When Steve messaged me about doing an interview and sharing his identification with my previous guest, he validated all of the hopes and dreams I have for this show. As you've surely heard me say before, my motivation for this podcast is to provide the opportunity for listeners to hear something that tells them they are normal and not alone; that allows them to be more accepting of themselves and others.

Additionally, today's episode is the last of Season 2 as I've made the decision to extend the break between seasons from one month to two. Season 3 will premiere in February 2021 and I wish you all a wonderful and safe winter until then.

As always, please reach out if you would like to be a part of the show or share some audio recordings.

Til next season...

Again, this couple is giving me exactly what I want, be it only through my ears! Anyway, enjoy :)

Til next week...

My guest is originally from Italy but currently lives and works in Berlin. She is someone who waited a long time to have sex, having held onto romantic ideals for many years, and now, having let go of those ideas, lives a full life studying for her Master's Degree, doing sex work and fighting for a better existence and future for other sex workers. Also she considers herself to be vanilla, but after you hear some details about her personal life you might disagree!

Find out more about the Berlin Strippers Collective and their events:

Berlin Strippers Collective Website / Patreon / Instagram

Check out Priscilla's book on Amazon!

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"FROM SECRETLY THINKING ABOUT FANTASY SITUATIONS - TO DESCRIBING A HOTWIFING SESSION AND THREESOME! MY, HOW FAR WE’VE COME!

For the first 30 years of our marriage, our sex life was routinely structured with very little deviation towards anything even remotely kinky. Probably deep rooted from our Catholic upbringing; but more my wife than mine.

We have been together for 40 years! We have been high school sweethearts since I was 17 and she was 15. 

Before you get to thinking that we are old farts let me say with pride and confidence that we keep ourselves in good shape. While a few pounds heavier than we were in our twenties, my wife constantly gets mistaken for 15 years younger than she actually is. She’s a natural beauty of Irish and Italian decent. She looks more Irish than Italian and one of those women with light coloring who needs no makeup to look VERY attractive. To paint a picture for your listeners – she has strawberry blonde hair about shoulder length, green eyes, and beautiful and natural D size breasts. Her looks get compared to Michelle Pfeiffer and a young Linda Hamilton all the time.

I’m not sure what got me started on fantasizing about threesomes or cuckolding, but I know it’s been a constant for me for about the last twenty years. We started experimenting with toys over the past 10 years where I could get her to come with a good vibrator. Then we incorporated variations where I would have her sucking my dick while she was riding a dildo, or she would ride me while sucking on the dildo, to simulate the threesome effect; but anytime I brought up trying a real threesome with another guy, it was met with a hard NO. 

Over the last four years or so I have been able to muster up the courage to slightly whisper it during our love making. At first it was kind of under my breath as if I was the only one who was supposed to hear it, until one night while she was jerking me off, she whispered in my ear, “Tell me what you’re thinking.”

From there it was SEX COMMUNICATION GAME ON! And now, I have her playing along in full fantasy mode, telling stories of our imaginary “friend” who is standing by the door watching us, then climbing onto the bed, with my wife sucking his dick, spreading her legs, and him fucking her while I watch from a chair in a hotel room. Sometimes we simulate that with a dildo and her on the bed all alone while I watch as she comes.

TONIGHT I THINK WE MAY HAVE HAD A COMMUNICATION BREAKTHROUGH!!!

This clip is a fantasy about getting my wife naked on the bed and inviting a male masseuse into the room who takes over for me. He gradually works his way from her feet to her thighs. He reaches in between her legs and massaging her clit. He gets her worked up and then climbs on top of her back and slowly glides his big dick into her. She plays along! She comes like crazy, burying her face into the bedsheets to keep the volume down (we live in a luxury apartment complex). After she came the first time, you’ll hear her roll over on her back as I rubbing her clit while discussing the experience she just had and she was so aroused at the thought of me watching her, that she came hard again as our “friend” left the room!

 After she caught her breath, she gets on top of me and mentions that our “friend” has come back “because he forgot something” and describes how he is coming onto the bed and spreading her ass cheeks. She describes a full DP threesome fantasy that SHE INITIATED!!! It was her on top of me, and our “friend” entering her from the rear! Talk about strides in COMMUNICATION!!!!

My wife was fully into it on this night and listening back to the recording I’m wondering if the reality of actually living out one of these fantasies isn’t too far off. I have posed the question since then. The answer was is still no, but, there was a slight pause this time. It was still no, but it wasn’t the hard NO response she used to give. So, maybe. Either way, she really took the role-playing to another level on this night and I can’t wait to see what our next session brings! Enjoy!"

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Til next week!

Kenneth and I connected over Instagram because of our shared interest in destroying the stigma of sex and discussing sexuality openly. We decided to trade interviews on each other's shows to share our individual perspectives and it was in that planning that I was introduced to Kenneth's past. He was very open in disclosing his history; his conviction and status as a sex offender, and I am grateful he was willing to speak so honestly about the events leading to his incarceration, his experiences coming to terms with his sexuality, and what life has been like since his release.

This conversation may be difficult for some of you to hear but that is precisely why it is so important. We must not shy away from challenging conversations; embracing honesty, especially when it comes to all matters of sex, can only improve lives in the long run.

As I mentioned, Kenneth is also the host of a sex podcast, his show is called Unspeakable Vice. You can listen to my appearance on his show here: Episode 7 of the Unspeakable Vice Podcast

Also! A brief heads-up on some new episodes to come and some background info/updates on the state of the new GRAPHICPAINT.com

Also also! Here are the two written pieces about penis size I reference:

The Most Disappointing Dicks I've Encountered

Must Have Thick Skin And Big Dick

Til next week!

Much like this show and GRAPHICPAINT, their mission is to offer a safe, judgment-free space for the exploration of sexuality. They cover everything from gender identity, kink, polyamory and more.

Today's conversation covers those same topics while also getting into their backgrounds and experiences that led to them being the people they are today. How were they introduced to sex, kink and polyamory; how did they find each other; and why is their YouTube channel so important, especially right now.

Links to Safi and Fifi:
YouTube
Instagram

Find out more about Sitara:

♥ Website: https://sultrysitara.net/
♥ NiteFlirt: https://niteflirt.com/Sultry%20Sitara
♥ AVNStars: https://stars.avn.com/sultrysitara
♥ Twitter: https://twitter.com/SultrySitara
♥ Linktree: https://linktr.ee/SultrySitara

In today’s interview, we discuss the very practical need for open communication about sex with partners and with children. As a mother, wife and experienced coach in all matters of family relationships, Malva has a great deal of expertise to share about how biology and socialization play into our understanding of sex. And of course, as with all my guests, we discuss her intimate, personal experiences, specifically as they relate to motherhood and long-term monogamy.

