But what would Figuring Sh!t Out be if it wasn't a testament to overcoming fear, time and time again, by getting as deeply honest as possible and sharing truths from this raw and reflective place?

This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in real time.

This episode is an existential conversation about God, Existence, and using our critical thinking and discernment when approaching spirituality. (From a girl who has not, up until recently, used a lot of discernment when approaching spirituality.)

It is a journey reflecting upon my own - and one that I simply ask you allow to let you question, let you think, let you feel your own inner judgements as they arise, let you wonder about the beliefs you're married to, and reflectively ask: is this my own?

Topics covered in this episode:

• reflections from turning 26: how almost dying at birth gave way to a sentimental thought-daughter with lots of existential questions
• i am reading the bible?? for the first time?? ever?? (and tbh i would recommend and if you're immediately like "no," yes that was me too up until last week. lowkey profound.)
• getting out of the way to receive (including putting your ego aside) and how this connects us to artistry + God
• critically thinking: spirituality / new age as a trend (that i have also fallen into) and why it's not the whole story
• impure vs pure actions / intentions and how that impacts the quality of the information we receive
• surrendering: we were never meant to do it all alone
• discernment
• God as The Judge vs God as Love: getting curious, seeing beyond religious dogma
• shattering your own illusions as a ragebait for your inner evolution & growth
• the fallibility of self-help / development content: you do not have to (and were never meant to) do it all on your own
• the fallibility of our flesh & bone - the necessity of humility & respect
• how this all helps you do hard things
• God vs The Universe

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And it is a decision.

One you must make every day.

This episode is a short tough-love transmission reminding you of your limitlessness, your inevitability, the power of your deepest truth when it is aligned in the actions of your highest path, and serves as a first-step to what you know you're ready to move towards.

Let this be your reminder: you cannot change what you do not accept.

& Let this be your anchor: acceptance is the first step to full surrender and the catalyst to change.

So - what are you avoiding that you know you need to do? Why have you been avoiding it? What are you unwilling to face in yourself, that you are ready to change? And what has this avoidance taken from you?

Are you actually showing up in a way that will give you every possible chance to succeed? Or are you sleeping on yourself, waving your potential in front of your face while day-dreaming and pretending that's enough to actually *change?*

I believe in you. But that doesn't matter.

What matters is: Do you believe in you? Are you acting like you do?

Because the truth is: what you're not changing is what you're choosing.

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• the point of life is not to figure sh!t out - and sometimes we have to get so lost in the figuring sh!t out that we have a great big wake up call that reminds us of that
• wherever you go, there you are
• life is continuing education. we are here to learn. to have fun. to enjoy. to explore. to LIVE.
• you don't find your purpose looking for your purpose, you find it when you let go
• puttering is very important. very essential. very necessary.
• there is time. there is always time. there is always far more time than you think that there is.
• the ultimate and grand cosmic paradox is that you learn to be at peace when you become at peace with not always being at peace

i love you. thank you for being on this journey with me. for showing love, support, and your affections.

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May this episode allow you to see life through the eyes of your inner elder.

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this episode is an exploration of everything i've learned about love.

put simply:

"we have all known the bliss of sunshine hitting our skin on a cold day, and we have all belly laughed until our breaths disappeared, and we have all come home chewed up by the world and sunken deep into a familiar withering, and we are all either healing from something or learning how to hold it, running from something or learning how to return - because we have all loved and we have all lost, and we have all mistaken losing for a promise that it was never safe to love. and we have all been wrong about that."

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"We think our limits live in the dreams we don’t chase, in the tasks we put off, in the emotions that we avoid - but they’re most alive in all of the small ways we deny our right to enjoy life.

In the ferocious hurry between movements, in the relentless devotion to our False God of Control that promises certainty we never actually find.

We yearn for love, but refuse to let life touch us. 

Even when it’s right in our hands - fragrant, bright, asking only to be received, we mistake consumption for communion." - Realizations from Near Death

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- an excerpt from my most recent essay "Dreams" (which I read to you in this episode <3) 

This episode sits inside of the humbling silence of realizing you've been playing it small when you've always been meant to shine - that you've been playing it safe when you've always been divinely protected to expand.

Your dreams already believe in you.

There is nothing to change here, nothing to fix, and nothing to do.

There is only remembering. 

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And after spending enough time nipping and tucking away pieces of ourselves that we don't like in an effort to curate the most acceptable, palatable, "perfect" version of us - what many of us will find is this:

We are only as whole as we are able to accept the parts of us that don’t make us feel like it. 

We are only as healed as we are able to hold our brokenness. 

We are only as loving as we are to the pieces of us that we can’t fathom. 

And we will come to know, by peering into the depths of our own hearts long enough to see the it's shadows, that the space that is our bodies was created to hold love for our imperfect flesh. 

This episode is another reflection on a topic that is core to Figuring Sh!t Out: Shadow-Work. It is a continued conversation from recent dialogue on stretching our capacity for complexity within us and expanding our conscious creation in this world.

May it be a friend to you when you feel the tenderness of being deeply human.

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There’s a quiet grief that lives inside a lot of people.

Because we’ve learned how to contain ourselves.

Creativity was once somewhere we all went to feel alive, and became something we use to prove who we are. 

We learn to identify with a medium, a label, an aesthetic, a version of ourselves to be understood, admired, approved of. And without realizing it - these identities shrink us. 

This episode is about how identifying too tightly with a creative medium - or with being good at something - can quietly disconnect us from our true nature, which is plural, fluid, and undefinable. When creativity becomes performance, identity, or ego, it stops being an expression of our aliveness and starts feeding validation instead.

Today, I’m talking about creative repression, the “shadow artist,” and what it really means to be a starving artist - not financially, but spiritually. We’ll explore how boxing ourselves into one identity limits our expression, why losing passion is often a sign of creative deprivation, and how curiosity, play, and permission to be bad can reopen the door.

As Julia Cameron once said: ""You're either losing your mind or gaining your soul."

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It is not a hustle-forward, all-gas-no-breaks charge to a new year. 

But it is also not a total rejection of the new year.

It is a subtle and soft invitation into moving forward with reflection, ritual, and intention. 

Through redefining and examining our relationship with "locking in," or what we turn out focus towards, we can refine our communion with newness in a way that feels true to us.

This episode offers a three-phase process to entering - might we even say *sauntering* - into the new year in a way that will allow our new year practices to feel like sustainable daily rhythms rather than temporary sprints & quick fixes. 

This is a conversation about where and how we spend our time & attention, and will give you a framework of tools to carry forward as you reflect on the previous year and look ahead at the new one.

It asks two questions to answer honestly, poignantly, (and to take time meditating upon):

What have you been locked into in 2025?

And what are you ready to unlock in 2026?

These questions aren't so much asking to be answered directly, yet used as pointers to the emerging answers within you that come from peering inwards and sitting with self.

May these suggestions support you as you continue to evolve & figure sh!t out in 2026.

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Resources Mentioned in this Episode:

Digital garden: https://fransfieldnotes.substack.com/p/how-to-make-a-digital-garden-a-beginners

Wild geese podcast: https://open.spotify.com/episode/4j9fApvoYIkFYkJrMeHifp?si=b7ade01156704390

You need to be bored: https://hbr.org/2025/08/you-need-to-be-bored-heres-why

This episode is an exploration of releasing shame, guilt, and fear from our bodies and rekindling our inner magic.

Through poetry, storytelling, and recommended practices of somatic wisdom and inner reflection, this episode of creates conversation around what it means to let the soft animal of your body love what it love and wants what it wants.

Most saliently, it asks a few important questions (left here for your courtesy to journal about after listening):

1. What does it look like to take the best possible care of myself in this present moment life-situation I find myself in?
2. What would I do if it didn't have to be perfect? Or good? If the inner critic in my heart wasn't watching, judging, and eclipsing the inner child who just wanted to try?

If you take anything from this episode, let it be this:

You do not have to be good. You do not have to crawl on your knees for hundreds of miles repenting.

You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.

(Courtesy of Mary Oliver, Wild Geese.)

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One of them: rest.

As a society, we have a complicated relationship with rest. An anxious-avoidant one where we long for it, but don't want to get too comfortable in it. We crave it, yet we fear leaning into it.

In this Winter Solstice episode, we lean into a discussion about restoring balance in our natural rhythms and cycles through embracing rest and ritualizing our lives with intention.

I take you through my complicated and once toxic relationship with rest and productivity, and the ways that I've healed it.

What I've found is that -

Inspiration strikes most in surrender,

Romance can flourish in the spaces in between -

And when we allow ourselves the birthright of rest and recovery, we can receive so much more.

In a world that never stops turning, if lighting a candle and reading a book in the sun as it begins to set early is an act of rebellion, then let us all be the leaders of the next revolution.

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and seeing that it has always been okay.

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I believe that we all have a gift. I believe that we all have a purpose. I believe that it is buried within the places we don’t want to look. It is entangled in the masterpieces of destruction, it is the diamond in the roughest moments of life, it is forged in the fire of standing tall as you face yourself - no longer running away. 

But in this age of endless self-help prescriptions from talking heads on the internet, 25 year old millionaires who tell you you're doing something wrong because you haven't figured out how to make 100k overnight while gallivanting at the beach, how can you not feel like you're behind? Like you’ve missed something?

Comparison does not just steal joy from you - it steals your knowing, your presence, your direction, and the thread of your purpose from you.

These are illusions that are meant to distort our inner compass and seep us into comparison. To keep you running towards something that isn’t your own.

No one else has lived the life you’ve lived through your precious eyes. 

And for that reason, the unique purpose that you have - the gifts that you have - are buried within the threads you have been weaving your whole life, not in the framework of someone else’s. 

This episode is for anyone who feels like they're behind, who feels a little confused, who feels like they don't quite know their purpose but have been trying to find it, who feels like they have one but don't know where to start in pursuing it, who wants to pursue creativity in some form but feels limited, who wants make their creativity their living but has no clue where to start -

I see you.

But here's the truth:

Knowing your purpose is only half of the equation.

Staying true to yourself in it is the other half. 

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In this episode, I share reflections of my journey in the last year saying the biggest, boldest yes I ever have: leaving my 9-5 last year to pursue a creative life.

This episode was recorded from an adobe home in Santa Fe, New Mexico gifted by Two Casitas (explore their homes here!!). I found myself here to meet Julia Cameron, author of the Artist's Way at a coffee-shop event she was holding for her latest book. I flew here to say yes to a little call in my heart, to explore what was within it, and to ask Julia to be a guest on this podcast. (stay tuned to see what happens next!!)

This episode covers the many lessons I've learned while taking the Road Less Traveled - including a deeply honest admittance of the challenges that come with choosing less stability for more internal certainty while living in the flux of a place like New York City.

In this episode - I explore what it means to actually say yes to yourself, what it takes to live a creative life, and a few things I wish I would have known before taking the leap.

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chapter three of The Perfectionist Diaries is an ode to the Good Idea Fairy - this childlike, intuitive, enchanted part of you that I created to represent the little voice that drops breadcrumbs, whispers nudges, and hands you ideas that could change your entire life (if you'd just listen!!)

this episode is about repairing that relationship:

letting your creativity breathe again,

acting without needing certainty,

learning the sacred art of detachment.

and a core Figuring Sh!t Out theme:

following the spark even when it makes no sense on paper.

and at the end of the episode - big news about how I'm doing just this!! (AGAIN?? ...yes.)

bringing this series full circle and closing the loop on fear, flow, and creative devotion.

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In Chapter Two of The Perfectionist Diaries, we explore the cosmic dance between masculine and feminine energy: the part of you that initiates, and the part of you that softens and refines.

This episode is a gentle excavation of the shadows beneath perfectionism: the fear of being perceived, the fear of shining too brightly, the ways we reject our own wholeness.

In this episode, you’ll learn how to start before you feel ready, hold yourself through imperfection, and create from your deepest truth.

In it, we explore:

• The philosophy of “make it exist, then make it good” - separating creation (masculine/action) from refinement (feminine/receptivity).
• Why perfectionism exists: subconscious rejection wounds, fear of being seen, fear of success, fear of being misunderstood.
• Spiritual bypassing and how it keeps creators from healing the origins of their perfectionism.
• The necessity of shadow-work & some tools for creative recovery for anyone who wants to create authentically.
• The balance of masculine + feminine energy in the creative process.
• Survival vs. Creation: How survival mode kills creativity, and why you must bring play, fun, and joy back into the process.
• A framework for taking action from a place of wholeness

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Waiting until you're fearless will keep you stuck in perfectionism forever. 

And fear cannot live in a moving body. 

So, 

Move. 

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The Perfectionist Diaries is a mini-series on Figuring Sh!t Out about breaking free from habitual perfectionism and learning to create through fear.

This first chapter explores divine timing, creative resistance, and why waiting to feel “ready” is the biggest trap of all.

On this episode, we cover:

• The False Ideal of Fearlessness & How Perfectionism is the Deepest form of Self-Sabotage
• How Ideas are Divine Assignments, why we must Act
• What Creative Self-Worth Means & Entails
• Not needing to Know the End-Game, Just the Next Aligned Step (thank u erifili!!)
• Moving through The Perfectionist Paralysis with the Willingness to be Seen

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Because maybe you're not stuck - maybe you're just.. undecided. 

And maybe, without realizing it, your lack of decision has already become one: the choice to stay disconnected, half-alive, half-in.

This episode is a wake-up call. 

A reclamation of your creative power through the art of choosing. 

We explore how fear, numbness, and ambivalence keep us suspended between worlds, and how reconnecting to your body allows clarity, creativity, and conviction to return.

You'll learn: 

• Why hope without action can become a disguised form of fear.
• How emotional numbness and ambivalence block your creative energy.
• Somatic and practical tools to reconnect with your desire and direction.
• How trauma shapes indecision and how to reprogram your body for clarity.
• An 8 step framework to shift looping thoughts into embodied, decisive action.
• The energetic process of turning decisions into lasting change.

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Contrary to popular belief - joy is not naive. It is imperative. And this radical, yet simple decision to take the unserious seriously is what enables us to let go a little deeper into the necessary whimsy of life that makes it worth living.

This week, we explore why learning to feel, experience, and hold a state of joy is THE most important work you'll do for yourself, others, and dare I say... humanity.

My intention is that you leave this episode with powerful reframes that root you deeper into the presence of your being and allow you to feel more ease in the more-than-enough purpose of simply being alive.

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For those of us who have long identified as "introverts," I ask you a very important question: are you ACTUALLY an introvert? Or do you just have social anxiety and are you scared to be seen?

On today's episode, we explore the spectrum of introversion / extroversion as it relates to the safety to be seen and explore the truth behind these labels, social anxiety, and the self-preserving patterns that make us believe we're safer unseen and how to gently unravel them and find aligned community.

We root into this theme of community and belonging - something so many of us strive to find in a chronically online, disconnected world - and how to find it when you're in the process of finding yourself.

I take you through my own story of social anxiety, self-preservation, outgrowing friendships as a result of coming of age, coming into rediscovering platonic love in a new way, and explore how self-connection can expand into communion with others.

If you take away one thing from this dialogue, let it be this:

WHEN YOU LET YOURSELF BE SEEN, YOU LET YOURSELF BE LOVED! & YOU DESERVE TO BE BOTH SEEN + LOVED.

(but how???? well, just sit back, relax, and listen <3)

This episode is a part 2 to episode 102 (Unapologetic, Unconditional Beingness) (no need to listen in order!)

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This episode is all about staying rooted in love, alignment, and authenticity - no matter what’s happening around you. We explore the continuum of contrast, the wound of rejection, and the habit of people-pleasing that pulls us out of ourselves and keep us small - especially when faced with people who project, misunderstand, or drain our energy..

Because here’s the truth: the world does not have to comply for you to feel good. You do not have to change anyone or anything to be at peace. Alignment is because of *you*, not your circumstances.

In this episode, you'll learn how to take radical responsibility for your alignment, understand your conditioning, and release control-oriented patterns that keep you small.

We talk inner child healing, shadow work, and the truth about introversion (& social anxiety) as self-preservation - and how to bring your full, radiant self into every room. (BECAUSE THE WORLD NEEDS MORE OF YOU BEING YOU <3)

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Shadow-Work Series, Part 1

CHAPTERS:

0:00-4:00: how to stay aligned, relentlessly love, + be YOU

5:30: the continuum of contrast & choosing love over fear 

7:00: addressing the wound of rejection + the habit of people pleasing / molding ourselves / control-oriented behaviors

8:00: step 1: radical responsibility

9:30: becoming aware of your conditioning 

11:00: when you ask for more, you will be met with opportunities to choose MORE. relationships & opportunities are our mirrors 

14:00: inner child healing, shadow-work, the WHY behind when we start hiding 

18:00: when empathy & emotional attunement becomes maladaptive

22:00: introversion as a self-preservation tactic / why you're actually drained by socializing

30:00: you are here for a reason. you’ve done half the work - how do you take the work / alignment with you? 

27:00: alignment is because of YOU, not your circumstance. why we feel a fresh perspective when we travel / go somewhere but have trouble integrating. the love you see in anything is a reflection of you

34:00: you don't have to cut people off to protect your peace 

37:00: if you love someone take them off the pedastal of expectation: it's not fair to them, it's not fair to you.

36:00: the shift that changes everything.

40:00: believe so radically 

44:00: unconditional love  

(....Coming from a girl who loves and firmly embraces the woo-woo.)

Spirituality and science are finally beginning to speak the same language, and on this episode, we’re translating both. 

This is a deep-dive into the inner physics of creation: how emotion shapes matter, how the heart bends time, and how the future already lives inside of you.

We dive into the fundamental power within all of us to access emotional alchemy - dissipating past pain and creating a more expansive future and we do this by covering it alllll - the neuroscience, the energetics, and the emotional regulation behind true transformation.

Pens & Papers out today folks because Class! Is! In! Session!

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Part 2: Law of Attraction, Romanticizing your Life, Self-Fulfilling Prophecies, and Gratitude into Luckiness

MARATHON EPISODE 

Shadow-Work Episodes: 

Inner Child Healing

Self-Expression & Creativity 

Further RESOURCES Mentioned: 

HeartMath Institute

Free Heart Coherence Meditation

About Vipassana

Insight timer - Free Meditation App 

DavidJi 40 Days of Transformation (Paid Version) 

CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:00: Time is Non-Linear

3:00-7:00: Manifestation is not what you think it is: skepticism & discernment is necessary

7:00-12:00: CLASS IN SESSION! The Mechanics of Energy & The Basic States of Creation

12:00-15:00: Concepts of Time

15:00-18:00: Felt Sensation

18:00-22:00: Energetic Pathway of the Heart, Heart Math, Heart Coherence

22:00-30:00: How I accidentally quantum Leaped

30:00-35:00: The Most Important Emotion

35:00-37:00: What this REALLY all means. Simplifying it all.

37:00-49:00: Practices for Collapsing Time

This episode walks you through the arc of survival, fear, and limitation - into freedom, expression, and truth. It maps the narrative arc of survival into self-expression, exploring the psychology of subconscious contracts and the practice of choosing your own inevitability over fear. 

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CHAPTERS:

0:00 - Figuring Sh!t Out - SEASON 4 

2:00: the narrative arc - when the road less traveled becomes.. the road you're on 

9:00: you are inevitable

14:00 the profound responsibility of taking responsibility for your own life 

18:00: your subconscious contracts + failure pre-emption

20:00: ways that I break my own subconscious contracts

22:00: the myth of working "hard": let it be easy

23:00: the loyalty we pay to our fear vs our dreams & the contract of unworthiness

25:00: PRACTICAL TIPS TO TURN survival into self-expression 

30:00 the responsibility of being inevitable

the art of let oneself be (without guilt) is a love letter to the magic that appears when you let go and it is done with the intention of:

taking the BEING very seriously and the DOING very unseriously.

this is the last episode of season three and the last page of the road less traveled chapter.

so much more to come.

