidering my initial opinion... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

My Mental Health Issues

Fri, 24 Jan 2020 13:20:20 +0000

I’m currently struggling to reduce my dependence on my medication. I tried before, but I felt even more dependent on my narcissist. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Red Flag: Pity Plays

Thu, 23 Jan 2020 23:10:00 +0000

One of the red flags that may indicate that you are dating a covert narcissist is the pity play. Learn more about this strategy narcissist use to manipulate a more empathetic partner. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Do I Miss Him?

Wed, 22 Jan 2020 22:44:23 +0000

I was feeling a bit nostalgic last night thinking about some of my good memories of times I’ve spent with my husband... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Moving on

Tue, 21 Jan 2020 13:20:31 +0000

I think I’m starting to see signs that I’m ready to move on... or at least we’ll --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Reflections - This is why I’m with him!

Mon, 20 Jan 2020 23:40:03 +0000

While listening to an audiobook told from the point of view of a therapist, I suddenly realized one of the key reasons why I may be staying with my narcissist. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Random thoughts

Mon, 20 Jan 2020 05:02:16 +0000

Hey, I’m just feeling kind of down about myself and nervous, so I guess I’m stalling before going into the bar by myself 😬 --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Sunday Stonewalling 😒

Mon, 20 Jan 2020 03:17:00 +0000

So I slept with somebody else last night. 😨 I was feeling super guilty about it until... well, right on schedule, my husband has decided to ignore me again. What am I doing? 🤦🏼‍♀️ --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Emotional Regulation

Fri, 17 Jan 2020 23:28:05 +0000

So I woke up feeling super grumpy and tired, and I was not at all looking forward to the day. I was running late for work because I didn’t hear my alarm, and let me anxiety get the best of me. However, I practiced some breathing exercises shortly before arriving at work, and I think the emotional regulation skills that I have been practicing - thanks to my “DBT Coach” app are starting to help. Yay! 😃 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Temptation to Cheat + My ADHD Issues

Thu, 16 Jan 2020 23:14:31 +0000

After being hurt and disrespected on so many occasions, and practically discarded on a weekly basis, my husband’s inability to change his hurtful behavior - or even validate my pain - has me considering cheating. Nooooo!!! (I also briefly talk about how my ADHD diagnosis affects our relationship dynamic.). Happy Humpday! 🤷🏼‍♀️🥳 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

I’m back in counseling! 😃

Wed, 15 Jan 2020 19:27:08 +0000

I decided to share the first audio message I sent to my old counselor. I well keep you all posted on my progress! 🥰 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Seriously... he’s trying to pick ANOTHER fight? Not gonna happen this time; I’m staying strong!

Mon, 13 Jan 2020 02:14:53 +0000

So my husband apologized first thing this morning, which is very rare for him. I was so happy going to dance practice for the first time in many months not feeling heartbroken. Of course, he tried to pick a fight as I was leaving. However, this time I didn’t let him get to me. And this episode, I also talk about some of my own personal theories behind some of my husbands maladaptive behaviors as well as some strategies and tools that have been helpful in my healing. I hope that you are find them just as helpful. Everybody deserves to be happy. 💕 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

The Benefits of Therapy, Positive Self-Talk, and DBT

Sun, 12 Jan 2020 12:02:54 +0000

I started off the day on Friday feeling really grumpy and negative about myself, so I decided to use some of the tools and skills I have been studying. Wow! It made such a positive impact on my day! I hope they can help you as well.💕 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

I think this may be the end... again 🤦🏼‍♀️

Sun, 12 Jan 2020 10:41:39 +0000

So, tonight my husband decided to randomly start texting me insults and saying he wants me to cancel his visa petition. I don’t feel like my emotions are out of control this time. Well I finally be able to move on? --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

The Mean/Sweet Cycle

Thu, 09 Jan 2020 23:17:38 +0000

According to my research and personal experience, and relationships with narcissists are often full of ups and downs. I have heard that the abs become less frequent over time, and the downs become more frequent and intense over time. However, so far, in my relationship, Press the ups and downs have been quite consistent and predictable. This is a typical or Thursday my relationship.. 😁😬🤦🏼‍♀️ --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Seems to be Helping 😃

Tue, 07 Jan 2020 23:08:06 +0000

Good evening everyone! I just wanted to touch base with you all and give you an update on how I’m feeling now after having practiced some of the skills that I have learned on my own through DBT workbook’s and an app based on dialectical behavioral therapy. I hope this provides some hope for any of you struggling with your emotions. 💕 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

I can’t keep doing this to myself... 💔😭

Tue, 07 Jan 2020 22:50:45 +0000

So, my husband ignored me for most of the weekend and chose to drink instead of talking to me. For some reason this seem to be mutually exclusive for him 😒. He hasn’t apologized, and has actually tried insulting me! Ugh, narcissist can really get to you if you let them! 😠. Anyway, I just feel like giving up, but no, I’ll going to keep going. 😤 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Sunday Stonewalling 😭💔

Mon, 06 Jan 2020 15:14:26 +0000

I’m getting so tired of being ignored every Sunday. I don’t know if I can continue to go on like this anymore. 😣 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

My Struggles With My Own Mental Health

Sun, 05 Jan 2020 02:47:38 +0000

Hello everyone! And it’s the episode I really get deep. I share a lot of very personal information about my past and current struggles with mental health. I also share information regarding tools and coping mechanisms that I am currently using. I will continue to publish episodes to keep you all updated on my progress. Thank you so much for listening! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Happy New Year!!!