Links to our guest and her work:
https://www.coaching-mother-and-all.com/
https://www.facebook.com/coaching.mother.and.all/
https://www.facebook.com/malva.gasowski.coaching/about

The stigma of sex affects many things and the treatment of sex workers is but one example. Sex workers face discrimination, prosecution and an absence of basic labor rights. As we approach the close of this series, I hope these interviews have created awareness and inspired not only compassion, but supportive action as well. 

Today’s interview is with Antonia Crane and AM Davies, two members of Soldiers of Pole, a Stripper Union Movement. During the July 22nd fundraiser, Soldiers of Pole will host Strippers Unite; a performance and Q&A about organizing and strippers in the midst of a pandemic during an uprising. In this episode we discuss the lack of labor rights facing sex workers in the U.S., visions for a better future, misconceptions about the work, and some personal details about our guests.

Event information:
Tickets / Info: Black Sex Workers Collective 22-Hour Fundraiser Event
Tickets to the Soldiers of Pole Event: Strippers Unite — Performance and Q&A

General information:
The Black Sex Worker Collective
Some information about the fight for Sex Worker rights:
https://www.hrw.org/news/2020/05/04/sex-workers-struggle-survive-covid-19-pandemic
https://www.hrw.org/news/2019/08/07/why-sex-work-should-be-decriminalized

More information about today's guests and their personal projects:
Soldiers Of Pole Website
Antonia Crane Website
AM Davies Website

This show is about destroying the stigma of sex, and the fact of sex workers facing discrimination, prosecution and an absence of basic labor rights, is a demonstration of this stigma. It is my hope, that with every episode in this series, you, the listener, become more informed, compassionate, and inspired to take supportive action.

In today’s show, I speak with Arabella Allure, a burlesque performer, advocate, and event organizer. Arabella and Salty Bisch Creations will be presenting a performance showcase of the top BIPOC Artists from Western Canada. Like our last guest, Arabella is also originally from Australia, though now based in Calgary Canada. We discuss the challenges and benefits of stripping, along with how engaging in sex work challenges cultural patriarchy.

Event information:
Tickets / Info: Black Sex Workers Collective 22-Hour Fundraiser Event
Tickets to Arabella's Event: Salty Bisch Creations — The Patio Below; BIPOC Performer Showcase

General information:
The Black Sex Worker Collective
Some information about the fight for Sex Worker rights:
https://www.hrw.org/news/2020/05/04/sex-workers-struggle-survive-covid-19-pandemic
https://www.hrw.org/news/2019/08/07/why-sex-work-should-be-decriminalized

More information about today's guest:
Arabella Allure: Instagram / Twitter
Salty Bisch Creations: Facebook / Instagram / Twitter

It can not be said enough that sex workers are under attack and in need of our support. As this show is about destroying the stigma of sex, the issue of sex worker rights is absolutely in alignment with our mission, and I am pleased to offer the platform of this podcast to raise awareness and affect positive change.

In this episode, I speak with PJ Starr, a documentary filmmaker and sex workers’ rights activist. During the fundraiser, PJ and the New Jersey Red Umbrella Alliance (NJRUA) will host Goddesses in the Garden State; a 2-hour block of cocktail recipes, music, film and a panel discussion of Black sex workers in film. PJ is originally from Australia but currently based in New Jersey, and we discuss why the plight of sex workers is so important to her, how she became interested in the subject of sex work, and why she self-describes as having “transcended kink.”

Event information:
Tickets / Info: Black Sex Workers Collective 22-Hour Fundraiser Event
Tickets to PJ's Event: Goddesses In The Garden State

General information:
The Black Sex Worker Collective
Some information about the fight for Sex Worker rights:
https://www.hrw.org/news/2020/05/04/sex-workers-struggle-survive-covid-19-pandemic
https://www.hrw.org/news/2019/08/07/why-sex-work-should-be-decriminalized
The New Jersey Red Umbrella Alliance (NJRUA)

More information about today's guest:
PJ's website of professional work
June 28th Film Screening

In today’s episode, I speak with Dan of Kinky in Wonderland, who will be hosting an online Introduction to Bondage during the July 22nd event. Dan is also based in Berlin and we discuss his experiences with sex-based work, kink, discrimination and activism.

Event information:
Tickets / Info: Black Sex Workers Collective 22-Hour Fundraiser Event
Tickets to Dan's Event: Bondage Online

General information:
The Black Sex Worker Collective
Some information about the fight for Sex Worker rights:
https://www.hrw.org/news/2020/05/04/sex-workers-struggle-survive-covid-19-pandemic
https://www.hrw.org/news/2019/08/07/why-sex-work-should-be-decriminalized

More information about today's guest:
https://www.gay-BDSM.club
https://www.kinky-in-wonderland.de/
https://www.kinky-in-wonderland.de/bondage-online
In preparation: www.bondage-online.com

Sex and disability are both spoken about far too little -- if you are struggling with your own challenges, reach out to the show at sexcompod@gmail.com and let's talk about it...

Til next week 

Andrew focuses his work on the controversial & taboo topics that most in his field won’t address, including specialized populations in the sex trade and human trafficking. 

He is also writing the first book on the arousal experience in sexual assault to help rape victims and therapists understand this response, hence the subject of his conference presentation

As you might expect, given the nature of his work, Andrew and I have a shared interest in discussing the things most people won’t - so who better to interview for this show!

We talk in depth about his professional work but of course, we also get into the intimate nitty gritty of his personal, sexuality as is customary on this show.

LINKS
Sexual Assault Awareness
Center for Positive Sexuality

And here is a great post with lots of links to independent, ethical and feminist porn — give it a look!

Till next week…

Effy Blue is a relationship expert specializing in non-monogamy and other alternative structures. Her coaching philosophy, Relationship by Design, abandons the one-size-fits-all relationship structure that is heavily prescribed by our society. Instead, it advocates conscious and active design of relationships in service of those in it. Effy guides and facilitates this creative process by fearlessly asking the tough questions while constructively offering thoughtful insights. Besides coaching, Effy builds a growing community of Curious Foxes, leads panels and workshops, and speaks at relationship and sexuality conferences around the country.

Find and connect with Effy:Instagram/Facebook/Twitter: @coacheffyblue / @wearecuriousfoxes
effyblue.com
wearecuriousfoxes.com
aloha@effyblue.com

Till next week!

UPDATE Interview ended - link removed

***Here are some tips for how to enjoy sex and to avoid spreading COVID-19 from nyc.gov

Know how COVID-19 spreads.

You can get COVID-19 from a person who has it.

The virus can spread to people who are within about 6 feet of a person with COVID-19 when that person coughs or sneezes.

The virus can spread through direct contact with their saliva or mucus.

We still have a lot to learn about COVID-19 and sex.

COVID-19 has been found in feces of people who are infected with the virus.

COVID-19 has not yet been found in semen or vaginal fluid.

We know that other coronaviruses do not efficiently transmit through sex.

Have sex with people close to you.