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Chapters:

0:00-5:00: the art of intentional living and the radical act of beingness

5:00-7:18: the inevitable highs and lows, inhales and exhales, and sitting in between

7:18-12:30: potential portals to beingness

12:30-14:00: this is your sign to live more fully, freely, and joyfully

14:00-18:00: embodying

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if you're trying, you're trying too hard.

let this episode remind you of the truth of who you are -

stop trying.

start being.

let go of the story & start LIVING your truth.

and start now.

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Chapters:

0:00-4:00: You're Not Special, but You Are Powerful

4:00-8:00: Coming Clean

8:00-10:00: your worth starts right now

10:00-12:00: What you want reveals who You Are

12:00-14:00: what is driving you? Fear or love?

14:00-16:00: what if I don't believe it?

16:00-18:00: the distinct polarities

18:00-20:00: don't stare at fear. don't linger.

20:00-21:00: the trap of "trying" and how it keeps us stuck without realizing it

21:00-23:00: life is a process of creation, not discovery.

23:00: let go of the story & start LIVING your truth

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Thought-Daughtering my way through every major challenge and transition in my life and remembering:

Everything is an opportunity to deepen your most high truth - especially, your biggest challenges. Layers within them, are blessings.

CHAPTERS:

0:00-7:00: life update & backstory: where am I... living?

7:00-19:00: challenges & hardship are opportunities to go deeper into who we really are

19:00-25:00: we are pure creative potential

25:00-29:00: you are not a victim!!!

29:00-31:00: the misconception of the higher self

31:00-35:00: how lucky are we to have a last time?

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your access to freedom is right here and now - in the chance and opportunity to trust when your faith is shaken.

on this week's episode, i give you background into how this mindset is keeping me steady and strong after finding out i may have to leave my home of three years on a week's notice (stay tuned to find out what happens next week! figuring sh!t out in real time! haha! it's so not funny! but i have to laugh! because what else! is there! to do!! haha!!)

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Chapters:

0:00-4:30: If You're Forcing: Stop. 

4:30- 13:00: Backstory of Being (potentially) Displaced in NYC: 

13:00: Resisting vs Surrendering, The RatRace & Hamster Wheel

15:00: There is nothing that could take you from your path. it will emerge 

19:00: tests of trust come through uncertainty 

23:00: the process is the point

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In it, I give you a six-step ritual to reclaim spaciousness inside of your own head, to hear your own voice, and to unravel the subtle signal of yourself beneath all of the noise.

In a world that demands so much of our attention, where every desire is boxed into a trend or an aesthetic to curate onto a Pinterest board, where we are drowned by stimuli the moment we step into the deep-end of unlocking our phones - individuality and autonomy is no longer a birthright, but a skill. 

And in a culture of immediacy and urgency, choosing to listen, have patience, and prioritize play is a radical act.

This is not performance.

This is learning how to breathe again.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-2:00: Coming Home to Yourself. Even "Good Noise" Is still Noise

2:00-10:00: What Inspired this Episode: My Experience with Energetic Density

10:00-13:00: Energetic Hygiene: All it Takes

13:00-14:00 The Art of Hearing Your Own Voice

14:00-17:00: The Unraveling, Creativity Cave, Sensory Reclamation, Boredom As A Portal

17:00-19:00: We Have to remember this was always Ours

19:00-21:00: How Trends, Labels, and Aesthetics Keep us in a Box

21:00-27:00: The Artist's Way is the Spiritual Path

27:00-34:00: Dopamine & Scrolling

34:00-39:00: Oh My Darling, It was Never That Serious.

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In this conversation with my dear friend Etai, we explore the thin veil between art and spirituality and the daily devotion of creativity and leading life with an open heart.

We discuss in depth - The Artist's Way, fear, rejection, finding the right audience, living with an open heart, and returning to wholeness through expression.

Etai has built an online community of over 400,000 who use his yoga videos to get closer to themselves and their truths. He's built this platform in the last year through a brave spirit of pure authenticity as he finds himself calling other parts of the globe his home and sharing his truth. May his words, voice, and presence inspire your path forward and let you live in your calling. 

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CHAPTERS:

00:00-07:40: Discovering Oneself

07:40-10:20: One Year of Solo Travel & Spiritual Unfolding Showing Up Online

10:20-14:00: The Sacred Contrast: Collectivism vs. Free Expression

14:00-17:00: Showing Up Online, Yoga as a Muse, Building a Digital Devotional

17:00-20:00: Living with an Open Heart & True Authentic Freedom

20:00-25:00: The Artists Way + Inseparability between Art & Spirituality

25:30-35:00: The Company We Keep

35:00-40:55 – Yoga as Muse & Art as Offering

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Let this episode allow you to remember.

You are right on time. This episode is an ode to LIVING and restoring your inner vision. 

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-6:00: But, where is your joy?

6:00:-8:00: Forgetting we've achieved our childhood dreams

8:00-9:30: The Lower Self / Higher Self & Pendulum Swing of Shadow + Light

9:30-12:00: Raising Your Baseline, Sitting with the Self in 40 days of Silent Meditation

12:00-16:00: Transformation is a process that is not linear

16:00-19:00: Vision without Strategy is just a To-Do List

19:00-23:00: The Proverbial "mountain," Sometimes It's Easier When You're Farther Away

23:00-27:00: How Would You Act If It was All Working out?

27:00-30:00: When You're Ready to Change, YOU WILL

30:00-37:00: Costa Rica, Artist's Way Circle

37:00-43:00: Create What You Wish Existed

43:00-44:00: If I'm still here I have a 100% Survival Rate!!

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your power comes from all of the things you do not know, but have the courage to try and understand.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:00: We're Always Figuring Sh!T Out

3:00-4:30: The GIFT of Imposter Syndrome & Uncertainty

4:30-6:00: You are Exactly Where You're Meant to Be

6:00-11:00: The Void & Gestation, The beauty of In Betweenness, Becoming

11:00-14:00: You Are Already Whole

14:00-18:00: What is Freedom?

18:00-21:00: Seeking, Lack, & How You Know It's Time to Take a Step Back

21:00-23:00: We are Not Meant to Walk this Path Alone

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I went through the highs and lows of choosing a yoga teacher training, learned the hard lessons of first-time solo transatlantic travel, and lived to tell the tale.

In this episode, I share about everything I gathered in my journey to Bali, how I chose a Yoga Teacher Training, what YTT was like, and what I learned from doing yoga in the jungle of Ubud for 3 weeks.

We cover the questions you should ask before choosing a YTT, the trade-offs of affordability and community, what it's actually like traveling to Bali, and what my experience was like at House of Om.

Touching on the transformation that happens within, the cultural complexities of Bali, and the spiritual truths that emerge when you step away from the familiar, this episode is a 101 guide for anyone thinking about buying that one-way ticket.

For more on the depth of my experience and to hear my journal entries and awakenings while there, watch my recent video on Youtube: Diaries of a Corporate Drop-Out.

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59 - Taking the Leap

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Resources:

Choosing a YTT

House of Om:

House of Om: Melati

Samten Kriya

Visitng Bali:

Indonesia Visa Regulations 

Official Link to Apply for a Visa (Website isn't Great)

Recommendations mentioned:

Sanur: Nice Beach / Calm / on West Coast

Ubud: YTT's & Spiritual Center of Bali

Uluwatu: Beach/Cliftown in the South - favorite part of Bali

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:00: Introduction

3:00-9:00 Why I decided on YTT & My Journey

9:00-11:30: Choosing a YTT: 3 Questions to Ask Yourself

11:30-13:15: Intentions

13:15-16:00: Class / Group Size

16:00-19:00: House of Om: Affordability & Experience

19:00-20:00: Be Prepared for Emotional Catharsis

22:00-24:00: Teachers & Kriya Yoga, Schedule & trade-Offs

24:00-25:00: Emotional Processing

25:00-27:00: Choosing a Training: Summary

27:00-30:00: All About Bali

30:00-34:00: Gentrification, Westernization: Paying Respect

34:00-40:00: Flights, Visas, Police, Female Solo Traveling

40:00-44:00: Finances & Cost, Justifying the Investment

44:00-48:00: What YTT Gave Me

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NEXT WEEK, there is an episode all about the actual logistics of YTT and I give you my comprehensive guide to navigating choosing a yoga teacher training and going to Bali.

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From the murky edges of uncertainty to the quiet wisdom of who we choose to surround ourselves with, this episode is a gentle guide for the tender, relentless act of becoming.

In this episode, I speak to the ache of transitions and the courage of leaning into what’s alive: movement as medicine, community as a balm, the exquisite alchemy of falling apart and piecing ourselves back together, and deepening into the beautiful, magical, unknowing, unfurling process of Figuring Sh!t Out!! (something we will ALWAYS BE DOING in case u forgot.)

We are in this TOGETHER

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-9:00: Life Update / Moving in NYC / Figuring Sh!t Out in Real Time

9:00-13:00: Uncertainty is an OPPORTUNITY!! The Great Big Void.

13:00-19:00: MOVE that sh!t out

19:00-23:00: Let Love In

23:00-30:00: Let it Go

30:00-33:00: Life is a Mess! But it's YOUR beautiful Mess!

33:00-40:00: The One Resonant Truth

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life is explored, paths are formed, and the beautiful glimmers that make life worth living are found.

In this episode: trust, timing, resistance, and the real work of staying in it. We talk about letting go of the timeline, releasing the force of outcomes (unfurling the clenched hand of control, if you will) and listening to what wants to emerge.

To be curious! Is to be alive!

To be alive! Is to Walk the path of the unknown and let it remind you not of where you're aiming to go but of WHO! YOU! ARE!

If you are struggling to know what is next, to sit in the in-between, or to simply allow life to unravel as it should and as it does --

May you breathe deep while listening to these words and find some solace in them.

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too! Episode 78. You are Right on Time

CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:00: What if it's already yours?

3:00-8:00: Pressure, Survival, the Myth of "How"

8:00-11:00: Patience is a Virtue

11:00-23:00: In the Pause, a Portal

23:00-31:56: The Gift of Curiosity!!! Showing up Online & The Journey of Being Seen

31:56-40:00: What would you rather believe? Are You Willing to wait for it?

40:00-43:00: In the In-Between?

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But maybe - it has to so that a new way can emerge.

In this short episode, I dive into a core pillar of Figuring Sh!t Out:

Feeling like you don't have Sh!t figured out

(followed by a subsequent, sometimes immediate, existential crisis and break-down that makes you feel a little chaotic.)

I talk to you about the power of letting yourself feel, fall apart, and the clarity that can emerge from surrendering to the crash-out.

Consider this episode your guide and your companion when you need a little help through to the other side. Because sometimes --

The only way out is through.

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too! 47. Stop Playing it Small & Start Flirting with Life

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:30: Why Rock Bottom is a Beautiful Place to Be

3:30-6:06: Expansion Happens When We Go Beyond Limit

6:06-8:00: Control is a False God: Admitting & Surrendering will Set you Free

8:00-14:00: The Beauty of Letting Yourself Fall Apart

14:00-16:00: What NOT to Do During a Break Down

16:00-18:00: Dopamine Detoxing

18:00-23:00: You are A Phoenix Rising from the Ashes

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Today, (in honor of Mother's Day), we welcome Stacey Garcia - Integrative Health Coach, podcast host, mom, and breast cancer survivor.

Stacey shares her powerful story of receiving a cancer diagnosis during what should’ve been her healthiest year, and how that moment cracked her open to a deeper way of living and listening.

We talk about what it means to truly heal — not just through treatment protocols, but through energy work, ritual, community, and self-trust.

On this episode, we talk about her journey to becoming a Reiki Master, the emotional toll of chronic stress, and the missing links in modern wellness culture.

This episode captures one of the most honest and soul-opening conversations I've had on this show - and I am SO excited to share it with you.

This is a conversation about intuition, courage, softness, asking better questions, and the radical act of self-advocacy in medical treatment - it's not just about health, but about who we are when everything else falls away.

Stacey’s story is a reminder that healing isn’t about doing more — it’s about remembering your power, and allowing your body to speak.

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 41. The Mind-Body Connection, Emotional Regulation, Physical Well-Being, & Somatic Healing

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-4:00: Introduction 

4:00-7:30: Stacey's Background in Nutrition, Integrative Health, Body & Energy Work 

7:30-12:15: Surviving Cancer & Leaning into Holistic Wellness

12:15-16:00: The Medical System is designed to "Heal Sickness" not "Create Wellness"

16:30-21:30: Understanding Reiki, Energy Centers, Aura, & Energy Healing 

21:30-29:00: Exploring Subtle Energy, Grounding, & Balancing Energy Centers

29:00-32:00: Big Pharma & Exploring Alternative Healing 

32:00-36:00: Mindset in Healing; The Words of Life and Death are in the Tongue

36:00-40:00: The Role of your Village & Community in Healing

40:00-44:00: What advice do you have for us to proactively and preventatively improve our lifestyle & mindset?

44:00-47:00: What advice would you give to women who are struggling with body image?

47-50:00: "Letting Them"

50-55:00: LIVE YOUR LIFE! DO THE THING! YOU ONLY HAVE ONE!

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This knowing, this sensation, this whisper - it urges you subtly and softly with the faint voice of: "yes." "no." "this way" "that way" "do this thing" "don't do that thing," and the more adept we are at listening to it -

The easier our alignment is to find, the more at peace we feel, the more in our power we are, and the safer we are.

Before we know something with evidence, we are told with a delicate nudge -- because intuition whispers long before it screams.

Our intuition is our greatest source of inner truth, but we are de-conditioned out of listening to it and trusting it in many ways:

A world of noise and overstimulation, chattering voices that slip into our heads and take us away from our bodies and sovereignty, a conditioning to people-please and make everyone happy, and far too many "benefit-of-the-doubts" given where silent trust should've sat.

"I'm being crazy," we tell ourselves -- talking back to a voice that is beyond our time and space, that is an ancient and evolutionary skill that kept our ancestors alive long enough to lengthen our lineages.

We talk over this voice - a voice so strong, it has joined the family of our senses and been called the sixth.

If the world is far more than the physical matter we can see with spectrums of light, time, and space that are unavailable to us simply because we cannot perceive them with the naked eye, then this voice that does not speak words yet eludes a knowing from our bones should be consulted with and trusted far more often than it is.

This episode is meant to help you reconnect with it and deepen your intuition.

It is meant to guide you to that gut knowing, reunite you with your inner voice, and allow you the inner power to know -- that most of the time...

You already know. You already have your answers.

You just have to clear the space to hear to them.

In this episode, we discuss:

• what intuition is in relation to time, space, and other dimensions
• higher realms + consulting with / hearing the divine
• how felt sensation can be a guiding post for us
• how intuition is different than inner judgement, fear, and imagination + why and how we are conditioned out of it
• how outside influences & certain people can deter you from your intuition and the beauty of being connected to your own sovereignty
• how to get back in touch with your inner voice, with prescriptions from Julia Cameron's follow-up to The Artist's Way "Living the Artist's Way - an Intuitive Path to Greater Creativity,"

If this episode resonates with you, leave a comment & let me know & consider sharing it with a friend!

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 26. Intuition vs. Anxiety: Building Trust With Yourself by Learning to Listen to your Inner Wisdom

CHAPTERS:

0:00-4:00: Introduction

4:00-8:16: Gratitude + ANNOUNCEMENT <3 

8:16-14:40: Intuition, Different Dimensions, & A Force Felt but not Seen

14:40-17:10: Your Gut is Always Right (& It usually proves itself right) 

17:10-22:09: Alignment: Intuition is not Personal

22:09-27:00: Intuition vs Inner Judgement & Ways we Talk ourselves Out of our Intuition

27:00-31:45: Sensing: Intuitive Movement & Writing

31:45-34:00: A Short Practice to Get the Answer You Need

34:00-38:00: How my Intuition Led me to Leave my Job at the Right Time

38:00-44:25: Intuition vs Imagination, Higher Realms & Forces, & The Artist's Way

44:25-49:39: Practices: Writing for Guidance, Intuition Walks

49:39-52:39: Hearing your Own Voice & Digital Detoxing

52:39-56:32: Individuality > Trends, Imitation, Following Others

56:32-1:00:00: Trust your Damn Gut

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And they allow us to live. 

They give us the ability to sift through this life experience with the breath of both joy and fear, the expression of both laughter and pain.

In them, we celebrate. 

In them, we ache. 

And yet in them, we often do everything we can: 

To escape them. 

We meet ourselves in the mirror, avoid our eyes, and dart to the pieces of our beings that we hope to be different. 

We bombard ourselves with never-enoughness and create a shell of distance between us and these vessels that live to support us. 

We try to love our inner child, yet we perpetuate the same talk-tracks that reject their desire to live freely in their skin without the weight of judgement.

Our bodies — they want to be our friends. They always have.

And yet, in them - we wage a silent war.

For many of us, this is habit. 

I don't know a single female who hasn't dealt with some bout of shame, distortion, or insecurity from the pain of a toxic body image.

I am one of them. I have dealt with the ups and downs and everlong fluctuations of body image distress, disordered and restrictive habits, coming into a healed and accepting place time and time again only to find myself fall into old spirals of shame and self-rejection. 

I have had this podcast for two years and have never spoken about this topic — because though I have dealt so intimately with this, I didn't know how to speak about it. 

I didn't know what to say. 

I didn't feel — qualified.

How could I? When I was still figuring it out? 

And then, this week - I had a moment of reckoning with myself in a dressing room. 

There was a light cast onto the dark shadow of a tired talk-track I'd heard too many times — and I realized that this cycle does not stop by living in silence.

That too many of us carry around this silent shame and guilt with this subject matter. 

And it was time to break that cycle.

This episode is a soft but honest exploration of our relationship with our bodies, self-rejection, and the perfectionistic expectations we may carry in an age where image feels like currency. 

During this episode, I talk about: 

• how we perpetuate toxic cycles of conditional love with ourselves and how to stop this cycle of perfectionism 
• ways the inner critic shows up and steps to keep the inner critic in check
• strategies to become a friend to yourself and earn your own trust back 
• how to approach change from a place of love rather than FOR love
• how the body is an energetic extension of us, reflecting our inner dialogue 
• the projection of control and "the need to fix:" my story and reflections with this topic throughout my life

TW: Body Image, Disordered Eating.

Disclaimer: I am not a therapist, doctor, nor an expert on this topic — I am just sharing my own experience and the reflections of what I've learned. If you are in need of assistance or help, please seek an expert's guidance.

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 73 - Intentional Practices for an Aligned Life: How I Remain Organized, Consistent, & Connected

CHAPTERS: 

0:00-6:00: Being a Friend To Ourselves while Living in an age of "Perfect"

6:00-14:00: My Moment of Reckoning & Background 

14:00-16:00: Happiness is not on the Other End of your Standard of Perfection

16:00-23:00: Criticism as a form of Control & Self-Protection

23:00-28:00: Perfectionism to Procrastination Pipeline 

28:00-32:00: Just as You Are: Building Practices

32:00-35:00: Changing from a place of Love > changing FOR love

35:00-39:00: Earning your own Trust Back, the Body as an Energetic Extension of Us 

39:00-43:00: You're Going to have Bad Days - Leaning into Love in those Moments 

43:00-49:00 ANNOUNCEMENT & Special Opportunity!!!!

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It asks: 

What if today, you let yourself believe it was all magic? 

What if joy wasn't something to earn — but something to practice? 

This is your invitation to reject the homogenization of happiness, to romance the ordinary by becoming alive to our senses, and to let bliss be your rebellion - because it takes discipline to be in it.

If you've been caught up in the trap of productivity, control, have forgotten that you are a human on a floating rock and we're ALL just figuring sh!t out, this episode is for you — and it is a sacred portal to come home to wonder. 