Sat, 04 Jan 2020 18:56:42 +0000

The rest of my vacation with my narcissist went fairly well. However, things have since taken a turn for the worse. Sigh... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Working on ME!

Mon, 30 Dec 2019 16:48:35 +0000

Good afternoon all of my wonderful listeners. Yesterday was a very rough day for me and my narcissistic spouse. That being said, I am making the choice right now to put myself first and take care of myself. I plan to publish an episode soon with several specific tools that can be used for self-care and personal development. Thank you so much for listening! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Tired of Suffering

Mon, 30 Dec 2019 04:50:59 +0000

I am sorry to be a downer, but today has been a rough day for my husband and me. Well, I don’t think it’s been s rough day for him, but I’m heartbroken and alone yet again. I hope we can all learn from this. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Continuing to try, but why?

Sun, 29 Dec 2019 16:02:02 +0000

In this episode I talk about how I continue to try and have open, honest conversations with my husband with the hope of getting over his infidelity and having a healthy relationship, full of trust and honest communication. On a cognitive level, I know that this is not constructive, but on an emotional level I just can’t seem to let that idea go. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Together for the Holidays

Sat, 28 Dec 2019 15:12:07 +0000

So I’m in the Dominican Republic with my husband now, but something just doesn’t feel the same... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Ugh...So This is Christmas 🥺

Wed, 25 Dec 2019 05:42:20 +0000

Well, it looks like I was being much too optimistic before. My husband is drinking and ignoring me and I know he’s awake. He also called me wants to insult me for sending him pictures of him kissing another woman. I think it’s time for me to get back in the therapy and figure out how to move on... --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Preparing for NYE With my Narc

Wed, 25 Dec 2019 00:02:31 +0000

So, I’m feeling like a discard is probably not in the, um.... cards yet. (I apologize for the cheesy, unplanned pun 😁.). My flight to go see my husband in the Dominican Republic leaves in two days. Wish me luck! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Am I Being Discarded? 🥺

Sun, 22 Dec 2019 22:23:49 +0000

In this episode, a let you all know about the current state of my relationship with my husband. I’m supposed to go visit him in less than a week, but I feel he is more distant than ever. Is he discarding me? I also address issues related to infidelity. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

The Benefits of Journaling

Fri, 20 Dec 2019 13:07:09 +0000

Hello everyone! Today I will be talking about the benefit of journaling and how to use positive affirmations so that they will work for you they have not. I hope you find this helpful! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

My Narc’s Positive Traits

Wed, 18 Dec 2019 22:42:13 +0000

While I sometimes I ask myself, “What am I doing with this man?” I do realize that he does have some positive qualities, and we do complement each other in many ways. Listen to this episode to find out more! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Feeling Down

Wed, 18 Dec 2019 01:50:12 +0000

I’m this episode, I talk a little bit about my struggles with ADHD, anxiety, and depression. You’re not alone! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

The Importance off Self-Care

Wed, 18 Dec 2019 01:48:15 +0000

In this brief episode, I talk about how a little bit of rest helped me get through some negative emotions. Don’t forget to take care of yourself. You deserve it! --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Red Flag #2: You Find Yourself Playing Detective

Wed, 18 Dec 2019 00:05:48 +0000

In this episode, I talk about another red flag that can help you identify a toxic relationship. I also share how this relates to my relationship with my husband. I hope you enjoy it! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/message Support this podcast: https://anchor.fm/charlene218/support

Las mentiras del narcisista encubierto

Tue, 17 Dec 2019 04:02:01 +0000

En este episodio, yo platico acerca de lo que es el “gaslighting” y cómo los narcisistas encubiertos usan esta técnica para manipularte --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Giving Up

Mon, 16 Dec 2019 09:08:47 +0000

After working so hard to try and repair my broken relationship with my narcissistic husband, I’m starting to wonder if it’s even worth it...

When depression hits...

Sun, 15 Dec 2019 08:27:21 +0000

This was ma during a low point in the relationship. Remember, no matter how badly you might feel now, you will get through this! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

30 Red Flags to Help You Spot a Toxic Partner, Part 1

Sun, 15 Dec 2019 02:16:28 +0000

In this episode, I discuss Red Flag #1 from “Psychopath Free,” an eye-opening book by Jackson MacKenzie. The first red flag mentioned is gaslighting. Reading about this was huge for me when it came to coming to terms with the type of relationship I was dealing with. I hope that it can help many of you in this very same way. 💕 --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Red Flags and the Covert Narcissist

Thu, 12 Dec 2019 22:28:04 +0000

If this podcast, I discussed some of the common red flags to watch out for dealing with a potential he clocks in person as well as some of the differences between grandiose narcissist versus covert. Thank you for listening! --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

How I Met and Married My Narcissist

Tue, 10 Dec 2019 23:40:23 +0000

This episode provides information about how I met my current husband, red flags that I saw from day one, and the trials and tribulations of being in a relationship with a difficult person. I hope that this helps people who are struggling in their own relationships. I know that hearing other people’s stories has been so validating and helpful to me, and I hope to provide that to you. --- This episode is sponsored by · Anchor: The easiest way to make a podcast. https://anchor.fm/app

Married to a Narcissist- Am I Crazy!? (Trailer)

Tue, 10 Dec 2019 12:08:22 +0000

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