You are your safest sex partner. Masturbation will not spread COVID-19, especially if you wash your hands (and any sex toys) with soap and water for at least 20 seconds before and after sex.

The next safest partner is someone you live with. Having close contact — including sex — with only a small circle of people helps prevent spreading COVID-19.

You should avoid close contact — including sex — with anyone outside your household. If you do have sex with others, have as few partners as possible.

If you usually meet your sex partners online or make a living by having sex, consider taking a break from in-person dates. Video dates, sexting or chat rooms may be options for you.

Take care during sex.

Kissing can easily pass COVID-19. Avoid kissing anyone who is not part of your small circle of close contacts.

Rimming (mouth on anus) might spread COVID-19. Virus in feces may enter your mouth.

Condoms and dental dams can reduce contact with saliva or feces, especially during oral or anal sex.

Washing up before and after sex is more important than ever.

Wash hands often with soap and water for at least 20 seconds.

Wash sex toys with soap and warm water.

Disinfect keyboards and touch screens that you share with others (for video chat, for watching pornography or for anything else).

Skip sex if you or your partner is not feeling well.

If you or a partner may have COVID-19, avoid sex and especially kissing.

If you start to feel unwell, you may be about to develop symptoms of COVID-19, which include fever, cough, sore throat or shortness of breath.

If you or your partner has a medical condition that can lead to more severe COVID-19, you may also want to skip sex.

Medical conditions include lung disease, heart disease, diabetes, cancer or a weakened immune system (for example, having unsuppressed HIV and a low CD4 count).

Prevent HIV, other sexually transmitted infections (STIs) and unplanned pregnancy.

HIV: Condoms, pre-exposure prophylaxis (PrEP) and having an undetectable viral load all help prevent HIV. For more information, visit nyc.gov/health and search HIV.

Other STIs: Condoms help prevent other STIs. Visit ny

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Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy]]> <p>Hey folks! Special edition of “How I Got Off” to share some helpful tips on sexual satisfaction in the time of Coronavirus AND a link to a Zoom interview I’m doing later tonight (3/26 at 7pm EST).</p><p><strong>UPDATE Interview ended - link removed</strong></p><p><strong>***</strong>Here are some tips for how to enjoy sex and to avoid spreading COVID-19 <a href="https://www1.nyc.gov/assets/doh/downloads/pdf/imm/covid-sex-guidance.pdf" rel="nofollow">from nyc.gov</a></p><p><strong>Know how COVID-19 spreads.</strong></p><p><strong>You can get COVID-19 from a person who has it.</strong></p><p>The virus can spread to people who are within about 6 feet of a person with COVID-19 when that person coughs or sneezes.</p><p>The virus can spread through direct contact with their saliva or mucus.</p><p><strong>We still have a lot to learn about COVID-19 and sex.</strong></p><p>COVID-19 has been found in feces of people who are infected with the virus.</p><p>COVID-19 has not yet been found in semen or vaginal fluid.</p><p>We know that other coronaviruses do not efficiently transmit through sex.</p><p><strong>Have sex with people close to you.</strong></p><p><strong>You are your safest sex partner. </strong>Masturbation will not spread COVID-19, especially if you wash your hands (and any sex toys) with soap and water for at least 20 seconds before and after sex.</p><p><strong>The next safest partner is someone you live with.</strong> Having close contact — including sex — with only a small circle of people helps prevent spreading COVID-19.</p><p><strong>You should avoid close contact — including sex — with anyone outside your household.</strong> If you do have sex with others, have as few partners as possible.</p><p><strong>If you usually meet your sex partners online or make a living by having sex,</strong> consider taking a break from in-person dates. Video dates, sexting or chat rooms may be options for you.</p><p><strong>Take care during sex.</strong></p><p><strong>Kissing can easily pass COVID-19.</strong> Avoid kissing anyone who is not part of your small circle of close contacts.</p><p><strong>Rimming (mouth on anus) might spread COVID-19. </strong>Virus in feces may enter your mouth.</p><p><strong>Condoms and dental dams can reduce contact with saliva or feces,</strong> especially during oral or anal sex.</p><p><strong>Washing up before and after sex is more important than ever.</strong></p><p>Wash hands often with soap and water for at least 20 seconds.</p><p>Wash sex toys with soap and warm water.</p><p>Disinfect keyboards and touch screens that you share with others (for video chat, for watching pornography or for anything else).</p><p><strong>Skip sex if you or your partner is not feeling well.</strong></p><p><strong>If you or a partner may have COVID-19</strong>, avoid sex and especially kissing.</p><p><strong>If you start to feel unwell, </strong>you may be about to develop symptoms of COVID-19, which include fever, cough, sore throat or shortness of breath.</p><p><strong>If you or your partner has a medical condition that can lead to more severe COVID-19</strong>, you may also want to skip sex.</p><p>Medical conditions include lung disease, heart disease, diabetes, cancer or a weakened immune system (for example, having unsuppressed HIV and a low CD4 count).</p><p><strong>Prevent HIV, other sexually transmitted infections (STIs) and unplanned pregnancy.</strong></p><p><strong>HIV:</strong> Condoms, pre-exposure prophylaxis (PrEP) and having an undetectable viral load all help prevent HIV. For more information, visit nyc.gov/health and search <strong>HIV.</strong></p><p><strong>Other STIs:</strong> Condoms help prevent other STIs. Visit ny<br/><br/>Advertising Inquiries: <a href='https://redcircle.com/brands'>https://redcircle.com/brands</a><br/><br/>Privacy & Opt-Out: <a href='https://redcircle.com/privacy'>https://redcircle.com/privacy</a> 5a67998b1f318dd1bbef2062:5c4ef8a28a922d088110c0d9:5e7cfc38db9bcb7f4f287e23 https://sexcompod.com Thu, 26 Mar 2020 21:10:11 +0000 867 yes full Episode 102: Transparency, Communication, Optimism 102 2 Brianne McGuire How one woman conquers sexual assault and approaches sexual self discovery... Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy My interview with Dr. Kerry Kott… join us for a conversation about discovery, communication, healing, experimentation and optimism in the face of trauma.

Afterward, check out my guest’s podcast: The Universe Made Me Do It

To find out more about her work, visit her website and check out her Instagram

Till next week, stay safe!

Btw, this is a couple married for 28 fucking years. Don’t even try to say married sex can’t be hot AF!

Many thanks to the sexy listeners who submitted this clip!

Here are the two toys used in the audio:

Njoy Pure Wand
Magic Wand

**Update on SXSW: the event was cancelled (thank you to all the listeners who wrote in to comfort me!) but unfortunately the trip was non-refundable so I’m still flying to Austin, heading out today. I’ve been working hard to arrange alternate events to get some value out of the excursion — I will be doing a webcast (or two!) plus I’ve booked an in-person slot at Grit Daily House for tomorrow, Friday March 13 at 12:30pm at this event:

Grit Daily House Live!