Inside the episode: 

• Why softness and joy are powerful and sacred practices (not weaknesses) that have been practiced for centuries in ritual
• How your inner child is your portal to your higher self
• The myth of "coolness" and how it keeps us disconnected
• My personal rituals and list of romanticizing the every day 
• The feminine void, divine energy, and what it means to create from nothingness without an agenda
• Why play is a spiritual portal and how to reclaim it as an adult 
• What to do when joy feels scary or guilt-inducing

Romanticizing your life is not delusional, it is devotional. 

Play, Art, & Joy are not frivolous - they are sacred. 

So sit back , soften your edges, make a cup of tea — and come home.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-6:00: Being Silly is Sacred - Softness Isn't Weakness

6:00-8:30: The Myth of Maturity: Get Over Yourself. Being Cool is a Cage

8:30-11:50 Falling in Love with the Process 

11:50-14:00: The Power of Joy, Dance, & Community as Sacred Ritual

14:00-18:30: Shedding the Guilt of Happiness, Being in Bliss is Being in Divine Service

18:30-20:00: Inner Child is the Gateway to the Higher Self 

20:00-28:00: The Little Ways I Romanticize My Life 

28:00-32:00: Joy is a Great Business Strategy 

32:00-36:00: De-Influencing Minimalism & Curating a Life that Feels like Magic Adornment

36:00-40:00: The Feminine Void, The Sacred Unknown, The Dance of Energies 

40:00-47:00: The First Step to Manifestation & What Real Luxury Is 

47:00-48:00: Opportunity!

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Which is why healing comes from the inside out -- through modalities that often get us out of the thinking mind and into the body.

We've all heard it: The Body Keeps the Score. But what does that mean?

In this episode, I sit down with Dana Carretta-Stein — a certified EMDR therapist and trauma-informed care expert whose work has informed a community of over 100,000— to unravel how EMDR Therapy actually works. Not just as a therapy, but as a powerful pathway for healing the past and reclaiming the present.

We unpack what EMDR is and why it works, who it’s for, and why talk therapy isn’t always enough. We explore the overlap between ADHD and trauma, the importance of an attuned therapist, the phases of EMDR, and what healing really looks like when you’re finally ready to face the past.

I also share my personal journey with EMDR — from mother wound work to reprocessing deep-rooted patterns I didn’t even know were trauma responses.

This conversation is packed with insight, validation, and gentle encouragement for anyone navigating their own healing.

For anyone who feels stuck, numb, and is carrying the weight of what hasn't been held yet -- may this conversation be a guiding light for you.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-6:30: Introduction

6:30-9:00: What does Healing Mean to You?

9:00-14:00: Trauma is Not an Event, It's An Experience

14:00-18:00: The overlap between ADHD & Trauma. Rejection Sensitivity

18:00-26:00: How is Talk Therapy Different than EMDR? Feeling & Processing vs "Out-thinking" or Intellectualizing

26:00-40:00: My journey with EMDR, The Mother Wound, Attachment Trauma

40:00-46:00: How do You know You're "Done" with EMDR?

46:00-49:00: The Codependent Therapist/Patient Relationship & Importance of Attunement

49:00-53:00: "Pre-Requisites for EMDR," Fear around Repressed Memories Resurfacing

53:00-59:00: Results: What is the Biggest Change You've Seen in Someone through EMDR

59:00-1:07: Finding the Right Therapist, Insurance, & Investment in your Healing

1:07-1:09: EMDR & Joe Dispenza Overlap

1:09-1:15: Why EMDR? & Who is the Therapists' Therapist?

1:15-1:20: Road Less Traveled & Figuring Sh!t Out Advice

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DBT: Dialectal Behavioral Therapy / CBT: Cognitive Behavioral Therapy - commonly used modalities of Talk Therapy

EMDR: Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing 

IFS: Internal Family Systems / Parts Work

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We discuss the identify shifts that happen when you start showing up authentically and what I’ve learned about living more truthfully. We touch on guilt, money, intuition, and the chaos that comes with committing to a vision that only you can see.

On the Two Year Anniversary episode of FSO, we sit with what it really means to do the thing you know you need to do and let your truth lead: even when it’s messy, even when it’s uncomfortable, even when you want to hide and have spent your whole life doing so.

Two years ago, when I dropped this podcast - I did so out of just a little inkling of desire. I was 23, working full time in Tech, knowing if I didn't do something with my creative energy, I would go insane.

And two years later, here I am: listening to this authentic calling has become my full time job, I've made a deep commitment to honoring a life in pursuit of the expressive truth -- and I'm here to tell the tales along the way.

If you’re navigating the resistance of taking up the space your heart calls you to take up, waiting to be ready to create instead of consume, wondering how to begin, or just love Figuring Sh!t Out (thank you, I love YOU!!!!) -- this episode is for you.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-6:00: 2 years of FSO: what happens when you let your authentic truth lead / getting in touch with the divinity of who you are 

6:00-8:33: transformation lives in the breaking point. integration > information; action > learning

8:33-12:00: (you're probably wondering how I got here) 

12:00-15:00 strategy has no place in your dreams 

15:00-24:00: how a life of silence led me to talking for a living 

24:00-26:00: living guiltlessly in the place of authenticity & how to stop making excuses for yourself

26:00-29:00: money transparency & taking risks 

29:00-40:00: The Five Things

40:00-47:00: you can't even imagine how good it gets 

47:00-53:00: you are a multidimensional being not to be defined

53:00-58:00: commitment

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What is your relationship with the need to know? 

What is your dialogue with desire? 

What gnaws at the insides of your brain and creates compulsions of “must do’s” and “have to”? 

What lie led you to believe that those traits serve you more than they hurt you? 

Herein lies the entrypoint to your darkest shadow and your deepest peace. 

Can you sit in the stillness long enough to uncover magic? 

As we sit in the space between winter and spring, where windchill still whispers and the sun overcomes it’s fear of being seen, we see nature mimic this sentiment:

To sit in the space of something yearning to sprout – Requires patience, hope, and trust. 

We could plop ourselves in front of the budding tulips and urge them to come out of the ground. 

We could harness all of our energy and scream at the daffodils to make them sing.

But no amount of force will stop the natural becoming of what has been sewn into the surface of this life. 

When you’ve gripped so tightly onto control that the forces of nature just want to teach you your lesson, a catalyst occurs.  

Life bites you back with a distinct surprise, a death, a destruction.  

You are shown that – you can sure as hell try, but you won’t ever really know or guarantee or be certain of a thing. 

In surrender, there is a silent trust, a connected breath, a subtle heart-beat that begins to get louder with attention and intention. 

In this breath, you sink deeper into the now and realize this is the place where all of the magic happens.

Can you repeat: "I love you where you are and I love you where you're going?" as you stare back at yourself in the mirror ---

and mean it?

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-4:00: to pursue growth out of love, not escape is where true transformation is

4:00-6:30: the quiet space between two choices: life works with us or against us

6:30-15:00: I love you where you are & I love you where you're going, Growth is About Allowing

15:00-19:00: Releasing the clenched hand and allowing discovery & receptivity

20:00-24:00: the art of surrender - confronting our need to control

24:00-28:00: get out of your own way. the calling wouldn't be in your heart if it wasn't meant for you

28:00-34:00: You were never in the Driver's Seat - Allowing Divinity In

34:00-38:00: The Evidence of Fate's Hand & miraculous simplicity

38:00-43:00: Unwavering Trust & Faith is an Illusion, Most times it is Blind

43:00-46:00: You're literally on a floating rock

46:00-48:00: Come Back Home.

48:00: Announcement!!

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Today, I’m sitting down with Brad Yates, better known as Tap with Brad, who teaches tapping to an audience of 300,000 subscribers. With over 50 million views across his videos, Brad's guidance is instrumental in helping others dissolve fear and tap into their potential.

Brad has spent years helping people use Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT) to dissolve subconscious resistance and shift into alignment.

In this episode, we talk about:

:The science behind EFT & how it works on a subconscious level

:How stress and old programming silently block us from what we want

:Why the body holds onto past experiences,

:How tapping can physically rewire your brain for expansion and clear limiting beliefs

If you’ve ever been curious about EFT, this is your 101 crash course.

** TAPPING SESSION @ THE END (FOLLOW ALONG ON YOUTUBE)

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Tapping 101

Tap to have an Amazing Day

Self-Forgiveness Tapping

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-5:55: How I discovered EFT & WTF is it

5:55-8:30: How does a grown man find himself tapping on his face for a living? Who is Brad Yates?

8:30-10:55: How EFT Breaks up Subconscious Blocks, Health Benefits of EFT

10:55-15:00: The Importance of Body-Based & Somatic Therapies (EFT vs EMDR)

15:00-18:00: Listening to that Little Voice

18:00-20:10: The Power of Taking Full Responsibility for Our Own Well-Being

20:10-25:00: Energy Hygiene, Navigating Resistance, No Such thing as Lazy

25:00-30:45: Raising your Baseline of Well-Being

30:45-42:00: Navigating Relationships & Growth, The Trap of Projecting our Beliefs & Healing onto Others

42:00: LIVE Tapping session with Brad

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It is the quickest way to magic or stagnancy, depending on how we use it.

This episode explores how we use our time through the portal of words, thoughts, and actions to create the life we want or perpetuate the life we don't.

It explores how we can embrace timing, reframe and shift our perspective of time, and unlock possibilities through our beliefs.

May it inspire you to take a big, loving look around and decide:

"Actually, life is beautiful. And I do have time."

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32 - Career Confusion & Existential Crises: Advice for Finding Your Path & Enjoying the Journey Along the Way

45 - I ran a Marathon in Paris & Had a Second Spiritual Awakening

CHAPTERS:

0:00-5:00: You Are Right on Time + My Realizations turning 25

5:00-9:19: The Perspective of Time changes our Perception of Time 

9:19-12:30: You are Right on Time if you Decide you are Right on Time 

12:30-21:41: The Mental Manifests into the Physical: My Journey with Freeze State

21:41-25:18: Words are Spells and We Create Our Reality

25:18-29:03: Understanding the Subconscious

29:03-37:46: It's Not About the How & The Impossible is Possible

37:46-40:44: Your Peace is Your Problem

40:44-46:07: Time can be Subjective + Life Can Be Easier than we Make It

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Allow it to remind you that life is meant to be lived. That joy is a choice. That ease is only as simple as we make it. That thinking about your feelings or journaling about them is not the same as feeling them. That the tools for change in any moment are inside of the gift of your presence. 

This episode is for my fellow thought daughters, the introspective ones who love to see into their own psyche and pick apart the many caverns of patterns and shed light on their shadow, for those of us who are always looking for the lesson, trying to learn from life, who are committed to being a student of it. 

I know that you have taken the beautiful responsibility for your life, but have you remembered to also… live it?

If you feel like you've been stuck in the cycle of overanalyzing your thoughts, feelings, emotions, and trying to "figure your way out" of wherever you may have found yourself, if you have been on a constant hamster-wheel of striving towards who you want to be and are finding little fulfillment or joy in the process, if you've been doing the inner work but feeling like you're making no progress — this episode is for you. 

It is a reminder of the power of your subtle energy and is filled with with inspiration from my own discovery with this subject, practices for you to reinstate ease into your life, and a discussion about what choosing joy actually means and how to push through the resistance that will inevitably come when you decide that joy is your priority. 

You are not a self-help project & healing is not your purpose — living your life and experiencing it: is.

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47 - Stop Playing it Small & Start Flirting with Life

Resources for this Episode: 

Somatic Shaking Practice + Dance Movement Therapy

Somatic Meditation for Emotional Release

CHAPTERS:

0:00-5:30: the one who asks is the one who receives - you are not a self-help project.

5:30-9:30: having corporate america flashbacks in a community sauna?? what I learned

9:30-10:50: getting lost in being a student of life (vs a liver of life)

10:50-12:30: the influence of your inner teenager + alchemizing in acceptance

12:30-16:22: the path of least resistance + finding ease 

16:22-20:02: intellectualizing & overanalyzing to reinstating ease: subtle energy shifts

20:02-24:00: it takes discipline to be in bliss: joy must be more important to you than fitting in

24:00-27:15: time as a portal, being in communion with others 

27:15-29:00 code switching & energy shifting 

29:00-33:29: co-creation, trust with the divine, opening yourself 

33:29-34:27: short practice for cultivating a shift 

34:27-38:02: there is more to life than figuring sh!t out (contrary to what you may believe)

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And on the quarter of a century anniversary of being brought into this world, I realize that to look at aging as a gift or a grievance defines the course and direction of most of our lives.

It is a choice made every single day - in how we decide to live, breathe, and be.

This episode is about growing up. And also, deciding that we don't have to let that mean anything more than we make it.

If you feel you've been jostled by the confusion of coming of age, trying to figure sh!t out but not sure quite how -- well, this episode is for you.

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40 - Wake Up! Your Life is Meant to be Lived

EPISODE CHAPTERS: 

0:00-6:10: Navigating Confusion & Quarter Life Crises  

6:10 - 11:40: Turning 25 & The Portal of Choices

11:40-15:40: Calm Down - You Have Time.

15:40-17:00: You Can Start Over Anytime You Want

17:00-22:00: The Fig Tree of Choices & What we Can Learn from Sylvia Plath

22:00-25:00: Life is a Gift: Release the Expectations of it Needing to be Anything Else

25:00-27:00: Death is our Greatest Teacher & Life Itself is Your Career

27:00-30:00: We’re Just Five Year Old Adults: Life as a A Gift or Grievance

30:00-32:00: A Quarter Life Awakening: Becoming Alive to your Aliveness

32:00-36:00: There is only Going Forward. Every Day is Special.

36:00-38:00: Announcements & Thank You!!!!

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And change? Transformation? Getting all you dream about? Having the courage TO dream at all? 

It's not all rainbows. It is certainly uncomfortable.

But it is at once ----

Expansive. Heart-opening. Boundless. Miraculous. 

Remember: life is duality. You cannot have the expansion without the contraction. 

Healing your limits, learning your power, breaking cycles — it is what you were put on this earth to do. 

When you begin to transform, it is not a matter of if challenges will come - but how well you can receive them as lessons and opportunities to expand into when they do.

So how do we actually use the energetic laws of the universe and our cognitive bias to prove our assumptions right -- to our advantage?

This week, we talk about art of leveling up, playing the game of life, seeing the tests in the challenges, and stepping into higher timelines with practices and frameworks that I outline here.

This episode breaks down what it means to look at life as an energetic playing field that we are always taking part in and how to understand the mechanics of the law of assumption so that you can see how it is already ruling your life and use your power to wield it's influence back in your favor.

Assumption. Contraction. Expansion. Trust: The magic is in the motion. The only thing stopping you —

Is you. 

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EPISODE RESOURCES 

Overcoming Limiting Beliefs:

• Episode 66: Is it a Problem or a Pattern? Shifting Subconscious Programming, Becoming Aware, Breaking out of Limiting Beliefs
• Episode 24: A Guide to: Identifying Limiting Beliefs, Breaking Patterns, & Creating a new Self-Concept
• Episode 48: Running From What you Don't Want vs Going Towards Wha You Do: The Magic Key to Creation

Episodes on Manifestation + The Law of Attraction 

• Episode 5: Part 1: Living in Alignment, Surrendering, & Trusting Your Intuition 
• Episode 6: Part 2: Romanticizing your Life, Self-Fulfilling Prophecies, & Gratitude into Luckiness
• Episode 47: Stop Playing it Small & Start Flirting with Life 

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• Visualization Mediation 2 (Youtube) 

EPISODE CHAPTERS: 

0:00-5:40: Episode Overview & Updates <3

5:40-10:00: The Power of the Law of Assumption

10:00-19:00: The Moment of Reckoning: The Contractions before the Expansions

19:00-22:00: The Game of Life: Challenges are Checkpoints

25:00-31:00: Why "Manifestation" Hasn't Worked for You & How to get the Most out of Visualization Practices

31:00-38:00: Aligning Yourself Vibrationally, Connecting to Higher Timelines, The Butterfly Effect 

38:00-43:00: Forget the How! What do you WANT? Trust, Surrender, Rejection is Redirection 

43:00-46:00: Side Quests (&When they Turn into Main Quests) 

46:00-50:00: Practices for Receptivity, Softening the Space of Your Heart, Asking for More > Settling for Less

50:00-52:00: ANNOUNCEMENT!! (Advice Sessions for FSO Together!!!) 

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If you've been around the block getting your heart broken or fearing to let it be loved or found yourself in a thousand different ruts dating people who just don't feel right for you — this episode is a foundation for navigating that. 

If there is part of you that feels or has felt incomplete without a romantic relationship, that feels like you're waiting around to find the person you're meant to be with, that longs for wholeness in the union of you and another — I have one piece of advice for you that rings throughout this episode: 

Stop looking. Stop searching. And realize that you are already whole on your own. Everything you're looking for is inside of you - including the ingredients it takes to attract that healthy union in your life. 

Center YOU. Fall so deeply in love with you and your life, that anyone who opens the door to enter it must meet a standard you've set with the love you give yourself in order to walk in. 

Set the standard for how you want to be treated with how you treat yourself. 

Become so in love with your hobbies, your friendships, your pursuit of growth - that anyone who enters the wholeness of your life will only compliment it and add value to the bounty you've already created. 

This episode is about expanding the capacity for what we believe we deserve through the nurturing of a relationship with ourselves. 

We dive deep into the psychology of romantic relationships and what it takes to attract a healthy partnership into our lives, how to keep it, and why our nervous system gets triggered in romantic relationships and I share my story on figuring this sh!t out over the last couple of years.

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If you liked this episode, you'll like these too: 

Episode 34: Confidence, Personal Power, & Magnetic Energy - Rising Above Judgement & People Pleasing 

Episode 24: A Guide to: Identifying Limiting Beliefs, Breaking Patterns, & Creating a New Self-Concept

Episode 4: Access to You is a Privilege - Navigating All Types of Love & Relationships

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CHAPTERS: 

0:00-5:16: Your Relationship with Yourself Determines What You Accept in a Romantic Relationship

5:16-8:00: Decentering Romantic Love & Centering Yourself: Dating Yourself

8:00-9:30: Why We Let Some Relationships Keep us Small 

9:30-10:30: Building a Relationship with Yourself will Always Lead to More Love in Your Life

10:30-13:04: Navigating Heartbreak & Healing

13:04-15:00: Understanding Attachment Styles 

15:00-17:30: Anxious Attachment & Protest Behavior

17:30-18:56: Avoidant Attachment

18:56-22:22: Secure Attachment & The Dynamics of a Healthy Relationship

 22:22- 25:16: Self-Awareness in Love 

25:16- 27:30: The Trap of Dating Apps & Searching for Love

27:30-30:00: Self-Respect > Validation: Letting People Audition to be in Your Life

30:00-32:00: Mistaking Infatuation for Love & Situationships

32:00- 34:00: The Importance of Wholeness in a Relationship

34:00-36:09: Building False Senses of Intimacy has to GO

36:09-38:30: The Power of Platonic, Familial, & Self Love

38:30-40:00: Being Picky, Non-Negotiables, & Not Being Afraid to Walk Away

40:00- 43:00: Healing IN a Relationship & Growing with a Partner, Partnership + Personal Growth 

43:00-46:42: The Right Relationship Gives you Freedom 

46:42-49:38: Challenging Negative Beliefs about Love & Relationships

49:38-57:40: Attracting Positive & Healthy Relationships

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This is a mantra I have been using in my life for the last few weeks - one I have shared with all of you on this show, and one that defines what this episode is truly about. 

A few episodes ago, you asked for a template to my personal tracking techniques - ones that have held me accountable and have allowed me to take this The Road Less Traveled. 

You asked & I listened.

On today's episode, I walk you through the specific intentional practices that have changed my life - including one that I created and have used for years called "Threading"

This "threading" technique has been the basis for all of my growth - holding me accountable with seasonal, monthly, weekly, and daily goal-setting & checking-in as it relates to my alignment and overall health/wellness. 