More to come as things become definite… I will be sharing the webcast with you all so stay tuned!

Till next week…

Today’s show is one of my all-time favorite conversations — an interview with Lydia, an artist, content creator, sex worker, trans woman, etc… She has so many wonderful experiences to share and does so with such insight and humor that I just know you’ll love this episode as much as I do.

And stay tuned till the very end when I share some very important updates regarding this show!!!

Till next week…

NOTE: this is not a recording of a sex party, but of my guest from the last episode, “BlackKnight,” masturbating in front of an audience for the first time.

Till next week!

The conversation I have with “BlackKnight” centers around the reality of attending sex parties. It just so happens my guest has been to quite a few and as a self-identified shy and anxious person, I think a lot of folks out there will relate to his perspective.

Our talk also covers race play; the first event my guest attended was an interracial swingers party. Race also factors into his personal explorations and porn use.

Till next week!

Updates on what’s new for the season ahead — new intro, new schedule format, etc…

Also! Two speaking engagements coming up REAL SOON! My topic is “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL”

The first, the Positive Sexuality Conference, February 21-23, 2020
I am speaking Sunday, February 23, at 10:15am — registration closes February 19!

The second, SXSW!!!! March 13-22, 2020
I am speaking Friday, March 13, at 12:45pm

Also also!! GRAPHICPAINT is relaunching in March! Have you signed up yet for a chance to win a free month of unlimited access?? Visit https://www.graphicpaint.com/ to enter for early access.

***If you’re interested in being a beta user, please email me at sex@graphicpaint.com and I’ll hook you up!

And… tomorrow is Valentine’s Day! You should masturbate.

Till next week…

Happy New Year everyone :)

***If you’d like to show your support with a financial donation, please visit our donation page on GRAPHICPAINT***

I’ll be back Monday with the last episode of Season 1…

Till Thursday — our last regular episode of both the season and year… and Happy Festivus!

This recorded discussion documents two people navigating the terms of an internet-based Dom/sub (D/s) relationship as well as a reverse interview of sorts… here “the Brit” asks me the types of probing, private questions I typically ask of guests in other episodes…

Till Monday!

Also: Festivus

Boob-Heavy Porn I DO NOT Recommend:
Two Asian girls, too much noise
Cheerleader and girl, too much talking, too stupid, no buildup or sensitivity
Meh guy-on-girl fake, girl too ridiculous, who even does this shit
Meh guy-on-girl fake, boring, no buildup or sensitivity

You may remember “C” from Episode 65: The Great Tiny Penis Debate — he kept in touch after the recording to let me know that after all his pessimism about finding a sexually compatible partner, the miracle finally happened and so here we are today…

And, here are the two orgy-describing episodes mentioned:

Episode 60: [QUICKIE] How I Got Off 8/19 - 8/25/19

Episode 86: [QUICKIE] How I Got Off 11/18 - 11/24/19

Also! The bad porn I watched while beating off Thursday has inspired a new segment: “UNSOLICITED ADVICE.” Do with it what you will because it may very well be bad advice as it is based solely on my own opinion and personal feelings. But also it may just save you from some future embarrassment so give it a listen?

As to the subject of said segment of “UNSOLICITED ADVICE,” the topics at hand are: sunglasses on naked people doing sexy things and young men bringing magnum condoms to new sexual encounters.

Now for the porn…Inspiration for my PSA of unsolicited advice, i.e., here is a dude wearing sunglasses and ruining an otherwise decent clip of a man sucking on some natural tits

A ridiculous storyline, decent looking male participant, and unfortunate presence of breast implants

Probably a decent clip of nipple sucking but I was so frustrated at this point I turned it off after a few seconds

Some other topics include, what makes sex good? what makes a partner good? and the value of openness in relationships and social circles in terms of discussing what we want and who we are. Enjoy!

Till Monday…

Of course, I’m stressed because I procrastinated, but that’s kind of my M.O. — I swing between the same extremes of stress/work/activity and relief in nearly every area of my life but why? I believe it is because amplified stress equals amplified reward, i.e., relief, but maybe that’s just me?

Anyway! I fixed the GoFundMe campaign for the podcast — apparently the campaign paused because of some admin detail, anyway! It’s up and running so please support us if you can!

Till Thursday!

Our publishing schedule will remain the same over Christmas but we will be taking the entire month of January off for a much needed break before launching Season 2!

While we are on hiatus in January, please share any feedback, thoughts or requests regarding topics, guests, or anything else that you’d like to hear in our next season.

Much love and gratitude to all of you!

Till Monday…

So that orgy — pretty sure this was my last one. Listen to find out why and how playing separately later in the week with #57 [masturbation party guy] was actually more satisfying. But! Neither was satisfying to my soul and I have been left with an even bigger craving for a real partner so how about that.

Catch up on what happened at the first orgy I attended back in August with Episode 60 and the essay, Attending My First Orgy, Sober

Till Thursday!

Do you have underwhelming experiences of your own to share? Hit me up: sex@graphicpaint.com

On a more serious and urgent note, this episode is airing the day after Transgender Day Of Remembrance but it’s worth duplicating the remembrance given that there were at least 331 murders of trans and gender-diverse people between October 1, 2018 and September 30, 2019. Please take the time to acknowledge their passing and the work that remains end the violence. You can view the full list of reported deaths here along with more information on the importance of this day.

Till Monday…

And hey! It’s Trans Awareness Week and it just so happens that Episodes 81 and 83 detail the journey of one woman’s transition and all that the experience entails. Check out Parts 1 and 2 of my interview with “C” as she describes coming out to her friends, family and colleagues, as well as what it’s been like sexually now that she is living her truth.

Episode 81: “C” Comes Out As A Woman, Part 1

Episode 83: “C” Comes Out As A Woman, Part 2

Till Thursday…

“C” is in her early 50s and only recently came out as a trans woman — which means she spent decades struggling to come to terms with herself; her identity, orientation and sexual pleasure.

In Part 2 we discuss the specifics of coming out to her family, especially to her son. We talk about social media, the physical details of her transition, body dysmorphia, the paradox of appearance, the idea of being a gender hybrid or “third sex,” and what her current sexual experiences are like. Some heavy stuff!

Till Monday…

***The SEX COMMUNICATION Podcast equipment fundraiser continues! Please support the project by contributing to our GoFundMe campaign.

Ok fine, there were other things like STRESS and INSECURITY. Listen for the details on how feeling like shit about my outsides keeps my insides sex free! Specifically what it was like attending a fancy schmancy event while feeling like a hideous troll and how this all connects to my shaved head and vanity and needing outside validation to make up for the lack of internal validation. Blah blah blah!

OH WAIT! Actually something amazing did happen but I had so much rage I forgot! SXSW!!!! I AM SPEAKING AT SXSW AFTERALL!!! A slot opened up and I am now giving the 15-minute solo presentation I had applied for! THANK YOU to every single ounce of support, I am so fucking humbled and blown away that this is happening, so much so that I fucking forgot in my rage!!