& The older I get, the more I realize that health truly is wealth. 

In this discussion, I break it all down + give you a peak into my inner world: a Type A, highly sensitive, virgo rising who loves organization but also loves freedom of expression, creativity, and flow - someone who has learned how to manage an ADHD brain without medication and with peace + purpose. 

This episode is about the devotion to living intentionally while remaining committed to expansion - a hard balance to strike which requires practice.

These practices are how I have remained consistent, worked 2 full-time jobs (one corporate, one creative), quit one of them to pursue this podcast full time, all while learning about what it takes to be a friend to myself, and then actually being that friend to myself.

I am sharing my template with you, a full in-depth breakdown of how I use it, and how you can format it to fit your needs and adjust to you.

We also talk simple every day practices for morning, day-time, and the evening which allow life to feel soft, full, and sweet. 

Actionable, implementable tips for practicing the art of "I love you where you are, and I love you where you're going."

Enjoy

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Episode 71: Consistency is Self-Respect. You are the Only One Standing in Your Way

Episode 56: Conquering Perfectionism & Procrastination: Mastering Self-Discipline with Softness

CHAPTERS: 

0:00-7:17: The Road Less Traveled

7:17-11:36: Organizing my Life as a Type-A who Loves freedom and has ADHD 

11:36-15:16: Creating a Growth Diary - Your Own Thread of Evolution

15:16-17:00: Seasonal & Monthly Eras

17:00-20:41: Taking care of Your Human

20:41-24:00: Mindful Tracking, Self-Compassion, Accountability

24:00-26:00: Breakdown 

26:00-29:00: A place of Love vs a Place of Shame

29:00-31:00: Daily Check-Ins: A Path to Self Awareness

31:00-35:36: Celebrating Progress & Identifying Patterns: Solo Sunday Resets + Weekly Reflections

35:36-40:10: Monthly Reviews & Manifestation Hacks 

40:10-50:00: Morning Rituals: Intentions, Proclaimed Gratitude, Being Ruthless about Your Peace

50:00-54:00: Grounding Practices to Protect your Energy

54:00-59:42: End of Day Rituals, Surrendering into Sleep

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And the call is not coming from the phone you spend your life connected to – the call is coming from inside the house. It’s coming from inside of you.

It's subtle - and you must be open to listen to it.

But our entire society has been structured to keep you disconnected from it. 

We live in an age of over-consumption - the bleak deafening of our senses with more, more, more. 

With blue light and dopamine. 

With gazes of longing and attempts to fill our hearts with distraction and commiseration. 

We run away from ourselves by running straight into the eye of the storm, taking in other people's lives as a past-time to forget our own and taking on the weight of the world as a means to surrender to the powerlessness we feel inside of us.

And every day that goes by where we live our lives half-asleep, in the caffeinated neglect to ourselves and our inner being, we drift further from our senses and our ability to wake ourselves up. 

We are all looking for the same thing – the ability to live awake and embodied and to feel more deeply - yet we reject the feelings that are uncomfortable to hold.

And in that, we reject our own unique ability to alchemize them in the way the world most needs. 

What you want to create is not about you. 

It is about the collective devotion to something greater than the suffering this world will suffocate us with if we let it. 

Our lives - messy and undone and beautiful and chaotic - have asked us to create the perfect creations for the conditions we are in - right now. 

Our lives are always asking us to take a big gulp of air from them and see what comes out when we exhale, see what we do with it, see how we transmute it. 

We were meant to alchemize, transmute, and be part of something greater than the numbness we have found ourselves apart of.

This episode is a wake-up call for anyone who is struggling to push through the cracks of that numbness and live awake.

This episode is a wake-up call for anyone who has ran from their intuitive impulses and denied their right to exist boldly, denied their right to be a creator.

Your life is asking you to live it.

The question is -- are you willing to listen?

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Ep 14 - Do you crave to be understood but fear to be perceived? Who are you when no one is watching? 

Inner Child Healing Episodes: 21, 37, & 70 

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CHAPTERS: 

0:00-6:45: You Were Born to Create 

6:45-21:00: Create or be Consumed (a piece written by me)

21:00-28:00: The Consumption Trap & The Psychological Effects of Overconsumption

28:00-30:00: Express or be Repressed: the POWER of creation

30:00-35:00: Stop Scrolling, Start Living: The False Internalization of Other People's Thoughts/Opinions

35:00-40:00: Victim Mentality, The Illusion of Ego Satisfaction, What are your Gifts?

40:00-47:30: Breaking the Cycle: The Artist's Way, Rebirth, Transformation

47:00-56:00: Nothing is Forever & You are the Perfect Person for the Dreams that You Have 

56:00-1:00:00: Creating our Mindset: Seek Light & it will Seek you

1:00:00-1:10:37: Practical Shifts to Becoming a Creator & Living awake

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Yet, we flirt with our own uncertainty and imposter syndrome more than we embrace our dreams and goals, talking ourselves out of what we want and what it takes to get there instead of talking ourselves into action. 

We ask: "Is this worth it? Am I doing the right thing? Spending my time in the right places?" 

We self-sabotage our efforts to self-empower with limiting beliefs we don't realize are running the show. 

I must ask you:

Do you break promises to yourself? 

Do you avoid the truths you're scared to share? 

Do you harbor resentment towards others for not being trustworthy or consistent or "there for you"? 

Do you realize that your world is simply a mirror - reflecting back to you what you move with? 

Let's make no mistake: 

We always know what it will take to get us where we want to go. 

Is it easy? No. 

Is it simple? Yes. 

All it takes - is showing up. 

Showing up with full conviction and alignment one day and showing up scared and unsure the next. 

Showing up fully, unapologetically, and with all of your fear at the surface ready to be dissolved with your courage. 

Showing up every day with what you have to give, being honest with yourself when you can give more and being even more honest with yourself when you have nothing to give.

This episode is about the deepest form of self-respect we can build: Consistency. Making & keeping promises to ourselves. And getting the f*ck out of our own way.

Consistency as a form of self-respect (Video)

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66: Is it a problem or a pattern? Shifting Subconscious programming, Becoming Aware of Triggers, & Breaking out of Cycles

24: A Guide to: Identifying Limiting Beliefs, Breaking Patterns, & Creating a new Self-Concept

EPISODE CHAPTERS: 

0:00-10:00: Consistency: The Key to Self-Respect, Self-Trust, Confidence

10:00-12:00: Devotion over Discipline 

12:00-16:00: The Miracle that is: You Even Existing at All 

16:30-20:00: Why We Are Inconsistent: Broken Promises, Unaligned Action, Burnout 

20:00-27:00: Incremental Change & 1% Better: The Ice Cube Metaphor

27:00-29:00: You're not Crazy - Your Brain Just Doesn't like Change

29:00-37:00: Being Honest: Gentle Measures for Accountability & Tracking

37:00-41:00: Perfectionism & Procrastination: Secret Self-Sabotaging Tactics  

41:00-46:00: Maybe YOU Are the Problem; Boundaries; The World is a Mirror

46:00-49:00: Quiet Perseverance outside your Comfort Zone is All it Takes

49:00-55:00: Ways to Train Resistance: Long-Term Satisfaction > Short-Term Pleasure

55:00-1:02:00: Imposter Syndrome: What's the difference between someone who has it & someone who doesn't?

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This episode is part three of the shadow-work & inner child healing series. Listening to previous episodes is not required before listening to this one, but if you’d like to dive deeper you can find them here: 

Episode 21: Shadow-Work Series, Part 1: A Beginners Guide to Inner Child Healing, Forgiveness, & Self-Discovery

Episode 37: Healing Self-Expression & Actualizing your Dreams Through Your Inner Child - Shadow-Work Series

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-9:00: Revisiting Inner Child Healing & Shadow-Work

9:00-14:30: What if you got everything you wanted, and forgot to have fun? 

14:30-17:00: The Fullness of Emotional Expression, Healing the Pain

17:00-26:00: The Inner Children / Inner Teenager as a Conduit of Compassion for Our Present-Day Selves

26:00-28:00: Inner Child Healing Workshop!! 

28:00-32:00: Practicing Dialogue with Our Inner Child

32:00-40:00: Storytime: Healing Anxious Attachment with Inner Child Work

40:00-44:00: How to Know if You’re Disconnected from Your Inner Child

44:00-50:00: Ways to Connect & Let Them be The Muse

50:00-1:00:58: Your Inner Child & Higher Self, The Radical Act of Romanticization & Self-Expression

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Let it simmer in the space between your breath and let yourself taste the salt from the tears you may have never gotten to cry. 

Fold into your bones. 

Allow the whispers of what’s left to come through you. 

Don’t rush to rebury that hatchet. 

Learn to feel pain and then learn to feel joy.

Learn to feel them both fully and boldly,

because you cannot have one without the other.

Learn to feel. 

Learn to feel as though one day, you may fall asleep & never wake up — 

because one day, you will.”  - Words jotted in my December 2024 journal

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CHAPTERS: 

0:00-5:06: The Epidemic of Hustle Culture, Phone Addiction, & Chasing

5:06-9:56: The Road Less Traveled & Meeting Our Authentic Selves

9:56-13:40: Limiting Beliefs will Sit in the Space of Growth before You’ve Grown

13:40-17:15: We Are Here to FEEL! Love/Pain are inseparable 

17:15-21:41: The Harms of Social Media & Losing our Critical Thinking Skills

21:41-27:06: Staying Awake in a Numbed World & Normalizing Love

27:06-30:00: Intellectualizing Our Feelings & Reclaiming Our Attention 

30:00-32:12: The Pursuit is the Point

32:12-38:55: Keeping our Heart Open to Free Ourselves - Creating Space to Feel 

38:55-48:14: Belonging, Community, & Connection to Heal Numbness

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

38 - Unlocking our Heart's Potential: Clearing Energetic Blocks & Accessing a Portal to Profound Love & Inner Alchemy

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At a time where the world tells us that it’s the time to be brand new - while all we yearn for is stillness, how do we find reconciliation between setting intentions + and moving with the slow beat our body may crave during the winter-time? 

This episode is another breath away from all of the noise around needing to be someone else, go somewhere else, and turn your life into something else as we transition into the new year. 

It is a testament to the power of intention, presence, and surrender — embracing patience, moving intuitively, and taking it one step at a time. 

On this episode, I discuss the concept of a Winter Arc: a time where we use the coldest, darkest, shortest days of the year to refocus and reground ourselves so that we can bloom when it is time.

I give you a guide into the simple daily rituals that ground me and allow life to be a sacred act that is created by every movement and choice, rather than a list of resolutions to accomplish and a new person to become. 

After all, breathing life into a new year requires that we have the patience to take a full breath.

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CHAPTERS: 

0:00-7:15: The Importance of Reflection & Patience During Winter

7:18-13:44: The Winter Arc 

13:44-15:25: Rituals for Grounding & Connection 

15:25-23:00: Morning Rituals: Greeting the Day 

23:00-30:35: Ritualizing Transitions of the Day, Energetic Protection, Creating a Sanctuary for yourself

30:35-35:00: Mini Rituals for Romanticizing the Moment

35:00-42:00: The Risk of Making our Lives a Means to an End & The Act of Devotion 

42:00-46:00: Your Growth is Inevitable - Let Yourself Have the Luxury of Living Your Life

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too: 67. Rituals vs Resolutions: Creating the Space for Softness, Celebrating Life, & Resting with Our Interior Winter

May you allow yourself to start over whenever you need, whenever you please, and not when the world tells you that it's time.

May you gift yourself the purity of rest and the peace of pause.

May you allow this year to leave you and the new one to form with grace, ease, and patience.

May you embrace that nothing may feel different, yet everything is always changing.

May this episode connect you with your heart, body, & being.

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35 - Evolve of Repeat: Closing Chapters, Shedding Skin, & Trusting the Unfolding of your Path

CHAPTERS:

0:00-5:00: The Pressure of New Years vs Letting Life Happen

5:00-10:50: The Inevitability of Change

10:50-14:00: Rituals > Resolutions: Celebrating Life

14:00-17:00: Embracing Unseriousness

17:00-21:00: Accessing Future Wisdom, Inner Child Healing, & Seeing Life from a Bird's Eye View

21:00-25:00: The Power of Presence & Living with Love

25:00-30:00: Listening to Our Interior Seasons

30:00-34:00: Mini-Meditation

For when you know you deserve more, but aren't getting it.

For when you know you deserve more, but are standing in the WAY of you getting it.

For the ones who are always self-sabotaging.

For the ones who react and then hate that they react.

For the ones who hold their tongue until they burst.

For the ones who know they can be great and big and bright and wonderful but something holds them back.

For the ones who are ready to change + wake up to the ways in which YOU just might be the problem.

Or maybe there is no problem.

Maybe you're just in the same pattern.

And you're choosing it for no other reason than -- it's what you know.

This episode is for the ones who are ready to know something different.

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Episodes mentioned in this podcast: 45. I ran a Marathon in Paris + Had a Second Spiritual Awakening

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one: 24. A guide to breaking limiting beliefs, breaking patterns, & creating a new self-concept

Books mentioned:

• Becoming Supernatural, Joe Dispenza
• Atomic Habits, James Clear

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EPISODE CHAPTERS:

00:00-09:00: Introduction/Episode & Life Update on the Road Less Traveled

9:00-14:10: Problem vs Pattern - StoryTime

14:10-19:45: Becoming Aware of Habits, Triggers, & Emotions

19:45-27:00: Spotting Patterns, The Neuroscience of Why we Have Bad Habits

27:00-30:00: A Pattern wants to Pattern

30:00-36:00: Emotional Regulation: Letting Our Emotions Guide us vs Being Controlled by them

36:00-40:00: The Pattern of Miscommunication

40:00-45:00: Creating New Neural Pathways + Shifting our Brain

45:00-50:00: How to Change: Identity-Based Change & Habit Formation

50:00-57:00: How to Identify your Limiting Beliefs + Belief Systems

57:00-1:01: How to Change: Mental Rehearsal, Inner Child Healing/Shadow-Work

1:01-1:06: Expanding your Vision & Rewriting your Story

1:06-1:11: Shifting Our & Our Language to Serve Us

For anyone who finds themselves teetering at the edge of a cliff - knowing that they want to take a leap, knowing they feel called to close a door to open a new one, but is scared of what's on the other side, who is scared of free-falling.

I've been there.

And this episode is something I wish I would've had when I was there.

It's been two months since I leaped off that cliff, and I've learned a lot in the process.

Sometimes, our lives change in the matter of a moment without our input. And somehow, everything does work out. But other times, we have to be the ones to make the decision, to look fear in the eye, and boldly say "I want more for my life," and co-create with a universal intelligence to give ourselves that. Sometimes, we have to trust that everything will work out while also being the force that changes our own lives.

On this episode, we're talking about the fine line between trusting yourself, facing your fear, & the practical steps necessary to set yourself up well for a big life-change while also having faith in the divine + surrendering to the process.

We're not leaping blindly off the cliff and free-falling into the unknown (that works for some people, but not most of us) -- we're walking up to the edge with our heads high & creating the necessary relationship with ourselves and with life to trust that when we decide to jump, there is a net to catch us.

Lots of love to all of you on The Road Less Traveled <3

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Episode 26: Intuition vs Anxiety: Building Trust With Yourself by Learning to Listen to Your Inner Wisdom

Episode 60: How a Self-Discovery Journey Led me from Working in Tech to Doing Yoga Teacher Training in Bali

EPISODE CHAPTERS:

0:00-11:00 Introduction + Workshop Announcement

11:00-20:00: Externalizing Happiness, Facing Ourselves, Taking Responsibility for Our Lives (Step 0)

20:00-26:00: Fear vs Intuition, Learning to Listen to Your Intuition, Daydreaming (Step 1)

26:00-29:00: Losing Friends/Outgrowing Relationships as a ByProduct of Inner Change (Step 2)

29:00-35:00: Setting Yourself Up Well + Getting REAL on What You Need to Make it Happen (Step 3)

35:00-43:00: Developing Trust in the Divine, Creating Dialogue with Life, Creating an Abundance Mindset (Step 4)

43:00-50:00: The Most Important Thing You'll Ever Learn to Do, Ways to Practice Letting Go & Surrender (Step 5)

50:00: The Foundation of Developing the Trust to Take Leaps of Faith (Episode Summary)

In this episode, I sit down with an inspiring & intuitive-led expert on this topic to cover: 

• How emotional pain gets stuck & stored in the body & why it’s so hard to unlearn bad habits + toxic patterns (AKA: why is it so much harder to expect happiness than it is to expect pain?)
• What it means to live in alignment and be free of the burden of worry and pain 
• What the energetic body is & how to release through Movement + Kriya Yoga (&What is Kriya Yoga)
• How Fear Blocks us + Love Unlocks us

From the moment I met Samten Kriya, I was awe-struck by her incredible ability to be so unapologetically herself, command a room with such power, yet still speak directly from her heart and maintain an air of kindness. She was one of my teachers during my 3 week stay at House of Om Bali, where I did my Yoga Teacher Training while on my journey in Southeast Asia. 

Samten is one of the few Kriya Yoga teachers in the world - focusing on expressive somatic movement to heal trauma and unleash the “True You” underneath pain, societal conditioning, and subconscious programming. In Kriya, there are “knots” in the body - energetic and physical tightenings that are formed during traumatic and emotional life experiences that can only be released and resolved with movement.

When we we live in the subsconcious stories that keep us stuck in our pain, we habitually reinforce these knots of pain when. Kriya is a modality of somatic movement to release energy & align yourself with who you really are. 

Intuitively inclined from an early age, Samten was taught by a Guru in the Himalayas after studying and teaching Hatha Yoga for several years, living in Yoga Ashrams, and studying Tibetan Buddhism. She holds a wide-range of knowledge about the body - both physically and energetically and an articulate and expressive tongue to spread her knowledge with the world.

You can follow Samten here:

Website 

IG 

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EPISODE CHAPTERS

0:00: Introduction

6:00: Growing up Psychic & Interested in Buddhism while part of a Religious Family

8:00: Introduction to Kriya Yoga 

11:00: Life Prepares You: Choosing Destiny vs It Choosing You (Free will vs. Fate) 

14:00 How are we divinely guided?

15:00 Inner Child Healing & Awakening: How to.. “Be Yourself?” Leaning to be yourself

16:00: What is Kriya Yoga? How does it help us heal emotional pain?

19:00: How to Know if You’re Actually Ready to Change

23:00 You have to Feel to Heal: How You Need to Use Your Body To Heal

28:00: What is the craziest thing you’ve ever seen be healed in your work?

33:00: The Role Pain plays in Our Journey of Self-Discovery & Realization

35:00: Fear Blocks You, Love Unlocks You: Opening the Heart

37:00: What if you feel like you don’t have the resources to heal/break the cycle?

43:00: Ego Death + Energy Realignment

45:00 Why this Knowledge Has been Kept Secret 

48:00 Enlightenment: The Bliss of Living in Love

53:00 How Do We learn To Trust? / Learning to Trust 

57:00 Advice for Those on The Road Less Traveled

The first visitor in our internal world is usually Anger. It is best friends with Pride & usually sounds like: 

“Why is is this way? Why did that have to happen? Why couldn’t you have…” + It is often paired with actions towards others that are uninhibited from showing that we still pain.

It is silent, passive, and quite poisonous to our hearts.

Anger & Pride make a bed for Resentment to sleep comfortably in - and all that resentment does is keep us away from the door to our healing. The doorway to our hearts becomes poisoned.

While they are hard, these emotions and triggers are tests and challenges of our willingness to stay present with ourselves and commitment to growth during heavy times. 

Can you peak under the hood of all that anger, pride, resentment, pain — and hold space for what’s underneath it?

Can you consciously decide to continue your journey, in the face of what may have led you on it in the first place?

Can you show up for the inner child you’ve worked so hard to recognize + validate? And can you do it with love? 

I recorded this episode back in June, before The Road Less Traveled kicked off - but as I felt into my experience this past week which always seems to mirror the collective, I felt that some words and reminders on navigating hard family dynamics were needed. 

THIS EPISODE IS AVAILABLE IN VIDEO!

WATCH HERE: https://youtu.be/gy4Be6Bk9mk

In this episode, I cover how Anger + Pride keep us from healing, what self-abandonment looks like & how to spot it, and reminders on what to do when the heart wants to close. 

It’s short & it’s sweet - & if you need more, check out these episodes for further deliberation on these subjects: 

Shadow-Work: 

Episode 21. Shadow-Work Series: Part 1: A Beginners Guide to Inner Child Healing, Forgiveness, & Self-Discovery 

Episode 37. Healing Self-Expression & Actualizing your Dreams Through Your Inner Child - Shadow-Work Series

Episode 39. The Dark Nigh of the Soul

Episode 46. Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma & Healing a Wounded Inner Child: Guest Episode with my Sister

Episode 62. Pain is Inevitable, Sufering is a Choice: A step-by-step guide on what to do when sh!t hits the Fan

Episode 1: Inner Child Healing + Shadow-Work 

Healing the Heart: 

Episode 38. Unlocking our Heart’s Potential: Clearing Energetic Blocks & Accessing a Portal to Profound love & inner Alchemy 

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EPISODE CHAPTERS: 

0:00: Introduction 

2:15: What is Pride? What is Anger? How does it keep us from healing? 

3:06: Anger is Sadness in a Leather Jacket 

3:54: Reacquainting with the Heart - A Piece Written by Me 

5:55: Acknowledge that Anger has Serves a Purpose in Protecting You (But Know When to Let it Go) 

7:05: Recognizing how We Perpetuate Our Own Pain 

7:30: The Abandonment Wound + It’s Friend: Self-Abandonment

8:32: Triggers, Expectations, & The Very Real Reality of Loving

9:34: Validating & Processing your Inner Grief

10:16 Your Responsibility is You 

11:12 Whatever you Do: Keep Your Heart Open 

You get the point.

I felt it necessary to interrupt the regularly scheduled programming of the Road Less Traveled to talk about what to do when there are the inevitable bumps in the road. 

How do we respond? 

How do we not spiral? 

How do we.. reverse a spiral (if we may have found ourselves in one)? 

Sh!t happens -- and it's supposed to -- it wouldn't be life if it didn't deeply humble us at times.

But how can we learn to surrender and let life be our teacher, even & especially when things just may be falling apart a little? 

In my one-armed determination to answer this question as life presented me with my own brand new challenge, I created a step-by-step framework for you to walk yourself through to the other side when to the light when you find yourself in some darkness/

It is based on the premise that pain is inevitable - pain is our teacher - pain is a necessary opposite to the sweetest joy. 

But in most instances, suffering is a choice. And it is not something that helps us, nor is it something we have to do. 

CHAPTERS: 

0:00 - 2:30: The Light In The Dark?

2:30 - 10:00: Happening FOR You, Not To You: Forehead Kisses From The Universe (A piece written by me <3) 

10:00 - 16:00: The Law of Polarity & Life's Tests

16:00 - 19:00: Holding Space for Duality. Self-Compassion > Positivity

19:00 - 25:00: The Power of Darkness, Spiraling, & Resilience: Diamonds are Made from Pressure

25:00 - 30:00: Getting Through Hard Sh!t - A Step by Step Framework (&Breaking My Arm) 

30:00 - 34:30: Step 1: The Most Important Question to Ask Yourself

34:30 - 39:00: Step 2: Feel.

39:00- 43:00: Step 3: The Company + Comfort You Keep can Keep You Grounded

43:00- 47:00: Step 4: Learning How to Surrender 

47:00: The Influence of Your Expectations on Your Reality 

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What is SEASON THREE, THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED?

There is an epidemic in our generation and throughout our society of burnout and hopelessness and a desire for something more. More and more people are deciding to pursue a new path, take a non-conventional journey, to live in alignment with their soul. There is a collective calling for truth and creativity and to live from a heart-centered place.

But how?

Consider Season Three, The Road Less Traveled, as a research project to help us understand that.

I've quit my full time job in Tech, traveled across the world to go to Yoga Teacher Training in Bali, and leaped off a cliff to pursue Figuring Sh!t Out full time as an answer to the calling deep within my heart.

On this season, I'll interview people who've done something similar, I'll share all of the beautiful lessons and tools I've learned, and I will move from the deepest place of knowing that if we will always be Figuring Sh!t Out, we might as well enjoy the process.

In this episode, we answer those questions.

The first guest of The Road Less Traveled Series is a 22-year old, vibrant yogi from New York with an old soul who transitioned from a touring musician's life to a nomadic and mindful existence.

Etai's story is fueled by a love for sharing wisdom and a deep union with his own uniqueness. His perspective challenges stereotypes around yoga and how to make it an accessible tool that goes beyond physical postures and stands as a pathway to self-expression and authenticity.

Even if you've never practiced yoga before or don't care for it - this conversation is rich with breaking free of societal norms and finding empowerment in embracing change. We weave into and out of the spiritual roots of this tradition and navigate the commercialization of wellness and we discuss what it actually means to us to liberate ourselves from external validation and go forth into our Road Less Traveled.

You can find Etai here.

ig: thugtai

CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - Introduction: The Road Less Traveled

(04:54) - Radiance, Authenticity, Exploring Yoga Beyond the Stereotypes

(8:00) - The Westernization of Yoga

(19:43) - Self-Discovery & Expansion through Somatic Expression

(27:11) - Surrendering to the Call, Trusting the Inner Voice

(40:54) - Brave Love: The Intersection of Fear + Love

(47:25) - New York City vs the World

(55:59) - The Freedom of Letting Go

(01:03:22) - Journey of Embracing Authenticity and Purpose

(01:14:35) - How to Nurture your Inner Growth + Take the Leap

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What is SEASON THREE, THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED?

There is an epidemic in our generation and throughout our society of burnout and hopelessness and a desire for something more. More and more people are deciding to pursue a new path, take a non-conventional journey, to live in alignment with their soul. There is a collective calling for truth and creativity and to live from a heart-centered place.

But how?

Consider Season Three, The Road Less Traveled, as a research project to help us understand that.

I've quit my full time job in Tech, traveled across the world to go to Yoga Teacher Training in Bali, and leaped off a cliff to pursue Figuring Sh!t Out full time as an answer to the calling deep within my heart.

On this season, I'll interview people who've done something similar, I'll share all of the beautiful lessons and tools I've learned, and I will move from the deepest place of knowing that if we will always be Figuring Sh!t Out, we might as well enjoy the process.

This episode covers all that led up to me leaving my job, going to Bali for YTT, and deciding to pursue my podcast full time - stepping foot onto The Road Less Traveled.

Weekly Sunday's are back!!

Video Episode to this Podcast can be found here!

IF YOU HAVEN'T YET, CHECK OUT THE SEASON 3 Premier Here!

CHAPTERS:

- 0:00 - 2:52: welcome to figuring sh!t out

- 2:53: you’re probably wondering how I got here: a recap of FSO’s history

- 8:22: but how do you change everything? why I took a break

- 12:30: how running a marathon changed my mindset on innate expansive capability

- 13:56: how I ACTUALLY took the leap: money, mindset, tools

- 18:50: facing limiting beliefs with gratitude for the uniqueness of being

- 22:05: Bali + Yoga Teacher Training

- 25:44: a year of facing myself: all that I did + let go of to get here

- 30:06: breaking the cycle of generational trauma & rewriting the narrative

- 32:52: growth often looks like uncertainty & confusion

- 34:56: walking upon the road less traveled + what you can expect from S3

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If you liked this episode, you'll like:

I ran a Marathon in Paris

Fear is an Illusion

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What is SEASON THREE, THE ROAD LESS TRAVELED:

There is an epidemic in our generation and throughout our society of burnout and hopelessness and a desire for something more. More and more people are deciding to pursue a new path, take a non-conventional journey, to live in alignment with their soul. There is a collective calling for truth and creativity and to live from a heart-centered place.

But how?

Consider Season Three, The Road Less Traveled, as a research project to help us understand that.

I've quit my full time job in Tech, traveled across the world to go to Yoga Teacher Training in Bali, and leaped off a cliff to pursue Figuring Sh!t Out full time as an answer to the calling deep within my heart.

On this season, I'll interview people who've done something similar, I'll share all of the beautiful lessons and tools I've learned, and I will move from the deepest place of knowing that if we will always be Figuring Sh!t Out, we might as well enjoy the process.

This premier is the entry-point into a brand new season of Figuring Sh!t Out.

There is an epidemic in our generation and throughout our society of burnout and hopelessness and a desire for something more. More and more people are deciding to pursue a new path, take a non-conventional journey, to live in alignment with their soul. There is a collective calling for truth and creativity and to live from a heart-centered place.

But how?

Consider Season Three, The Road Less Traveled, as a research project to help us understand that.

I've quit my full time job in Tech, traveled across the world to go to Yoga Teacher Training in Bali, and leaped off a cliff to pursue Figuring Sh!t Out full time as an answer to the calling deep within my heart.

On this season, I'll interview people who've done something similar, I'll share all of the beautiful lessons and tools I've learned, and I will move from the deepest place of knowing that if we will always be Figuring Sh!t Out, we might as well enjoy the process.

Stay tuned for a new FULL LENGTH episode this Sunday on taking the leap.

I love you.

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Figuring Sh!t Out is about navigating the chaos of coming of age and adulthood - whether you’re wrestling with a quarter life crisis, chasing elusive dreams, or trying to make sense of the world - it's about knowing that we are always growing up and giving ourselves the grace to do so.

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1. How to normalize the flux of knowing, then not knowing, and realizing that you never really knew anything at all.
2. How to accept the wavering feelings of complete clear-hearted confidence followed by the indescribable uncertainty + fear of "am i doing anything right"
3. The bliss and simplicity of the inevitable rediscovery of our childhood self as the pathway to all that we are and all that we will become.
4. That we heal not to deal with our pain, but to learn how to accept our joy.

+ All the rest in this episode.

CHAPTERS:

0:00 - 4:33: The Non-Linear Journey

4:33: Fear, Uncertainty, Anxiety

7:40: Finding Your Path

10:19: What We Learn in the Hard Sh!t

16:36: Dealing with Toxic People

20:00: Your Deepest Self, The Ever-Unfolding

25:00: Self-Soothing

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

38 - Unlocking Our Heart's Potential: Clearing Energetic Blocks

20 - It is Happening For You, Not to You: Building Resilience in a World of Change

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About FSO: SEASON TWO TRAILER

Sian is a beautiful, soulful woman who truly leads with love and creates spaces for creativity to flourish.

Her presence is comforting and connected & the wisdom of her insights feel like a soothing balm for the soul.

In this episode, we talk about

• The Divine Energies: Masculine & Feminine (+ How they're Differentiated from Gender)
• Symptoms of The Wounded Feminine
• Healing the Heart + Moving from Love
• Balancing the Dualities: Light + Dark
• Nuances of Womanhood, Dating, and Breakups
• How Sian curates and creates community for other people through her Writing Workshops
• Her perspective on vulnerability as a superpower and how breaking the barrier to allowing oneself to be seen is the key to bonding + relational connectivity with others
• Conscious living in your 20's: Finding Your Community

Whether it's the similarities we share in both being writers, podcast hosts, or having Water, Air, and Earth in our big three (Sian: Cap Sun, Gemini Rising, Cancer Moon / Me: Pisces Sun, Virgo Rising, Aquarius Moon), this episode is an embodiment of Sian & I's kindred spirits.

Enjoy <3

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CHAPTERS:

0:00 - 13:20: Introduction, The Power of Safe Spaces, Cultivating Vulnerability & Openness

13:20: Masculine & Feminine Energies: The Divine Trio + Spiritual Significance

16:00: The Wounded Feminine: Symptoms

19:00: The Sacred Feminine + Healthy Masculine: Balancing Opposing Energies

22:00: Internalized Misogyny, Reawakening our Life Force, Embracing the Heart-Led Life

28:00: Love & Loving - Platonic Love, Familial Love, + What Blocks us from Love

33:00: Birth, Death, Rebirth: Surrendering to Love & Loss + Accepting our Emotions

40:00: Breakups, Change, & The Healing Power of Friendship

47:00: Coping with the Unknown

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Her Podcast: Apricity

IG: @siancamile

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About FSO: SEASON TWO TRAILER

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

53 - The Art of Letting Go

42 - Let Yourself Bloom!

So, how do we actually equip ourselves to separate what we want to do from what we "have" to do, create from a place of empowerment, and share our magic with the world? How do we resist the hustle-culture that leads to burnout while also being honest with ourselves about if we're showing up in a way that aligns with our highest self?

On this episode, we take a look at the psychology of perfectionism and discuss ways to overcome the subconscious beliefs and patterns that keep us frozen. Through actionable steps and a mindset shift, we can slowly take aligned action in the every day to set our own standard for success, and silence the inner critic.

(A very fun exercise is included to identify this voice + overcome it!!)

CHAPTERS:

0:00 - 5:35 - Introduction & Episode overview 

5:35: The (Unholy) Trinity: Perfectionism, Self-Sabotage, & Procrastination

7:45: Personifying our Limiting Beliefs (Ft. Bob the Blob!!)

9:47: Shadow-Work + Taking Your Power Back - Why do we Distract Ourselves?

11:00: Admitting what you WANT (What if you don't know what you want?) + Tactics to Overcome our Unproductive Habits

12:30: The KEY to reclaiming your power over your time, attention, focus (while avoiding burnout)

18:10: Get bored of your Bullsh!t!! (Lovingly <3) Practices for Self-Love & Self Discipline

Join the Community to access the Shadow-Work Guidebook created with this episode <3

Includes a Step-by-Step guide to Transmute Past Perfectionistic Tendencies with Inner Child Healing w/ Meditation & Journal Prompts!

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FIGURING SH!T OUT TOGETHER COMMUNITIES

YOU ARE YOUR OWN HERO | E-BOOK & GUIDE BY ME <3 (free w/ community access!!) 

MAILING LIST: FSO Website

FREE DOWNLOADABLE GUIDEBOOK ON INTUITION VS ANXIETY

SEASON TWO TRAILER

If you liked this episode, you'll like these too!

18 - Burnout, Toxic Productivity, & Radical Acceptance

25 - Self Love & Self Discipline - Learning to Listen to your Intuitive Cycles of Rest & Action

Book Recommendation: Atomic Habits, James Clear

The most profound lessons that lead to a fulfilling life are usually what we knew from our youngest ages.

Let's talk about it.

CHAPTERS:

0:00-6:57 - The Importance of Play, Fun, & Reprograming The Little Voice in Our Head

6:57: Learning to Be in Our Bodies: Improv + Self-Expression

14:56: A Course in Joyful Living: The Artist’s Way - The Book that Changed my Life

20:54: Following Your Impulses

23:05: We have Free Will!! (& An ANNOUNCEMENT on How I'm Using Mine!!!!)

27:54: Life is Made up of Little Moments, What Luxury ACTUALLY is

29:48: ENERGY IS CURRENCY.

34:46: What About When "Having Fun" Is Impossible?

36:31: HAVE YOU LAUGHED TODAY?

Inspirations & Resources:

@greenadyofbrooklyn

The Artists Way

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FIGURING SH!T OUT TOGETHER COMMUNITIES

YOU ARE YOUR OWN HERO | E-BOOK & GUIDE BY ME <3 (free w/ community access!!) 

MAILING LIST: FSO Website

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

40 - Wake Up! Your Life is Meant to Be Lived!

To dim the beautiful bright light in your being to be palatable and digestible for others is an indiscretion to your soul.

We must resist the urge to give into cynicism and nihilism and embrace that life CAN be beautiful, love IS that good, and that we ARE meant to live in joy and trust that flow will guide us.

During this episode, we go on a journey of understanding where cynicism and projection comes from, why we prioritize people pleasing over our own personal power, and what happens when we decide to live rooted in ourselves and connected to our joy.

Life is too short to not believe that it can also be sweet.

We talk:

0:00 - 5:09 - The Psychology of Cynicism + Projection

5:15 - 9:08 - The Negative Impacts of Dimming Your Light

9:08 - 13:01 - Why Animals + Children are Magnets for Attention & Joy

13:01 - 16:00 - The "OF COURSE THEY ARE!" Mindset

16:00 - 19:58 - Letting Yourself Be Seen: Remaining Open to Love vs Toxic Positivity

19:58 - Reprogramming your Mind & Affirmations for Inner/Outer Harmony

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YOU ARE YOUR OWN HERO | E-BOOK & GUIDE BY ME <3 (free w/ community access!!) 

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

38 - Unlocking Our Hearts Potential & Clearing Energetic Blocks

You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.

You only have to let the soft animal of your body - love what it loves.

Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.

Meanwhile the world goes on.

Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain are moving across the landscapes, over the prairies and the deep trees, the mountains and the rivers.

Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air, are heading home again.

Whoever you are, no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting -

over and over announcing your place in the family of things."

'Wild Geese', by Mary Oliver

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CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - Cleaning Out the Closet + Creating Space

(06:59) - The Self is a Construct & Identity is a Prison

(9:05) - The Art & The Power of Letting Go

(14:30) - You Can't Heal What You Don't Feel

(23:05) - Techniques for Embracing the Wisdom + Natural Intelligence of Our Body

(27:42) - Surrendering to Flow + Allowing Blessings In

(32:56) - The Unseen

(40:05) - Reigniting Child-Like Wonder + Embracing New Life

(Links to Resources mentioned in this episode + book titles down below <3)

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

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Resources mentioned in this episode:

Sarah Blandin Activating Freedom Meditation

Healing is Not My Purpose

Readings from:

“The Creative Act” by Rick Rubin 

"Dream Work" Poem Book by Mary Oliver

If you liked this episode, you’ll like this one too! 

Growing & Outgrowing: You’re Not Wrong, You’re Just in the Wrong Place

And too often, when this formula doesn't work for us - we exile ourselves and internalize the confusion of being confused.

We may wonder why we haven’t gotten it right, why we feel so misunderstood.

What we fail to acknowledge is -- that while we try to contort ourselves into a glass half empty - our unique desires, impulses, and dreams are waiting for us to fill our glass full. 

Have you ever considered that maybe your life is asking of you something so unique, so particular, and so idiosyncratic to your own individual idiosyncrasies - that only you can hear the call and only you can take the action?

This episode discusses the art of authentic living & the process of embracing our individuality - along with the challenges that come with outgrowing people, places, and things that may have once felt like home.

There are many choices we can make in this world, but the one I can almost promise you will never regret making is choosing yourself.

To choose yourself, you must learn yourself, know yourself, trust yourself - and honor the individual expression that calls in a voice only you can hear.

I believe you have what it takes to do so.

It is your calling, after all.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-10:25 - You’re not wrong, you’re just in the wrong place

+ A reading from "Women who Run with the Wolves," Passage: The Ugly Duckling

10:25 - FOMO isn’t Real - The Price of False Illusions of Happiness

15:58 - Outgrowing what You Once Loved, Learning About + Honoring Your Individual Differences

19:10 - Wanting MORE for your Life + Feeling Deserving Of It

20:47 - Paralyzed by Indecision? Sylvia Plath’s Fig Tree of Choice

26:27 - Your Power & MAGIC is You - You’re Not Meant for Everyone

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

Episode 28 - Are you Truly Living, or Just Surviving?

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

It has been an honor + a privilege to host this podcast & figure sh!t out alongside all of you. I LOVED answering these questions + learning what you guys are curious about.