Until Thursday…

“C” is in her early 50s and only recently came out as a trans woman — which means she spent decades struggling to come to terms with herself; her identity, orientation and sexual pleasure.

In Part 1 we discuss her personal history: how she was introduced to sex, what her first experiences were like, what her 2 marriages were like and so on. In the later portion of the episode, “C” describes what the process of coming out has been like. We talk about the timing, the reactions, the experience with friends and colleagues as she made her transition public.

Part 2 will air next week as Episode 83.

***The SEX COMMUNICATION Podcast equipment fundraiser continues! Please support the project by contributing to our GoFundMe campaign.

Aside from those specifics, rage is human, common, normal… I’m not ashamed but I am uncomfortable. I do my best to breathe through it, to envision the best for those I would rather be cursing out, I take positive actions instead of wallowing in my misery. Still, the rage will leave me when it’s meant to; surely it is serving some purpose though I’ll be damned if I can ever tell while it’s happening.

Anyway! Motivation to masturbate the madness away no?

***Here’s that orgy article I mentioned; it details my experience told through the lens of sobriety.

Previous episodes with these two:
Episode 75: Sex Magic Audio Porn
Episode 51: Sex Magic And Pussy Whispering
Episode 41: “Alotta” Experience, Love And Acceptance

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Extras
Article detailing all the foibles that come with traveling and sex
The Ollie toy referenced

Porn links:
Some typical Japanese nipple stuff
Some meh cuckholding porn [could the cuckhold be any more bored??]
Some slightly better cuckholding porn [only tolerable for me with the sound OFF]
Some satisfying cheesy nipple porn with a plumber theme

Support the podcast!
I launched a small GoFundMe to cover the recent costs of upgrading the podcast equipment; please consider donating in support of the project! Check out the fundraiser or visit the ‘support’ page of GRAPHICPAINT at any time.

Till Thursday!

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See episode notes on GRAPHICPAINT to view images mentioned…

Andre Shakti is a journalist, educator, performer, activist, and professional slut. She is devoted to normalizing alternative desires, de-stigmatizing sex workers and their clients, and not taking herself too seriously. Andre wrestles mediocre white men into submission and is the weekly sex columnist for Slixa.com. In addition to her Ask Andre column, she writes about sex work, queerness and non-monogamy for Cosmopolitan, Rewire, Thrillist, MEL, Vice, Autostraddle, and more. She can frequently be found marathoning Law & Order: SVU under a chaotic pile of partners and pitbulls, and yes, she knows how problematic that show is.

Andre graduated cum laude from Towson University in Maryland with a Bachelors of Science in Psychology and LGBT Studies in 2010. She worked in HIV risk assessment, harm reduction education, and community activism in Baltimore from 2008-2011, studied at San Francisco State University’s National Sexuality Resource Center (NSRC) in 2010, and graduated from San Francisco Sex Information (SFSI)’s Sex Educator Training in Fall 2013. She’s held educator and sales associate positions at sex-positive adult boutiques Sugar (Baltimore, MD) and Feelmore510 (Oakland, CA), and is one of the founding crew members of Atlanta’s Sex Down South Conference in Atlanta, GA.

Whew! I met Andre at the Sex Down South Conference this past September and I was blown away by her presence after having the privilege of attending two of her workshops. I was even more blown away when she said ‘yes’ to an interview and so here we are!

Our conversation covers both her personal and professional lives; her background, upbringing, areas of expertise, sexual preferences and experiences, SESTA-FOSTA, family acceptance, relationships, and on and on.

***Speaking of SESTA-FOSTA, here is the article Andre refers to: https://www.businessinsider.com/fosta-sesta-anti-sex-trafficking-law-has-been-failure-opinion-2019-7

I am so grateful to Andre for being so open and available for this interview [thank you again!]. If you’d like to know more about this dynamo, she is all over the internet! Here are some easy ways to follow her:

Personal site: https://www.iampoly.net
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/IAmPolyamorous
Twitter: https://twitter.com/AndreShakti
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/andre.shakti/

And here are some links to a few examples of her professional work:

As author: https://www.them.us/story/sesta-fosta-backpage-sex-workers
As performer: https://crashpadseries.com/queer-porn/character/andre-shakti/

Also last night someone told me that I was their crush so that was a fun twist to the week. However, the fact that they anonymously texted makes me super skeptical about the worthiness of this mystery person.

Anyway! Masturbation level was pretty normal with three days of action, so much better than last week ;) I finally remembered to charge the insertable vibrator so that helped things tremendously. Also am I growing? Because I watched nipple porn that featured women with fake tits. It worked so maybe the tides are shifting? Or maybe the activity trumped the aesthetics? I suspect the latter but I will also continue to believe I am growing.

Porn links:
Nipple stuff, even with fake breasts
Same same but different, also with natural breasts

Support the podcast!
I launched a small GoFundMe to cover the recent costs of upgrading the podcast equipment; please consider donating in support of the project! Check out the fundraiser or visit the ‘support’ page of GRAPHICPAINT at any time.

Till Thursday!

Anyway! Here’s the recording description from the submitters, both of whom have been interview guests of the podcast:

“The intention behind this was sex magic — kind of a manifestation thing as well as a test of concept. There is light race play, primal sex, roleplay, things like that.”

Well there you go… If you would like to hear more from these two, check out their individual episodes:

Episode 51: Sex Magic And Pussy Whispering
Episode 41: “Alotta” Experience, Love And Acceptance

Also — as promised, I launched a mini GoFundMe to cover the recent costs of upgrading the podcast equipment; please consider donating in support of the project! Check out the fundraiser or visit the ‘support’ page of GRAPHICPAINT at any time.

Till Monday!

Aside from the inactivity with my nether regions, I did get some exciting news yesterday! I’ve been accepted as a speaker at my first conference!!! I will be presenting on the topic “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL” at the Positive Sexuality Conference 2020 in Burbank CA!

I’ve been battling some roller coaster emotions this week so the news of my proposal acceptance couldn’t have come at a better time.

Oh! And another thing — I have recently invested in some upgraded equipment: dynamic mics, a mixer dashboard, freestanding boom arms, etc… It wasn’t cheap but definitely worth it as now I am able to record higher quality in-person and remote interviews! I used it all for the first time this past Thursday and I think you’ll be pleased to hear the difference when that episode airs, sometime in a few weeks.

As I am 100% self-supported, I will be launching a small GoFundMe campaign to cover the equipment costs. Until that goes live, you can always donate to support both the SEX COMMUNICATION Podcast and GRAPHICPAINT via our donation page.

Till Thursday!

Porn links:
Same old same old

Current stats: 6 partners over 15 years

He remembers first being introduced to sex via a VHS porn tape introduced by his cousin. He was later raped by an older woman when he was 13 and she was 19. Following that experience, he had sexual/romantic relationships with single partners for several years at a time.