Because I loved it so much, I will be incorporating more Q&A's into future episodes, so if you have a burning question - feel free to reach out & stay tuned on the FSO instagram for more opportunities for this interactivity <3 (or ask in the section below this episode!)

Thank you for listening, asking, and letting the light in me find the light in you.

Here's to 50 more episodes!!!

CHAPTERS:

0:00 - Thoughts on Religion 

8:33- Exploring Astrology as a Medium of Self-Understanding 

11:30 - Advice for Feeling lost in Relationships 

13:47 - Forgiving your Parents / Ancestral Healing

19:50 - How to Stop the Negative Spiral Loop 

24:08 - Finding your Path Outside of Traditional Education

25:30 - Self-Care is Hot

27:35 - How to Prioritize Time alone while Working, Seeing Friends, + Resting?

30:48 - How to Navigate a Difficult Family Dynamic

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+ If you liked this episode & want MORE on the topics I covered, here are some FSO episodes you may like!

Religion/Spirituality:

Episode 10 - The Journey of Spiritual Awakening. Who are you, Really?

Episode 38: Unlocking our Heart's Potential: Clearing Energetic Blocks

Relationships (NEW EPISODE COMING NEXT WEEK!)

Episode 4 - Access to you is a Privilege. Navigating All Types of Love + Relationships

Episode 16 - Are you Showing up for Yourself the Way you Want to be Shown up for?

Finding your Life Path/Career:

Episode 11 - Normalize Confusion - Wherever you are is okay, & You're not running out of time

Episode 24: A Guide to: Identifying Limiting Beliefs, Breaking Patterns, & Creating a New Self-Concept

Episode 27 - Following your Calling + Taking the Bet on Yourself (Guest Episode w/ Wellness Entrepreneur)

Episode 32: Career Confusion & Existential Crises

Forgiving Parents/Healing Inner Child:

Episode 19 - No one is Coming to Save You & That's a Good Thing: How to be Your Own Hero

Episode 46 - Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma (Guest Episode w/ my Sister)

Prioritizing Time Alone in a Busy Life:

Episode 28 - Are you Truly Living or Just Surviving?

Episode 31 - Just Relax, You are Evolving

Stopping the Negative Spiral:

Episode 20 - It is Happening for You, Not to You

Episode 33: How to get out of a Funk & Reclaim your Conscious Power

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

This episode takes us through the intricate interplay between our ego's attachment to the physical and our soul's yearning for transcendence - the balance, the dance, and the beautiful journey of duality.

CHAPTERS

(00:00) - Ego vs Soul

(7:40) - Connecting with Others + The Collective Consciousness

(9:23) - The Impact of TikTok / COVID on our Culture's Spiritual Awakening

(15:03) - Understanding Egoic Satisfaction & The Soul's Role

(23:08) - Healing + Unraveling Patterns of Survival

(27:46) - The Power of Choice + Alignment

(30:09): "Training" the Ego + Breaking Free from Unconscious Patterns

(43:19) - Inner Child Healing & Living From Love

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too:

Fear is an Illusion

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

Jamie Hess grew up in New York City as the daughter of GMA Host, Joan Lunden. A tenacious go-getter from a young age, Jamie was gifted, precocious, and ahead of the curve. She grew up fast - and she found herself soaring up the ladder of Corporate PR earlier than most. But she was curbing the growing pains of growing up in the public eye with a drug addiction that she kept secret - until she couldn't any longer. 

After the road to recovery from drug and alcohol abuse, Jamie turned her life around and discovered fitness, making it her mission to create community and help others see the beauty in a healthy lifestyle. She amassed thousands of followers with a zest for her new passion, until she found herself with another addiction hidden in sheep's clothing. This time, it was an eating disorder.

Years after recovery from these eras - today, Jamie is a wellness entrepreneur, speaker, mother, wife, and podcaster whose work has been featured on the Dr. Oz Show, The View, and Good Morning America.

On this episode, Jamie shares her story of resilience and accountability, and how her intimate experience with darkness became the groundwork for the woman she is today.

Each battle she overcame wove her life tapestry with the humility and infectious authenticity that allows her to teach the lessons that she had to learn.  

She is a woman who channels her past into a beacon for those seeking light.

On this episode, we talk: 

(00:00) - Overcoming Addiction, Jamie's Story

(10:38) - Asking for Help, Releasing Shame, Finding Community

(23:15) - Money Wound, Self-Doubt, Fear, Growing Confidence 

(26:13) - Perfectionism + Inner Criticism, Pursuing your Dreams

(29:57) - How Vulnerability is a SuperPower 

(39:21) - Jealousy as a Signal, Internalized Misogyny, The Company you Keep

(46:05) - How a Warrior Mindset saved Jamie's Mom from Breast Cancer + How Gratitude Saved Jamie from Addiction

(52:21) - Practical, Actionable Advice for those in Deep Confusion, Figuring Sh!t Out

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

46 - Breaking the Cycle of Generational Trauma + Healing a Wounded Inner Child GUEST EPISODE with My Sister 

JAMIE'S LINKS: 

IG: NYCFITFAM

Website

Gratitudeology Podcast

You do one or the other.

In every moment - we are creating.

Either unconsciously or consciously - we choose the patterns and programs, or - we choose to create new ones.

In trying to avoid pain, we create the environments and situations to see it more clearly.

In a decision and a direction, we head forth into the unknown with a guidance born from our own powerful intentions.

If we search for safety, the best we will find - is safety.

But if we go towards our ideal, with the assumption that we are already safe -- we are able to see the boundlessness of positive momentum take form in our lives.

By understanding that our energy is a resource, one that is finite - but also able to multiply if we take care to nourish it, we can identify what drives and motivates us.

Fear? or Peace?

Survival? or Creation?

You choose.

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This episode was inspired by:

Chloe Dechelle's Video (Chloe.Dechelle on TT)

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

41 - The Mind-Body Connection: Emotional Regulation, Physical Well-Being, & Somatic Healing

This episode peels back the layers of self-imposed limitations, bringing into focus the joy and growth that lie on the other side of fear.

There comes a time where your inner work will lead you to outgrowing your outer world and will ask you to make decisions to choose more for yourself without knowing exactly what comes next.

I invite you to imagine a world where you dance with your destiny and where the anticipation of what's to come is as delightful as the arrival itself. 

CHAPTERS:

0:00-5:04: Where are you Settling + Playing it Small? Identifying Limitations, Intuition vs Anxiety

5:04-8:11: Trusting in the Universe vs Taking Action

8:11- 15:24: What you're ACTUALLY scared of

15:24-20:02: Breaking out Of Unfulfilling Narratives: My Journey

20:02-23:50: Outgrowing Relationships, Letting Go & Making Room for New to Enter

23:50-26:33: Making room for All Parts of you Along the Way (Fear, Insecurity) as you Build Confidence, Authenticity, + Vibrance

26:33-30:24: FLIRT WITH LIFE

30:24-34:33: Your words MATTER: Shifting & Reprogramming Your Mind to Focus into Abundance over Lack

34:33: What's on the other side? Setting Expectations + Connecting to the Collective Consciousness

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

44 - Fear is An Illusion

But you may spend many years healing from the time you spent growing up in it.

For my sister and I, we have found this to be the case.

Today, we unpack the impact of how growing up amidst instability shaped our lives and gave us mutual purpose to break the cycle of generational trauma.

Angelica is the strongest person that I know - and her experiences are one that I am honored to give voice to on Figuring Sh!t Out.

My sister and I share no DNA. She was adopted at Birth by our parents and has faced a layer of adversity as a person of color that I will never be able to fully understand. We grew up together in Florida in a fractured environment that she left at 15.

Our individual experiences and healing has led us back to one another after being separated for many years in our adolescence. We are not of the same blood, but have been cut from the same cloth, and found our definition of home to be one another.

To be vulnerable about what made you who you are today, even if it is a heavy past that you have learned and healed from - is to be free from letting it define you.

I hope this episode inspires you release any weight from the past that you no longer need to carry and know that the decision to heal is all that you need to begin.

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CHAPTERS:

0:00-3:58: Introduction, Episode Overview, & Preface 

4:00-10:15: Sisterhood + Siblinghood, Angelica's Adoption, Divine Orchestration

10:15-15:50: Roles + Trauma Responses in a Dysfunctional Household, Living in Survival, Mental Health 

19:03: Leaving Home at 14 & Experiencing Racism in a Prejudiced Town

23:39: Beginning Healing, Reparenting the Inner Child, Letting Yourself Be Loved

28:43: Anger, Forgiveness, & Breaking Patterns to Relearn Safety

39:26: Releasing + Recognizing Coping & Defense Mechanisms

49:17: Chosen Family, Building a Life You Want, & Loving Yourself through your Evolution

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Episode 8: Healing is Not Linear & Life is Now

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Today is Story-Time.

I am taking you on a very honest journey through the last nine months -- from agreeing to run a Marathon in Paris, France (26.2 miles, 42 km) to all of the mental, emotional, and spiritual training that led me and my body to ultimately cross the finish line.

While this was a physical challenge - the physical capability paled in comparison to all of the limits that I had to personally release to feel ready to do this.

All that has been discussed on Figuring Sh!t Out up until this point has culminated to this moment -- where I put my mind, heart, soul, spirit, body, and divine connection to the test.

This has felt like a research project where the findings weren't ready to be presented until the test was finished.

& I can in fact confirm:

• Fear is an Illusion - Decide to not let it in or let it matter & it won't
• You are Greater and more powerful than Your Mind, Your Limits, and Your Conditions
• You will have to trade your old life for your new one, and you will be glad that you did
• Visualizing a Future State in Meditation Works (Actually WORKS) To Create A Desired State
• Progress is Not Linear - and Neither is Time
• The Present Moment is Eternal & Is the Portal to Peace, Truth, and Spiritual Guidance
• Your Intuition is Your Greatest Guide - Fear + Doubt are Blockers to It
• A Desire to Control is always from the Ego
• Your Heart is the Portal to Everything
• Love is The Highest Vibration
• Challenge is Your Wisest Teacher

All of the above will be divulged in fullness over the course of this season - but today -

A vulnerable unveiling of my own personal experience in the process of Figuring Sh!t Out.

I ran a Marathon in Paris - here is my story.

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A wise person once said: “How you do anything - is how you do everything,”

So how do you use your voice, your power, and your energy, to serve a purpose and live an aligned life? 

& How do you stay true to yourself while operating in systems or places that don’t feel aligned to you? 

How can you protect your peace and find alignment and power through surrender?

By knowing what is in your control vs what is out of it, and knowing the power of your energy and it’s ability to attract like-minded people, places & things is your most precious resource.

This episode pulls together themes of power + influence in a way that fuels our soul, rather than our ego. It re-examines our self-responsibility and pushes us to consider how we can use our voice + establish a connection to our energy to live lovingly, boldly, and proudly in this outside world. 

At the end of the podcast, I give you an overview of a daily practice to check-in with yourself and find your alignment, starting small, and starting in the here + now. 

(Questions for this down below + upcoming monthly meditation in the Community will be aligned to this practice!!)

Note: Apologies for the end being slightly different sounding in audio - finished recording the last part with different settings on my microphone :,) 

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Lots of love 

xx 

V

CHAPTERS:

0:00: You are Your Best Guide: Integrity in Holding Ourselves Accountable 

8:30: Reconciling the Ups & Downs, Physical + Spiritual, Freedom in Surrender

11:55: Jobs, Life, People: Life is not a Zero Sum Game

15:57: Our Energy: You Attract What You Are

17:00: Your Voice has Power - Ask for What You Want

22:10: "Fitting In," Finding Alignment in Relationships

26:40: Becoming Conscious of Misalignment. Releasing Shame of Poor Decisions, + Self & Life Nourishment

34:55: Practices for Alignment, The Power of a Daily Check-In

Journaling Practice:

Daily Inventory of how you feel with a journal + no judgement.

1. Physically
2. Mentally
3. Emotionally
4. Spiritually

How are the different aspects of how you feel -- impacting each other?

Based on how you feel - what do you need? (remember how "need" is defined from the episode!!)

& What do you want?

What can you do, right now, to bring what you want + need into alignment?

Deep-Dive Into Alignment:

1. What does it feel like to be aligned? How does your energy feel when you are aligned? To you + for others?
2. What are some things that make you feel good?
3. What can you do today to take action towards your alignment? How can you make a small choice for feeling good + a bid for who you want to be?

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38 - Unlocking Our Heart's Potential: Clearing Energetic Blocks & Accessing a Portal to Profound Love & Inner Alchemy

41 - The Mind-Body Connection - Emotional Regulation, Physical Well-Being, & Somatic Healing

As we navigate the seasons and embrace the Spring Equinox, this episode is a reminder to ignite a self-acceptance that allows us to truly flourish by embracing what we often reject about ourselves.

It is easy for us to like ourselves when we're doing well and easy for us to be happy on a sunny day --

But feeling a stability with ourselves and our lives comes from acceptance of the duality of who we are and the natural and inevitable cycles of birth, death, and rebirth.

We will always live in duality with both our soul and our ego.

As Winter is a Precursor to Spring, The Dark Night of the Soul is a often a precursor to change and self-renewal.

Can you embrace both?

Can you let yourself bloom?

CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - We are all Connected through Cyclical Change, Acknowledging Darkness & Insecurity

(5:21) - Overcoming Insecurities, What We Focus on Grows, Our Perception is not always Reality - but it is OUR reality

(11:25) - What "Confident" People Have

(16:00) - Unseen Growth Beneath the Surface, Death & Rebirth (Reading a Piece Written by Me)

(20:59) - ALLOWING is the key to Attracting: Release Resentment, Anger, Rejection -- Let that Sh!t Go!!

(26:00) - Steps to Self-Acceptance & Broadening your Perspective

(35:00) - You are the Artist of Your Life: Life is Too Short to Hate, Reject, & Judge Yourself

(40:00) - Focus your Energy & Let yourself Bloom

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GUIDED MEDITATION BY ME

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40 - Wake Up! Your Life is Meant to be Lived.

The objectification and disconnection we often feel from our physical experience is the result of a fragmentation of our selves as a survival and defense mechanism -

But there is a vital connection between our physical health & our emotional, mental, and spiritual well-being.

If our bodies are what we explore this world through, the quality of our experience can be directly correlated to how we feel in our bodies and how much our bodies feel safe to --- feel.

Learning how to feel safe in our skin and pave the way for resilience begins with cultivating respect for all parts of ourselves.

A very simple question can probe a lot of insight into how balanced you are:

Are you taking care of yourself? Are you treating yourself well? What does treating yourself "well" even mean to you?

This can be a sensitive and complicated subject, but it starts small and very simply.

Tuning into our basic needs and honoring them with gentle care can help us identify our emotional needs, connect more deeply to our spiritual bodies, and allow our life experience to be greatly deepened.

I'm hoping to bring an expert into this discussion as a continued conversation, so let me know your thoughts on this episode + what you'd like to explore more of on this topic below if you feel called.

xx

<3 V

CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - The Foundation of a Mind-Body Connection, Why It Can be Hard to Establish, Judgement, EMDR

(13:09) - Questions to Ask Yourself, Mistaking Physical Distress for Emotional Distress, The Consequences of Burnout

(16:32) - Balance, Dopamine Dependence, Mental Clarity, Recommendations

(25:26) - Tuning into Your Body's Signals, Knowing Yourself

(32:01) - What Marathon Training has Taught Me about my Emotional/Spiritual/Mental Well-Being

(36:30) - The Power of Living Fully + Authentically In your Body

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SEASON TWO TRAILER

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Episode 25: Self Love & Self Discipline - Tuning into Your Intuitive Cycles of Rest & Action

If you treat your life like a means to an end, you will always be left with the same question:

"An end -- to what?"

The novelty of life is that it is both fleeting and the only thing we will ever know. & The relentless pursuit for the meaning of it will only lead you to eclipsing your right to live it.

So live.

Let this episode serve as your Wake Up Call to shift your perspective - from dreaming and reaching for a life of abundance to stepping into creation and experiencing the beautiful duality of every moment.

We are here to feel!! To live!! To be! To create! The only pre-requisite is that you are alive and well.

Stop letting your conditions control the narrative that you create.

CHAPTERS:

0:00 - 6:38: Updates: The Wisdom of Aging, Turning 24, How Physical Sickness can Be Spiritual

6:38 - 9:38 - We're Not Getting Any Younger, & We Never Have Been: A Secret Gift. (A piece written by me <3)

9:38 - 20:00 - It can be Simple - Riding the Waves, Releasing Addiction to Negative Emotions + Critical Inner Voice

20:00 - 30:00 - Relationships, Other People, Illusory Expectations

30:00 - 38:07 - What is worth your Energy? Life Can be Magic, Finding Novelty in Simplicity.

38:08 - 43:52 - The Secret to Peace

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Episode 15 - Looking for answers? Let them Find You. Stop, Look Around, & Enjoy the Process.

xx

<3 Vanessa

There is immense power in that choice. And immense transformation.

No one said it would be easy.

This episode is an exploration into the power of The Dark Night of the Soul, which occurs during transformation to burn away all that is not aligned with the growth you've chosen for yourself.

Like a Pheonix rising from the ashes, rebirth is inevitable.

The magic of transformation is not without a pursuit into a new darkness to bring you forth the truest light you've yet to know.

Remember why you started.

Let that carry you. Let love carry you. Let the light find you.

xx

V

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CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - The Power of Healing and Transformation

(04:12) - The Dark Night of the Soul

(14:39) - Embracing the Shadow, Healing Through Breaking Generational Cycles

(26:17) - Overcoming + Getting through Dark Night of Soul

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

Episode 14: Do you Crave to Be Understood, but Fear Being Perceived? Who are you when no one is watching?

Topics Explored:

Self-discovery, Transformation, Dark Night of the Soul, Reparenting, Inner Child, Inherited Patterns, Spiritual Awakening, Enlightenment, Authenticity, Healing, Vulnerability, Bravery, Change, Personal Growth, Relationships

Time and time again we find that we are on this journey to find the strength that we didn't know that we had. To shock and surprise ourselves at the ability to get through the rough days, long nights, and find the bliss of sunshine again and again, even when we think it may be gone forever.

And to be a witness to our boundless ability to continue on loving when we feel loveless.

We have our hearts to thank for that -- the energetic pathway that lets our emotional energy in and out. The heart is a bridge to profound healing and to growth.

Our hearts hold the hands of our spiritual being and our physical being - weaving them together in a tapestry of energy that forms us into who we are.

Our greatest power is learning how to let what wants to flow through us, through us, so that we can have access to the authentic self that lies inside of our hearts.

Your heart is your portal to your intuition, to your wisest self, to your inner knowing and your inner magic.

Your heart holds experiences in the past, present, and future, and allows you to experience both the fullness and the emptiness of life.

When we hold onto pain, we are closed and we are blocked. We are clenched in the corners of fear and negativity, keeping our walls up, keeping love out, and keeping blessings, opportunities, and potential, out of our line of sight.

When we open, we are free. We allow the pain to come in, we allow it to be felt, we allow it to show us that it will always leave if we let it. And we make room for what is new to come in. We are able to see that every event that caused us to close up, was only to stretch our heart further open when we were ready.

Leading with an open heart is not a sign of vulnerability but a beacon of strength that guides us toward a more aligned, influential, and authentic existence.

In this episode, we explore the power of love's presence in our lives, how our heart center supports and protects us, and conscious brain-heart coherence with some readings from Joe Dispenza & Michael J. Singer.

To live, if not passionately, is a mistake. To buy into the fallacy that our days are not numbered and that love is not the most evident pulse beneath the footprints of our world, even the harshest of them, is to live with eyes closed. You cannot live untouchably - life is vulnerability.

I love you guys

<3

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CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - Opening the Closed Heart

(14:31) - The Power of an Open Heart - How you Know you’re Open vs Closed

(31:12) - Are you Blocking Your Blessings?

(40:44) - The Power of Vulnerability on Inner Alchemy & How to Lead with an Open Heart

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one, too!

31 - Just Relax - You are Evolving! Giving Yourself the Grace to Meet Yourself as You Change & the Power of Your Unique Expression

This episode is part 3 of the 2024 Alignment Series. Not necessary to listen in order, but these episodes all build off of each other & ask you:

"What would my life look like if I showed up for myself fully? If I believed myself capable? If I argued with my limitations and went beyond them? What is your potential? "

Listen to: Part 1 (Episode 36) & Part 2 (Episode 37)

That is the theme of this month on Figuring Sh!t Out. 

It asks you to ask yourself: 

"What would my life look like if I showed up for myself fully? If I believed myself capable? If I argued with my limitations and went beyond them? How am I clipping my own wings? What is my true potential?” 

We find the answers to this through Shadow Work - bringing the dark to the light with loving awareness & curiosity.

Where the past self, the higher self, and the present self unite to bridge the gap between what we know and how we can move what we know into our lives, creating change. 

When we were young, we were all dreamers.

This episode asks you - "What did you dream about when you were young? When did you stop dreaming? And how can you start again?"

This episode is part of a Shadow Work Series, episodes that use Shadow Work in the focal point of discussion as a vehicle to self development & growth.

Linked below is part one, which covers the foundations of shadow-work and inner child healing. It’s not necessary to listen to this first if you haven’t, unless you have no idea where to begin when it comes to shadow work, but is encouraged! The first episode takes you through meeting your inner child and shares my experience with healing. 

Shadow-Work Series Episode One:

Episode 21: Shadow-Work Series, Part 1: A Beginner's Guide to Inner Child Healing, Forgiveness, and Self-Discovery

In case you missed it, listen to last week's episode on Igniting Transformation & Facing Discomfort to Break Cycles

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CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - Overcoming Fear, Finding Alignment, Healing

(05:17) - Seeing the Results of Healing and Transforming Through Inner Work

(10:41) - Rediscovering Childhood Dreams, Overcoming Limitations

(23:53) - Shadow-Work + Inner Child Healing

(37:09) - Unlocking "Impossibility" + Opening Yourself to Miracles

A new theme:

Almost always done, because we never will be.

Never complete, because our wholeness isn't found outside of us.

And on this episode, we cover how to find more of that wholeness.

The only thing we should question -- is our limits.

Confronting our comfort zones with the courageous act of taking ownership of our lives and lovingly accepting self-responsibility is the only way to create lasting, actionable transformation.

This episode calls for an integration of all parts of ourselves - with wholeness, with love, with compassion, and with the strength of accountability.

For the last month and a half, that is the journey I've been on.

I intentionally stripped myself of all comforts and headed into the woods of Northern New Hampshire over this break to face shadows and feel the catharsis of letting go.

On this episode, I take you through my journey and give you insight into what I've learned - and how that expansion has led to enrich the path of self-exploration here - in V2 of Figuring Sh!t Out - the podcast AND the brand.

In our collective journey of self-discovery and growth, the topic of this new season and episode is evolution:

Fully stepping into newness through lovingly shedding layers of what we no longer need and being honest with ourselves about what it is that we do need.

I am so excited to be back. Thank you for listening.

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With love,

Vanessa

xx

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CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - What’s new for FSO - Season Two, Community, Guidebooks

(10:49) - New Themes of 2024

(24:34) - Facing Yourself, Self-Responsibility, Accountability

(36:20) - Breaking Cycles & Patterns - Becoming who you were meant to be

But always within us. 

It is necessary to let ourselves let go of what we no longer need, bid farewell to what doesn’t serve us any longer, and step into an unknown future with bravery and hope. 

To all who have been on their journey of Figuring Sh!t Out in 2023, with or without me — give yourself credit, let yourself rest, and let your shedding skin & growing pains remind you:

That there is so much left for you to learn. 

There is so much left for you to love. 

There is so much more fun for you to have. 

& There are so many more realizations to come to you that will feel like homecoming moments of eye-opening clarity. 

On the last episode of Season 1, never done before & as a gift to all of you on this journey with me — 

I guide you through a visualization & meditation that allows you to shed burdens, trust the process, and trust in life’s serendipity - meeting your future self who has traversed the path you walk upon now. 

I ask you to do nothing, but listen and surrender to the divine timing ahead, slow down, savor the unfolding of life, and give grace to your resilience and unwavering spirit - which has always carried you through every moment of your life. 

Thank you for listening, thank you for being on this journey with me, and thank you for making this space so full and so bright. 

Figuring Sh!t Out was once a confused dream, and through this Season and this year, has become a precious space for my heart & soul. 

There is so much in store in 2024. All that you’ve asked me for is in the works & I am so excited to share with you more details when SEASON TWO (2!!!!!) launches in January. 

Kiss 2023 goodbye with strength, you brave, beautiful souls <3 

Can't wait to continue Figuring Sh!t Out together in the next season and in the new year --

I love you. So much. 

xx

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20 - It is Happening For You, Not To You: Building Resilience in a World of Change

xx

EPISODE CHAPTERS:

(00:00) - Introduction & Themes of 2023

(7:22) - Guided Practice - Meditation & Visualization

(14:33) - How to Trust Your Unfolding Path & Call in What you Want

(25:52) - Claiming + Embracing your New Beginning & Goodbye to Season 1 of FSO

What would you do? 

How would you act? 

How would you move?

As we end 2023, many of us are thinking about what we want to release and leave behind, and what we want to take with us and transform into in the New Year. 

Today's episode is a beacon and an ode to that- illuminating how to recognize patterns of people-pleasing and survival mechanisms and step into who you want to become - with actionable steps to move forward.

The path to "confidence" is often misunderstood and misconstrued. Many of us think of confidence as a type of extroversion, being able to take up space and be heard, seen, witnessed. 

But many times, confidence can be quiet. It can be simple. Being magnetic is not about other people, it is always about you. How you hold your space, speak to yourself, show up for yourself - is how you move into the world and reflect and receive energy.

On this episode, I talk about: 

(00:00) - Reclaiming Power and Building Confidence - Holding space for yourself unapologetically, stopping people-pleasing, misconceptions of confidence, what "beauty" truly is.

(16:53) - Embracing Authenticity and Self-Confidence - Social Anxiety, Fear of being Perceived, Judgement, Projections of others, & Moving into Self-Acceptance

(26:47) - Choosing Authenticity and Letting Go - The importance of self-discovery, Looking back on the year, Looking inwards into yourself

(30:51) - Prioritizing Self-Love and Personal Growth into the New Year - Finding Your Inner Alignment, Affirmations for your strength, and Journal Prompts/Questions for you to sit with if you feel called <3 (below)

Journal Prompts:

As we close out this year, sit with all of the evolutions of yourself that have been present in 2023. Take some time to connect to your experience of evolution, and send every version of yourself love. 

Ask yourself —

What can you leave behind?

What did you love about this year? What do you want more of?

How can you show up for yourself in ways you haven’t yet?

List three things that you can do. 

What does it look like to prioritize yourself? How does it feel when you do that?

Think about the love you give to other people. What does your love feel like? How would it feel like to receive that love? How can you give it to yourself in new ways?

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This episode is part of the December Mini-Series - 4 shorter episodes to close out the year and to end Season 1 of Figuring Sh!t Out.

This is the second to last episode of the season & the year of 2023!

There is so much coming in the New Year that I am so excited to share!!

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See you guys next week <3 (Last episode of the year live on NYE -- a mini meditation for you in the episode!)

I love you!!

How do you get out of that place? The one that feels so dark, so sticky, so dreary.

How do you go on and show up with presence for yourself, the people, the responsibilities in your life when your thoughts are so loud that you get lost in them, and when they feel so much more powerful than you?

The only way out is through.

But you must know a few things before you embark upon the process of moving through it:

1. You are not your thoughts, your feelings, or your life situation. We hear this a lot, but in this episode, I talk about the true meaning of this and explain the concept using the book "The Power of Now," by Eckhart Tolle with some references from "The Untethered Soul" by Michael J. Singer (Highly recommend both of these books!)
2. You must extend a kind, patient, and gentle hand to yourself as you go through the flux of life. To get mad at ourselves for being in a dark place, is just another mechanism to deepen that dark place. Treat yourself the way you would a loved one, connect with your inner child and give them what they need and what they are asking for, and treat yourself with love -- it will make it all the more easier to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
3. You are not stuck. You are never stuck. The only "stuck" that you can be is the endless loop of incessant worry and darkness that you feel trapped in. But you are not trapped. As counterintuitive as it sounds, we can be addicted to our suffering, addicted to the mind's stories about it and the need to justify our feelings - but we must create the space to see illusion from reality - and separate ourselves from the stories we no longer need to carry with us.
4. Sometimes, it takes time for us to wake ourselves up. Give yourself that time.

In this episode, I talk about how I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and wound up in one of these funks. And how I used it as an opportunity to see if I could move myself out of it.

And what do you know? It worked.

I give you my step-by-step guide for getting out of a funk, whether this be an hour-long practice that you use to just go about your day when the day feels too heavy to comprehend, or an extended process that you move through at your own rhythm.

Creating a practice to surrender to that brings you back to yourself, back to Earth, and allows you to have the patience to create space around your feelings - is sometimes all we need to get through the other side.

You are exactly where you are supposed to be. And sometimes, where you are doesn't feel good. Sometimes, it's not supposed to. We learn so much from darkness, so much to transmute into light.

More than anything -- we learn that we are far more powerful than we know in becoming conscious, aware, and getting ourselves out of feeling stuck.

Be patient with yourself as you learn.

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This episode is part of the December Mini-Series - 4 shorter episodes to close out the year and to end Season 1 of Figuring Sh!t Out.

There is so much coming in the New Year that I am so excited to share!! Stay tuned with me on -

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Episode 18 - Burnout, Toxic Productivity, & Radical Acceptance

Mentioned in the episode: Episode 24, A Guide to: Identifying Limiting Beliefs, Breaking Patterns, & Creating a New Self Concept

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See you guys next week <3 

I love you!!

It felt as though I spoke directly to myself in my current situation — in the space between this September & this December, I have found myself amid quite a bit of career confusion, not having any answers or knowing what to do, and how to move forward with the unknowing.

And it’s a reminder that sometimes - we have to remember how far we’ve come, how much we know, and how much we’ve forgotten as we get lost in the throws of life. 

You’ll never solve a problem in crisis mode — and taking a step back will always let you see a much bigger picture that you didn’t have before.

So, as we get into the finality of this year, it is time for reflection, for rest, and to allow ourselves to evolve. To sit with what we really want, balance it with what makes sense for us, and allow the path to be carved for when we know how to walk upon it.

On this episode, I give you the run-down on my experience through my educational studies and choices, college, and moving to New York City to figure the rest out. I had a very non-traditional experience through this part of my adolescence, and as hard as it was — it taught me more than I know to be grateful for. 

I’m still along the journey of Figuring Sh!t Out, as we all will be for the rest of our lives — and this topic is to likely be revisited when I find more answers I didn’t have before. But in the mean-time, I will have fun finding them — because in the end, 

If you spend your whole life trying to get your act together, you don’t have a life. You have an act. 

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So much news coming in the new year! Figuring Sh!t Out Season 2 & so much goodness to share very soon <3

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27 - Following Your Calling & Taking the Bet on Yourself - First FSO Guest Interview with Founder & CEO of Wellness Brand

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See you guys next week <3 

I love you! 

To let yourself be taken out of the box of ideas and beliefs you cling onto, and gain clarity of consciousness, and the simplicity of presence? 

This episode is a note on allowing yourself to evolve, to expand, and holding space for the liminal space between where you are now, and where you are going.

To hold space for mystery, and find empowerment in letting old ideas, dreams, and beliefs that we no longer identify with, leave us as this year soon will.

And the true power of your unique, individual expression, with the connection of the collective world and magnetic landscape of humanity that we are inextricably apart of.

We often forget the shared universal human experience. We often forget that we all know confusion. We all know breakthrough. We all know love and heartbreak and pain and peace. We all know embarrassment and fear and comfort and joy. 

We forage in isolation, on our own, living in a dream world - squeamishly trying to find more air in our breath.

We sit on trains and planes and walk through the streets of the world, heads down, phone in hand - one million pulses and heart-beats around us, yet - we choose to be set apart from the beat of humanity. 

Our clarity of consciousness is our greatest superpower. It can be sharpened to be the lens that we live most of our lives through, but the consequence of humanity is that we will never have clarity, all of the time. 

The moments where we have the gift of reprieve from passing thoughts and extraneous worries, the moments where we are present enough to observe life happening, with or without us – is where we are able to sit in the liminal space between worlds, and know that our unfolding is inevitable. 

So, if your unfolding is inevitable, do you wish to live in your own isolated dream, unable to see the birth of that new world that you have created, unconsciously? 

Or do you wish to be conscious? 

Life will always be struggle. And yet, it will always be expansive. 

Your power, is not to choose whether your struggle or whether you expand, but to choose what you struggle for, what is worth expanding for, where you focus, and what influences you let into your waking life. 

The question is not - “Will you create?”

The question is always - “What will you create?” and

“What have you already created?”

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25 - Self Love & Self Discipline - Learning to Listen to your Intuitive Cycles of Rest & Action

Mentioned in Episode - FSO Episode 26 Post-Episode Guide-Book (Let me know your thoughts & feedback on this as I create more for the next evolution :) more to come on that leading into 2024 <3) 

Are we running out of time? Should we be somewhere else at this stage of our lives? What’s left to do? What’s next to accomplish?

An urgency that we humanly attempt to fill with more material things, and more material dreams of material things.

The importance of integrating gratitude into our daily routines is something that’s been talked about time & time again. Having a gratitude journal, finding more to be grateful for, we hear it all the time -

But this isn’t about ticking off an item on your daily to-do list, it's about feeling and embodying gratitude.

Gratitude — true, sincere gratitude, expands your focus and retrains your neural networks to expand the scope of goodness in your life. It has profound impacts on our physical and psychological well-being. 

We often get tangled in the web of wants, the web of material possession & achievement, forgetting that life is transitory, fleeting, and our tendency to clutter our lives with material possessions and achievements keeps us from the feelings of true wholeness and abundance. 

It seems in every book or guide or how-to that complicates the simplicity of life - there is an underlying basis of shifting our mindset to the survival-state of lack and suffering, to that of abundance and light. 

But the shift will not happen by following steps or writing lists, attempting to emulate a wheel that has been created and recreated, time and time again. 

The shift happens in deep presence, where you realize - all that you have now, is all that you need, and somewhere in time – was all that you wanted. 

On this episode, we venture into a conceptual analysis of gratitude, and why it’s so hard to integrate fully into our lives, delving into the realms of our mindset, and evaluating our perceptions of abundance and scarcity. 

Uncovering how gratitude, from a psychological perspective, can forge stronger connections with others, with ourselves, reshape our narratives, and break us out of limiting beliefs. 

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Youtube: Vanessa Fontana - Find the Full length Read of my Piece "The Fallacy of Immaterial Fulfillment - here.)

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Figuring Sh!t Out - Episode 6 - Law of Attraction (Part 2) - Romanticizing Your Life, Self-Fulfilling Prophecies, & Gratitude into Luckiness

+ If you’re trying the Gratitude Practice from Huberman Lab with me (his podcast is linked below), let me know! Follow for updates, & tell me your thoughts on the show <3 

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Referenced in this Podcast: 

On Gratitude | The Good Life Project | Anne Lamott, Janice Kaplan, & Jonathan Fields 

Huberman Lab | The Science of Gratitude & How to Build a Gratitude Practice

The Neuroscience of Gratitude - Positive Psychology

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Episode Chapters: 

(00:00) - The Power of Gratitude

(11:50) - Finding Gratitude and Presence in Life

(18:32) - Challenges of Gratitude and Integration, Holding Paradoxical Truths

(36:37) - Gratitude and the Power of Storytelling & Awareness, Building Positive Recall Bias

(53:42) - Gratitude's Power in Genuine Connection With Other People

(01:01:32) - Self-Realization & Limiting Beliefs

These are the moments when we need breath, perspective, and patience.

Knowing that there is an older, wiser version of ourselves holding our hands as we rise and fall through this life, and in the panorama of our confusion - there is the beauty of experience embedded into everything we have yet to know.

In the shortest episode to date of Figuring Sh!t Out, I give you context into the background of my life recently and share about my own journey regaining perspective, reflecting on how far FSO has come since it was created.

This podcast has become the space where I meet my higher self. I get on this microphone and I always find more clarity than I had before.

I thank you for being alongside me as we go on the endless journey of Figuring Sh!t Out, realizing again and again that to "figure" anything out -

was never the point at all.

I love you !! <3

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

15. Looking for answers? Let them find you. Stop, Look around, and Enjoy the Process.

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The minutes that compound into hours, the hours that compound into days, the days that compound to weeks, then months, then years.

If nothing changes now, then nothing will change.

And most often, it is not a radical shift -- we will not change overnight & we do not need to force ourselves out of where we are.

It is the act of one step at a time, one day at a time, and the willingness to be patient with oneself as we learn and evolve.

How do you enjoy the process of growth? And how do you consciously begin growing?

In this episode, I give you direction, guidance, and tips on how to create a daily practice of fostering connection with yourself, grounding yourself, and creating space for yourself.

Intentionally practicing self-care & self-preservation as you grow, accomplish, and achieve -- will allow you to be present in the experiences of your life - and save you from burn-out.

Having a practice that allows us to take a step back and see how far we've come, as well as evaluate how we are spending your time, and how we would intentionally like to move forward allows us to be a friend to ourselves.

To look at ourselves, without judgement, and create time and space to pour back into our own hearts, souls, and energy.

This is how you become aware - day by day, so that you are not controlled by the unconscious narratives in your mind.

You choose to see what you see -- but if you're not conscious of it, you will see what you have been programmed to see.

You do not have to live in a program anymore.

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EPISODE MENTIONS/LINKS:

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Guidebook mentioned in Episode 26 (Intuition vs anxiety), with my AM routine + tips for Meditation <3 FSO Guidebook, Episode 26 (More will be coming! Stay Tuned!)

333 Heart Oracle Book that I read from here.

If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

24 - A Guide to Identifying Limiting Beliefs, Breaking Patterns, & Creating a New Self-Concept

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Youtube: Vanessa Fontana

love you!!!!!!!

xx

EPISODE CHAPTERS:

(0:00:00) - Living and Thriving in a Changing World

(0:04:33) - Finding Balance and Enjoyment in Life, Mindset Shifts

(0:13:37) - Practices for Self-Reflection and Personal Growth

(0:19:57) - The Power of Journaling and Presence - Forming Habits to Build Self-Awareness & Assess Emotions

(0:24:05) - Creating Space for Connection and Gratitude - Accessing Inner Guidance

(0:31:53) - The Power of Daily Practices

(0:40:23) - Finding Redemption and Growth Within

Watch our conversation live on my Youtube Channel!

ABOUT THIS EPISODE:

How many times have you talked yourself out of an idea because “it didn’t make sense?” because it “never has been done”? 

What is a calling if we have silenced it for so long, we no longer know what calls to us?

What is intuition good for if we don’t learn how to use it? 

And how do you find your way home to yourself, believe in, trust yourself, and lead a life that makes both your inner child and wisest self proud?

On the first guest episode of Figuring Sh!t Out, we explore these topics.

Founder & CEO, Nya Jones shares her story on how she started and scaled a business by following her inner voice, leaving the corporate 9-5 tech world to take the bet on herself.

Graduating college in the midst of the Pandemic, Nya led a journey of introspection guided through a journaling practice she had since she was a kid. She committed herself to learning about who she wanted to show up as, who she wanted to be, and fully embraced it.

In order to “Dig Deeper,” she listed out intentional questions for herself to answer that would lead her to grow, heal, and eventually become the Founder of a company that empowers others to do the same. 