Some specific details: he was a pro wrestler for a few years (which comes with a fair amount of debaucherous activity), a former girlfriend has come out as trans, and he’s been - he feels like if the coming out had happened while they were dating he would have still been with the person romantically accepting and capable of falling in love with any person. He’s kissed a handful of guys over the years. He is currently more actively exploring sexual attraction to people of other genders or on the spectrum of gender.

Newly single, what does he have in mind as far as what is on the horizon, what’s left to try, how is his sex drive, what is his mental state like?

Diving specifically into threesomes > with brief transgression into the possibly played out nature of MFF > what is his vision about a MMF threesome? What types of interactions is he looking for? What past experiences with men have informed what he’s looking for?

Another brief discussion of a past opportunity for a MMF threesome that didn’t come to be.

And then a dive into the porn he watches; voyeur, POV, bondage, some “classic” scenarios, Russian public sex, natural women (breasts, hair, etc.).

Speaking of pubic hair and being newly awakened to the joys of going down on another person, how does he navigate hair in his mouth or throat. His tip: spit it out and on the genitals of your partner as both lube and a means of getting rid of the hair.

The role and benefit of communication in a healthy relationship — especially when it comes to sex.

How does the age of potential female partners play into his life now, i.e., how has the rape at the hands of an older woman affect his relationships with women?

What is dating like? What is his experience with apps and meeting people? Why is his age range so wide? And speaking of, what is it about younger men being attracted to much older women?

Wrapping things up, we talk about his attraction to monogamous relationships, and why he feels it’s counter to what’s “normal.” He has this idea that being more casual with sex and relationships is the new standard > this leads to some discussion as to what other things seem “new” but really aren’t i.e., polyamory, gender fluidity, etc. Also, why is he judging himself for the way he prefers to relate to people? How can he be more accepting of himself, especially as he moves ahead in his sexual exploration?

I only beat off once this week; Monday night. I wound up watching some pretty disturbing porn, which at the time seemed like a natural evolution from the topics I’d been searching recently, but in light of this week’s events, I’m starting to wonder if it’s more than that. Then there was the surprise visit from the masturbation party guest I’ve continued to play with post-party. Geez with all the emotional turmoil of this week I almost completely forgot about that but anyway, point being, not one, but two orgasms this week, yay me.

Aside from all that, I did have an incredible interview with a guest I met at Sex Down South which will be airing in a few weeks. I also dallied with the idea of doing some paid phone sex but declined because I find phone sex to be fucking awful and it’s not made better enough with the prospect of money. I made my decision by reemploying an “if it’s not a hell yes it’s a hell no” approach; phone sex is most certainly not a “hell yes,” if anything, it’s a “meh” at best.

Anyway! How ‘bout that porn amirite? The search topic was “bound groping” by the way…

Porn links:
The most underwhelming of the bunch
The most disturbing of the bunch
The most satisfying of the bunch

Some specific topics covered:

Early experimentation

Trauma, molestation

Thoughts on sex work, legislation, agency, sex trafficking, lady boys

Personal gender identification; the masculine and feminine energy in herself and partners

Dealing with sex trauma in relationships

Communication as it relates to trying new things that might make her appear weak, i.e., submissive stuff. What makes her equate submissive with weak and disrespect? The result of her past trauma? Her persona of being “tough”

The potential for sex to be healing in this current relationship

Specifics about the trauma; how long it took to see the experience as trauma

Therapy; EMDR

Backing up, some reflections on her first orgasm / first proactive sexual interest / early masturbation

Masturbating and orgasming now

A bit about anal sex - she loves it! The result of her first time being with someone experienced and knew not to just stick it in; the anal sex she has now

Saturday night an ex did pop up out of nowhere but I did not meet up with him which is probably for the best…

Besides those things, two different men asked for my assistance, one was looking for counsel and wisdom regarding sexual performance struggles and the other looking for me to humiliate them for money. These events brought up considerations of pursuing more official paid sex work, either sex therapy or domination, both of which would involve my first pursuing training. Future goals? Maybe!

Til next week

Porn links:
Some fun [and well-positioned!] guy giving oral
Some bus groping, fast forward to the decent parts and excuse the clumsy and unsexy methods of touching the men employ [it’s about the scenario not the specifics]

Paraphrased description from the female participant/submitter of the audio:

- Making out
- Dick sucking
- More making out
- Pussy eating 
- 10 full minutes of her orgasms & squirting 
- Fucking
- Pulling out 
- More squirting
- More fucking
- His orgasm
- The end
- Happy girl. 😊[and happy boy!]

Sleeping with a real life human being was certainly a high point as far as interesting events of the week, but the best orgasms of the last seven days were at my own hand thankyouverymuch. Still loving my Fun Factory Tiger vibe when it’s TURNED ON. If you have no idea what I’m talking about you should really listen to more of these How I Got Off episodes!

Porn links from the week:

It began with nipple porn

Then led to this absurd gym-set bound gangbang

Then to more aggressive bound-fondling videos like this

And this

And this

Today’s interview with Jamie, a mother of three and wife in a 22-year marriage, opens up about the good and bad realities of all these experiences and choices. We discuss:

-The notion of promiscuity changing from childhood to adulthood

-Biology and experience as influences on sexuality and sex drive

-Post-partum. The effects of having children; the difference in experience for a new mom versus new dad, the relationship dynamic changes, the biological changes

-Sexual compatibility as a matter of shared sexual values, not just sex drive

-Getting older and becoming more adventurous not more boring

-The process of opening a marriage, and the evolution of exploration

-Fantasies, outside communications, research, discussion, experimentation

-The aftermath of opening a marriage

-Life now; reflections on the marriage, motherhood and sexual curiosity

“Hello I’ve recently been listening to your podcast and I like it - I’m very sex positive, I’m a sensual man. Like you, I seek higher and better orgasms although I have been kink shamed in past relationships and turned down for having a high sex drive but I’m dealing with that - here is my issue, your podcast says it is sex positive and non shaming yet I’ve heard you speak in a negative way of men not having a big dick isn’t that shaming? Isn’t everyone positive in their own way? No one is perfect, u call urself a size queen ok but all the positive podcasts I hear tell me size doesn’t mater - if anything this is why guys send unsolicited dick pics cause either it does or it doesn’t.”

I shared my response to this in Episode 63: Listener Questions And Comments, but I also offered this listener the opportunity to hash this topic out in a specific episode, hence “The Great Tiny Penis Debate.”

***

Here’s the article referenced in our discussion: “Must Have Thick Skin And Big Dick”…

and here’s another about the penises which have let me down: “The Most Disappointing Dicks I’ve Ever Encountered” [btw this list includes several big cocks!]

I’m lying, the mammograms were awful. But the conference was wonderful!

Hear all about both in this week’s episode.

Here are the categories and questions/comments I cover in the episode:

GENERAL

Have you ever played one of those sex simulation games?