These questions, which led her to connect more deeply with herself, ended up being the blueprint of Inside then Out, a wellness brand providing tools for intentional modern living, including guided journals that allow self-care and introspection to be an effortless, connected experience in daily life.

This episode follows 

• Nya’s story and experience leaving her full time job to scale her business a couple of years post-grad
• How she learned to follow her intuition and believe in herself after dealing with overthinking and perfectionism
• How her journey of healing, growth, and introspection expanded her life and how she is now able to touch the lives of many others through it

I get questions about how to begin journaling, how to start the process of healing, how to get to know yourself, and the answers to those questions - are often questions themselves. Questions that you must ask yourself, and that only you can answer. 

Here is a binded book of many of those questions, that can help you begin and a conversation with the woman who created them. 

I hope this conversation will inspire you the way it did me. I hope this journal will open your heart the way it did mine.

Honored to welcome someone else into the space of Figuring Sh!t Out for the very first time, and honored to offer a resource for you alongside it. 

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NYA & ITO:

Inside Then Out Instagram

Nya's Instagram

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Figuring Sh!t Out, Episode 11: Normalize Confusion - Wherever you are is Okay & You're Not running out of time

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An unexplainable inner wisdom, a sixth sense that can hardly be articulated.

Our acquaintanceship with our own intuition is deeply connected to how much we know and trust ourselves.

To listen to it - we must have a certain solitude with the self, a practice of discernment with our mental activity to know what is intuition and what is fear.

We must strengthen the muscle of listening to our inner wisdom, and understand the ways we have silenced the voice that softly protects us from danger, warns us from impulsive action, and guides us into our destiny.

This episode is a step-by-step guide for you to re-find your inner voice, and covers:

• The difference between Intuition & Anxiety
• The ways in which you may have silenced your intuition
• Practices to help you re-find & listen to your intuition
• The importance of intentional silence (meditation), and how a daily practice can help you feel centered in your knowing
• Deciphering emotional reactions, impulsive instincts, from an intuitive urgency
• Guiding questions (towards the end of the podcast) to help you remember your own intuitive compass, and reconnect you to the wisdom within you

Intuition whispers before it screams. In this episode, I ask you the question --

Where is your intuition starting to scream?

What are you not facing, not admitting, not acknowledging?

How often do you second-guess what you know, what you feel, what your knowing tells to you?

And how can you begin to practice listening?

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I decided to use this episode as a first test for upcoming guidebooks!

You can find it here:

FSO Episode 26 Post-Episode Guide-Book

It breaks down the episode with an introspective element to help you tap into your intuition, with guided practices towards the end, and prompts to help you connect with your intuition. Please let me know your thoughts on this one + if it helped you, as it is a first draft <3

Remember - these are suggestions - not directions! You know yourself best <3

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If you liked this episode, you'll like this one too!

Figuring Sh!t Out, Episode 12:

How to Trust Your Intuition & Step Into Freedom - You Already Have All The Answers

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~~Apologies for any background noise - was not recording in my usual place amid travel~~ 

See you soon 

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This episode is part one of an embarkation on shadow-work, a series to guide you through Shadow-Work & Self-Discovery, the necessary uncovering of our unconscious selves that can lead us into the light of consciousness. We start at the very beginning - and learn how to acquaint with our inner child. 

Before we delve into the depths of our shadows and learn more about our triggers, attempt to heal them by and unlearning patterns that no longer serve us - we must begin with the ability to have compassion for ourselves - 

All parts of ourselves. 

Acceptance. Forgiveness. Discovery. 

This is the groundwork & foundation for uncovering our unconscious selves.

In this episode, I define what our inner child is and why it's so important to begin the process of healing with this image of our most pure and impressionable selves. 

I ask you to picture your version of who they are to you, and sit with these questions as you hold their image: 

What is it that you need?

What is it that makes you feel happy?

What makes you feel loved and secure? 

What was your first memory of feeling rejected? Alone? Shame?

When did you start putting up walls around your heart?

What did it feel like before you had them there?

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I share my story of my own inner-child healing and how I've learned what I share today. From moving to New York City at 21 and being ignited with an unexpected healing journey to re-processing and transformative acceptance with EMDR therapy.

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PART TWO, LISTEN HERE: Healing Self-Expression & Actualizing your Dreams through Your Inner Child

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How many blessings in disguise have you uncovered? How many bullets have you dodged? How many times have you looked back at yourself in shambles of the past, and wanted to whisper in your ear from your present-day self, “Just wait, you don’t know what’s in store for you.” 

We don’t know what we don’t know, and we never will until the time comes, where we realize with gratitude how divinely led our bumps in the road were. 

Forehead Kisses From the Universe - that is what those life-altering moments are.

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This episode begins with an expression of gratitude for each & every one of you who've supported & given me your beautiful insights into the podcast thus far!! If I spoke to you 1:1 this week over Instagram, thank you! If not and you're listening anyways, thank you! 

I discuss how Episode 20 went awry, recording an hour and a half on a different topic and then losing it all, and how I used this as an opportunity to decide how I was going to feel and surrender into redirection, instead of allow an unexpected event to control the rest of my day. 

I talk at length about: 

1. The three steps to building resilience in the face of change or inconvenience:

- Recognition & Acknowledgement - feeling what you need to feel,
 - Surrendering & Accepting - it is what it is,
- & Deciding how to move forward - it is what I make it

& The ways I experimented with this for this episode.

2. How to change your perspective with a simple question your brain will automatically try to answer: "How is this a good thing?"

& a challenge for you to implement this in your life this week as unexpected bumps in the road occur, no matter how big or small.

3. How our perspective shapes how we see unexpected change and pain in our lives & how to empower yourself into the freedom of surrender

4. How this Podcast began in the face of a "Tower Moment" & how I have learned throughout my life how to turn pain into opportunity

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I invite you to survey your life and all of the moments that felt impossible to get through, and ask yourself how they were blessings in disguise, what you have or can learn from them, and how they made you a stronger version of who you are today.

I invite you to begin this practice by starting small, with the minor inconveniences that occur in your day-to-day, and see how much resilience you can build with the simple question
"How is this a good thing?"

Feel free to share with me your experience on socials!
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Books Referenced:
Untethered Soul, Michael J Singer

With the image casted upon us from Storybooks & Fairytales of the Damsel in Distress & the Knight in Shining Armor, we often feel in the depths of our pain and confusion, that we are to wait to be rescued by an unknown savior on horseback to break us out of the dungeon of affliction and into freedom.

But this is an illusion. For that Knight In Shining Armor, who frees you from all of the stagnant anguish - has always been + will forever be: You. 

If you wait for someone or something to come rushing in and break you out of captivity, you will be waiting forever.

No one will ever know you, like you know you. No one has ever woken up with you every single day and gone to sleep with you every night, other than you. No one else, and nothing else, has access to your mind or your memories. The loving people in our lives can only guide us, support us, and give us what we need - when we know what it is  we need and can ask for it.

You don’t have to heal, you get to heal. You don’t have to rewrite your story, you get to pick up at any point and decide with love that it is your story to write. 

And while it can feel heavy, it is the most profound privilege, honor, and responsibility that you have in this life. 

Your ability to create the life you want starts with your ability to accept your life and yourself now, to accept your responsibility in every step you take, and lovingly redirect into what you get to define. 

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In this episode, I cover: 

• Becoming the artist of your own life. 
• Using confusion as a launching point for self-responsibility.
• How to overcome absorbing other people's energies+feelings.
• EMDR therapy - my experience, what it is, & how it’s helping to heal long-held conditioned beliefs rooted in trauma and survival
  • Unlearning survival instincts, rescuing your inner child, reparenting yourself.
  • Seeing self-care & healing as a privilege. 
• The dissonance between who you are and who you want to be: "Manifestation” without necessary shadow-work. 
  • How your commitment to healing & self-worth will guide you to create the life you want. 
• Looking at loved ones who help us through hard times as guide-posts, but taking the credit and responsibility in your own healing.
• A note on my own realizations with this + the empowerment that’s come from it. 

Journal Prompts:

• If your younger self could tell you what they needed, what would they say? How can you give that to them?
• Do you have a tendency to resent others for not being there for you? If so, how may you be abandoning yourself?
• How can you give some credit to yourself for getting through hard times, instead of others?

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There is something beneath the illusion of it all that has wisdom beyond your means. If you can release the illusion that you are the only unknowing one, you can learn how to quiet the noise. 

That wisdom will guide you - and that wisdom, is not an imposter. 

The more you learn, the less you know. The more that you follow your own truth, and this wisdom, the more you feel confident in the not knowing.

Your birthright is your evolution.

You are you & That is your power.

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In this episode, I discuss:
- What Imposter Syndrome is & Symptoms of It
- The importance of everyone (even the "greats") in some way, shape, or form feeling self-doubt & why this is important to know to overcome it
- How it is deeply tied to our own limiting beliefs and ideas of self-worth
- How to overcome it, not let it hold you back, & begin to take the steps in growing confidence
- The illusion of separation and how life is a mirror which reflects back to us that which we are 
- My own journey & struggles with imposter syndrome and how I have learned to quiet the noise, take chances, and follow my authentic desires (literally..... this podcast.)
- Realizing the uniqueness and inherent value of YOU.

Journal Prompts / Guided Questions to sit with on this topic:
(Good for the new Aquarius Full Moon coming up Aug 1!)
 
- What is it that you want to do? Be honest without limitation.
- What's stopping you? Is it comparison, is it your belief in your ability?
- Who do you admire and why? What is your highest ideal?
- What compliments do you find the hardest to accept? How has imposter syndrome held you back?
- What have you accomplished, and how can you give yourself credit for it?

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Do you realize how much you are holding yourself back from your blessings by demanding they come in right here, right now?

Do you realize how much you may be blocking answers and guidance by yearning for them with an acute desperation, eyes unknowingly closed to what is right in front of you? 

If you feel like you are on a constant search for answers, clarity, or guidance on how to get to where you want to go or where you should even be going at all - I have one piece of advice, 

Stop searching. 

Learn to sit in the silence of your heart. You will find all you need there. 

You are here in this life, to experience this life.  

Remove the need. 

Remove the pressure. 

Silence the monkey in your mind that whisks you away into a painful introspection bordering on existentialism, craving for you to do, to force, to complete.

For if you don't, 

You will miss the moments that are open-doorways for portals of transformation, right in front of you, by scouring for answers when you could simply be allowing them to make their way to you. 

Let yourself be what you were born to be - 

Here -

Now.
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In this Episode, I cover: 

• Incremental Progress & Conscious Living
• How to enjoy the process and the unfolding of your path and your life with more ease
• The power of authenticity, of what you can create by showing up as you are 
• Practical Tips for Consciousness & Presence 
  • How to become conscious of your unconscious thoughts, actions, habits, and behaviors 
  • See what is holding you back 
  • The importance of Meditation & How to Begin 
  • Alpha Brain Wave State 
•  Morning/Alpha State Questions for Guidance
  • "What is the highest ideal of myself that i can be today?"
    • Not getting out of bed until you feel like this person
  • "Can i begin to keep my energy up the entire day?
    • "And if I do it properly, then I will be open to opportunities and possibilities that weren’t there before."
  • "Could I sustain brain and heart coherence so that the intelligence within me giving me life, opens a door for me to see intelligence in my world?"
• Night Time Guidance 
  • "What went well today?"
    • Scanning for the good, appreciating moments you did not appreciate when they deserved to be honored
  • "How did I do today?" (Not from a place of judgement but pure observation, and holding yourself accountable)
    • "What got under my skin? What made me frustrated, angry upset? How did I react? & How will I react differently next time?"
    • "Was I present?" "How can I be better tomorrow"
      • Visualization - REALIZING YOUR POWER
• Books & Resources for this episode: (Where I've learned these things!) 
  • Eckhart Tolle, Power of Now
  • Atomic Habits, James Clear 
  • Joe Dispenza on Jay Shetty's podcast 'On Purpose' Episode Title: How to Chemically Teach your Body to Focus on Healing & Vibrate at a Higher Frequency
  • Short Video on Power of Meditation: YT Abraham Hicks, The Pleasure of Meditation
  •  The simplest: LITERALLY GOING,,, OUTSIDE and BEING THERE.

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and when they are watching - what are you trying so hard for? 

Where are you lying to yourself? Craving to be understood, but fearful of being perceived? 

What an oxymoron.

You crave to be understood, but fear being perceived - because you believe that people won’t understand you, won’t see you, won’t get you. 

And you let that matter. You let that move you. 

And then you’re standing on broken legs and wondering why it’s so hard to walk. 

Wondering why you can’t let another person who wants to love you, love you.

Wondering why you can’t pick up the pen or the paintbrush or the camera and find the spark to light the fire. 

Wondering why you’ve sat back on all of the dreams your inner self is thirsty for, but you won’t let yourself admit - because you shut the light off in the room that the child that once was you, that still lives in you - illuminated. 

You told yourself you weren’t worthy. You told yourself you couldn’t. You told yourself it was too frightening. 

And you believed it. 

The cage is open - you can walk out any time you want. 

Why are you still in there?

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In this episode, I cover: 
- How to overcome the internal struggle of wanting but fearing love, and how it relates to our ability to see and accept ourselves unconditionally
- Why we do this, where it comes from
- How projecting a sense of isolation/separation in your own internal pain and experience will keep you lonely, craving, and searching
- Taking a peak under the hood at our own worthiness & limiting beliefs 
- How this translates into how we feel about ourselves and our ability to share ourselves with the world
- How to face yourself & feel the necessary feelings to become at one with your authentic self 
- How to lead with an open heart in all love, relationships, and creativity - starting with the most important relationship you'll ever have (the one YOU have with YOU.) 
- Breaking out of the idea that love is static - or to be feared - accepting the flux that is this life, accepting our constant evolution
- Healthy communication and honesty with yourself, which will translate to others

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YOUTUBE CHANNEL: @/figuringshitout 
Name: Vanessa Fontana / Butterfly Fountain 

Title of Video: who are you when no one is watching? fearful of being perceived, craving to be understood. 

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sacrificing your boundaries in the name of love is not a noble, empathetic act. 

it is martyrdom. it is self-abandonment. and it is reinforcing the falsehood that you are not worthy of love as you are, unconditionally, without needing to overextend yourself in order to receive.

where did we learn to include sacrifice in our definition of love? 

where did we learn to belittle the desires of our own hearts to feed other people's? 

learning how to set boundaries starts first, with the words we tell ourselves. 

in the promises that we make to ourselves which we often-times flippantly break, we are showing the world around us, and ourselves, that our boundaries are breakable.

in nourishing yourself, in watering your own seeds, you make room for the capacity to give to others without sacrifice or self abandonment. 

you nourish yourself and by default, the relationships in your life, when you honor your your own space, energy, and time. 

in this episode, i cover: 

• why setting boundaries is an act of self love
• what happens when you show up for others in abandonment of yourself rather than out of available space 
• why we struggle to set boundaries and how it reflects our belief in how worthy we are to be loved 
• learning how to say no and break out of the idea that love is conditional 
• how honoring your own word & boundaries to yourself reinforces your ability to set boundaries with others 
• reclaiming your power, time, space, and energy and learning how to protect it with grace & vigilance 
• how setting boundaries will bring the right people into your life and nourish your relationships
• how to self soothe & take responsibility over your own happiness

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Name: Vanessa Fontana / Butterfly Fountain 

Title of Video: how to set boundaries & stop people pleasing. it's time to reclaim your power. 

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And with a culture that places more importance on logic, reason, reality, and physical evidence - we have become profoundly disconnected from it. 

This voice is our most powerful asset, it is our internal compass, our sixth sense, our key to freedom within ourselves to explore the outside world free of fear - 

It is our Intuition. 

And in this episode, I help you learn how to rediscover it. 

Back from my week journeying the mountains of Asheville, North Carolina, named one of the three spiritual “vortexes” in the U.S. -  I share some profound learnings I had in my time of full-circle presence while away. 

I speak on:  

• Trusting your path & learning to trust yourself 
• What freedom truly is, and how we define it 
• How we often mistake freedom for controlled independence
• The ways we limit our own freedom & silence our intuition by:
   
  • Overvaluing logic, reason, and what looks good “on paper” (not that this isn’t important, but too much of it leads to silence within our own internal knowing)
  • Looking to other people for advice and guidance instead of trusting ourselves 
  • Looking to the world for approval, or only trusting ourselves when we’re “doing well” in life 
  • Keeping ourselves attached to our own pain & victimhood 
  • Keeping ourselves in environments or around people we may have outgrown / not being able to “let go” for fear of loss 
• & How to learn to trust yourself and your own intuition through 
  • Acting out of alignment and then leaving the rest - surrendering to the unknown 
  • Letting go of the need to control/force outcomes, people, situations, and things
  • Letting go of fear/what-ifs 
  • Being open to discovery and your intuition by quieting your mind 
  • Not letting other people have more influence over you than your own internal knowing 

apologies for the NYC noise & cabs in the background - they wanted their moment :,) 

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Title of Video: you already have all of the answers. learn how to trust your intuition. 

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Title: normalize confusion - you're not running out of time. wherever you are is okay.

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Episode 11. 

our incessant need to understand and make sense of our lives is the malignant cessation of the flow of our lives. 

the enjoyment of our lives. 

do not get caught up in the tangled trap of strife born out of the conditioning that we must break our bones to have the answers right now. 

normalize confusion. normalize not knowing. normalize a lifetime of figuring shit out for the fun of it. living your life, enjoying your life, is your birthright. 

we are young in these bodies once, regardless of if we worry while we are - our hearts are beating, our lungs are breathing, and we are living.

when will you decide to enjoy that experience rather than be resentful of it? 

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Lessons not isolated to a journey of awakening, but lessons so intertwined with life, that we all seem to learn them at some point or another, in our own way. 

We are not separate and we never were. 

The light you see in others is too within you - and your access to it comes from a willingness to learn. To be open.

In this episode, I talk about - 

Interconnectedness. 

My own journey.

What death has taught me. 

Learning to trust the sixth sense, gut instinct. 

How to trust your intuition & not talk yourself out of your dreams.

The inevitable impermanence of it all. 

Detachment. 

Learning to trust that every step and mis-step on your journey, every cataclysm, every burst of being, is for your evolvement. 

Surrender & Relinquishing of control.

We are all just here. Walking each other home.

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It seems like everything that could have gone wrong with this episode, did. 

Recording was loud and clumsy. 

My camera was set to slow motion and didn’t pick up any audio. 

As I found flow editing, I lost a folder with all of my cut-down clips. 

I spent an hour trying to find it. Searching through files, downloading recovery software. 

In the sake and name of what this episode is, I figure it makes a lot of sense. 

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Soul Consciousness.

I was 14 when I watched my grandfather take his last breath. It was the first time I remember having an inner inclination that the life force within us cannot simply dissipate and fade away into nothingness.

That there just might be something more. 

Somewhere, I knew that he was not really gone. Irregardless of if he traveled upon a plane of existence unbeknownst to my mortal humanity, I felt his life’s blood through me. 

I felt his lived experiences in my heart and in my bones, and I knew that as long as I was alive, he would be too - as he lived through me and with me, whether it was all that he gave to me in this physical realm and the patriarchal fortress he built upon our family, 

Or somewhere very far away yet, not far away enough to be a point of guiding light in the ambiguity of my life. 

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Relinquishing control & surrendering to the flux of it all, knowing that sometimes things just don’t end up the way we want them to, and no amount of willing can surmount the inevitable forces that may just be redirection. Or maybe not. But maybe that’s not ours to know. 

The challenges, the tests, the lessons - the ones that never stop. Even once when we awaken to them, when we can spot the patterns and be an objective dimension in our own lives. 

We are here to learn. To remember and to forget. Over and over again. 

From darkness I have found light - I think that’s the only way. 

I found a home in my spirit - which is not so different from yours.

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