Could i be nude bound and displayed while you interview me?

I feel as though there is a very negative stigma around pegging and that alot of guys dont feel comfortable trying it as a result (at least in my experiences) , but do you find/think that alot of guys actually do try and enjoy it?

Your podcasts are just awesome - will we see any video footage?

TOPICS

Deep throating

Choking

Forced sex or rape fantasies

Age-gap scenarios

Sex in illicit relationships

PORN

What are your thoughts on sex trafficking and porn?

Do you want to be restrained like in the porn clips you watch?

[from multiple sources] What do you think of this porn clip

PREFERENCES

Would you be interested in a guy who has a big dick but also chubby?

You should interview a little person about their sexual experiences. Would you have sex with a little person?

Hello I’ve recently been listening to your podcast and I like it - I’m very sex positive, I’m a sensual man. Like you, I seek higher and better orgasms although I have been kink shamed in past relationships and turned down for having s high sex drive but I’m dealing with that - here is my issue, your podcast says it is sex positive and non shaming yet I’ve heard you speak in a negative way of men not having a big dick isn’t that shaming? Isn’t everyone positive in their own way ? No one is perfect, u call urself a size queen ok but all the positive podcasts I hear tell me size doesn’t mater - if anything this is why guys send unsolicited dick pics cause either it does or it doesn’t.

It really makes me sad that you are so negative about breast implants and augmentations. Women and men get implants for a variety of reasons- some medical, some aesthetic.

Preference is politics. Almost always. It's very hard to find a preference that doesn't have a political reality lurking underneath it. Thoughts?

Thankfully I’ll be spending the weekend at a sex conference hosted by the hotel where I’m booked so I have faith next week will be a different story!

Porn [all bondage-nipple porn] links:
Bondage-nipple tickling, not terrible
Decent all around but the lighting is awful and it’s way too slow
Absurd “bondagette” 1, redhead
Absurd “bondagette” 2a, blond
Absurd “bondagette” 2b, same blond
Absurd “bondagette” 3, brunette
This one looks great but it’s too short!
Another super-appealing clip but super-short

To save the publishing schedule, I have turned to another recording with #54; this is a briefer total session because there was no little blue pill involved but still a good time was had by all! There were handcuffs, a belt, some spanking, orgasms; all the good stuff.

If you’d like to hear more from me and this guy, check out this 3-episode collection documenting an epic 2.5 hour session: Episode 9 / Episode 17 / Episode 59

***Not sure if I’ve mentioned it before, but #54’s use of a little blue pill has been to satisfy me after I told him our first time was underwhelming. Since then he has been very mindful of satisfying me and when our encounters are less spontaneous than the one in this episode, he uses the assistance of medication to provide me with the hours of sex I require. He works hard and I REALLY appreciate all his efforts.

***ALSO!!! I’m collecting listener questions and topics for next week’s episode! Do you have something on your mind you’d like covered? Send me an email to sex@graphicpaint.com and let me know. I will cover as much as I can.

Till Monday!

I’m not going to describe it here, you’ll have to listen for the juicy parts, but know that I will be writing a detailed account in a new piece titled “Baby’s First Orgy,” coming later this week.

Aside from that specific sex bonanza, I masturbated later that same night, my mind aflutter with dirty thought and memories, and then again the next day. On top of all that, my favorite mutual masturbation partner came over and I told him about the happenings while we beat off together…

The next day I went upstate to visit my mom for the weekend so no sexy activities occurred past Thursday, yes it’s very sad.

Until next week!

If you’d prefer to just jump in with today’s episode, we pick up just a few minutes after the anal sex in Episode 17. My partner had taken a little pill which allowed him to maintain his impressive erection for as long as he did; in this clip he finally cums. I had been cumming the whole time but the orgasms I had in this last part were probably the best of the whole session. As with the previous portions, there’s some spanking and a lot of vocal expression. Enjoy!

***PLEASE NOTE: I only barebacked with this guy because we both got tested beforehand - he even had his papers like a good boy. I believe strongly in safe sex and only bareback under circumstances like those I’ve just described.***

Also! Community voting ends tomorrow [August 23rd]. If you’d like to support my bid to speak at SXSW 2020 on the topic of “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL,” please visit the proposal page to vote/comment. Many thanks my dears :)

I went into this week fully expecting to be driven towards finding and attracting a better partner [or partners] and instead, I was so put off by the absolutely shitty sex I had last week that just the idea of pursuing physical satisfaction left a bad taste in my mouth.

Ok, also there was the incident of not seeing the shitty sex partner in person but being propositioned by him via text, attempting to gently decline, tactfully [but vaguely?] answering the questions he asked though shouldn’t have been asking, and then dealing with his subsequent attack/tantrum. That probably turned the taste in my mouth from bad to swamp awful if I’m being honest so let’s say that exchange was the real reason.

Aside from all that, I had an invigorating chat with a listener from across the pond. We started off sharing details and peculiarities of the encounters we have found most rewarding and wound up getting into a passionate discussion about sexuality and politics.

Then today I found out Bella Thorne has directed a porno in partnership with PornHub but as today is really part of “next week,” I shouldn’t say anything more.

Other than that, big secret sexy thing planned for mid-week but it just occurred to me my period might drop in at the same time so pray with me that it won’t, please!

Also! This is the last week of community voting for my bid to speak at SXSW 2020 on the topic of “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL” so if you haven’t yet voted, please do! If you already have, please sign up to leave a comment! Engagement with the big is surely a part of it as well, and I would appreciate any and all help… visit the proposal page to vote/comment.

There’s so much to discuss, how it started, how he meets people, who he dates, how he dates, what he fantasizes about, porn, group sex, physical ideals…

We also discuss the ridiculous stigma of bisexuality in men versus bisexuality in women; one being majorly taboo and the other almost an expectation.

My interviewee, “B,” is very open about his early sexual experiences and current preferences and how these things have influenced his identity. We discuss the validity of the old line from “Sex and the City,” ‘Is bisexuality just a layover on the way to gaytown?’ We think not and discuss all the reasons why.

I had the privilege of recording this discussion after photographing “B” for the soon-to-be-published “Growers vs. Showers” series so it was a full day! Enjoy…

Oh! And here’s that pegging piece I mentioned: “She Wanted To Peg Me”

Oh Oh! If you are male/male-identifying and bisexual, bicurious or similar and you are local to NYC, please reach out if you would be interested in participating in an in-person roundtable discussion on this topic — email me at sex@graphicpaint.com with something about bisexuality in the subject line and we can go from there!

And settle I did, because the sex I had Friday night, after my impatience and frustration, was awful… Not only did he have a small dick, he apparently has no knowledge of foreplay nor of how absurd it was for him to buy Magnum condoms! Ugh! Of course these things need to be addressed, and address them I will but at a more appropriate time to protect his feelings. I did make a tactful comment that hopefully leads to him reevaluating the type of condoms he purchases in the future but I’ll never be there to find out so who knows?

Anyway! Frustration before and after this awful in-person sex at least led to some pretty sweet orgasms, both from toys and porn, so there’s that. The week was a win?

Till next week!

Porn links (from consumption not research):
Weird “fake hostel” FFM clip
Japanese groping porn, classic! But also way too long
Good facesitting video but why isn’t the guy touching her??

This episode is all about blowjobs and all the sucky, slurpy sounds that come with ‘em. I’ve got 6 clips to share with you — a combination of submitted audio and audio sourced from “amateur” online porn, also a mix of queer and straight recordings for a broad listen to the experience.

Listen in for the differences in approach, the variations in expression. Is the giver making sounds of pleasure? Is the receiver? Are they speaking or just making noise? What are they saying? You may be surprised by the similarities, or maybe by the differences…

** As an aside, I’ve submitted a bid to speak at SXSW 2020 on the topic of “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL” and I need your help to get me there! Community voting is 30 or 40% of the approval process and it will be open until August 23rd. Please visit this link for more information on my proposal and to vote in support of the idea, it would be so deeply appreciated…

https://panelpicker.sxsw.com/vote/100181

Some partner longing feelings came up, both before this experiment and during, so I get into that… Also the two other instances of orgasm this week [both toy-only sessions, pretty decent].

And hey! There’s a young lad [of age!!!] in the midst so I describe his particular brand of “cougar bait-ness” and the odds of our coupling.

Also!!! Voting opens today for the proposal I submitted to speak at SXSW 2020! Please vote and spread the word about my idea which is a verbal and visual exploration of “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL.”

Go here to vote: https://panelpicker.sxsw.com/vote/100181/ and please share the link with everyone you know! Voting closes August 23rd.

Porn links:
The tit massage/mutual masturbation clip from one of the photo shoot models
Decent but not great quick and homemade breast play / fingering
Meh bath groping
Weird long, skin-tag-looking nipples

Till next week!

With all her kinky interests, Sin is actually in a vanilla relationship for the last 9 years (male). However, she has other partners outside that relationship, including a regular girlfriend is submissive. Basically, she’s poly and her partner is not…

So what is it like being a sexually open woman raising a daughter? Does she show about your profession? What is the sex education like at home? She leaves squirting books around, condoms; very open. What about masturbation? She puts a lot of things in her daughter’s bathroom and let’s her check them out at her own pace; porn, toys, etc…

How did she get into being a dominatrix? Burlesque was the entry point, but there was more money in being a dominatrix. She is attracted to the power of sexuality and it allows her to experience control, play with both genders and satisfy her sadistic side.

Dominating as a profession vs. dominating in a personal relationship? Clients are a more clinical experience, with relationships it’s more evolved and deeper.

Next a little detour into her dominatrix equipment and sex furniture, specifically a bench that a friend made for her. Said bench is covered with vinyl because she is a squirter so….

Now for the squirting talk! HYDRATE beforehand, and be prepared to fart in someone’s face when you squirt. Wait, what? Her recommendation is to get comfortable doing it by yourself first, and to do so she suggests stimulation from both the inside and outside and aim for the back of the clit from the inside!

Of course I have to take this opportunity to ask for her guidance because I feel so close!

How does she make her poly lifestyle work within her relationships? Her vanilla partner is monogamous and does struggle with the situation. He doesn’t like seeing the equipment or body marks and prefers not to know; he does tolerate the other partners. And she and her girlfriend are totally open and both bisexual. Also they play with other partners together. Her poly lifestyle was the natural evolution of discovering she was bisexual plus the added influence of reading and friends pointing things out.

Her own sex education began with the discovery of her mother’s toys though she was fairly conservative till she hit 30 and began exploring her sexuality and body with more intention.

Beyond the furry world, what other things is she interested in trying? More bondage — suspension and the like

Detour to talk about blood as a limit and the contradiction being a female who bleeds [via menstruation].

In discussing the timing of her interactions with her girlfriend, it comes up that they see a “BBC” together so I inquire into the importance of this gentleman being black and how and if race plays a part in her preferences or activities.

As we finish up, my guest would like to remind listeners to look her up on FetLife [here’s her profile] if they are interested in her kinky BnB or services as a dominatrix.

Extras
The connector: Lotta / “Alotta” from Episode 41: “Alotta” Experience, Love And Experience
Another referral, ”John” from Episode 51: Sex Magic And Pussy Whispering

Speaking of those clips, one commenter took issue with my included “reviews” in the text of the porn links:
**
Aine: “It really makes me sad that you are so negative about breast implants and augmentations. Women and men get implants for a variety of reasons- some medical, some aesthetic.

I was intrigued by your project(s), but I feel that I cannot subscribe due to the “fake tit” negativity.”

Brianne McGuire: “Please understand that these are my personal aesthetic and sexual preferences and not judgments or condemnations. I prefer real tits to fake, big dicks to small, black women to white, brunette people to blond, average build to skinny/heavy, etc...

I'm sorry that what I shared saddened you, but we are each entitled to our own opinions and feelings about what is attractive or arousing. I'm sure your tastes differ from mine, as is true for nearly every individual.

I do appreciate you sharing your feelings with me here - would you be interested in doing an interview and we could discuss all of these things for the podcast? I would love to know more about you and what you are into...”
**

So! Let that be a call to action for Aine or any other person who disagrees with me about whatever — let’s talk about it!

Other than that, I photographed two more gentleman for GRAPHICPAINT and both masturbated but did not finish. I was a busy bee and sleep-deprived nearly every day and night this past week so while I had my toys all washed and ready, I passed out before I could use them each and every day.

I have been considering intentionally using the one dildo-dildo that I have as it’s intended, i.e., stuck/stationed on the floor or wall and moving against it or up and down or whatever floats my boat. I hardly ever use it that way only because I prefer laying down, it being before bed and all. We’ll see! I’ll probably put it on the floor so I can position myself close enough to the wall for nipple contact. Anyway!

Till next week…

Porn links:
NEW one! Can you guess of what?
Bisexual 3-way / MMF, underwhelming / not particularly believable or hot
Amateur cuckhold threesome, decent except for fake tits
Cunninglingus close up, not believable / meh
Another pussy licking close up, not my preferred technique / hard pass
Restrained lady getting manhandled, yes! but ugh fake tits
Japanese nipple stuff, yes!
Amateur nipple play, decent but awful music and too close up

First of all, what the f*ck is sex magic?? John describes the philosophy and practice of it but it basically sounds a lot like being intentional and using language and focus to manifest something. Like “The Secret” perhaps?

John came from a repressive and born-again Christian background and some time in his late teens he turned to reading and studying as a means of comfort. This research led him to discover texts about mindset and action.

Which came first, his exploration of magic or sex?

He believes pleasure is a tool not a way of life > use pleasure, have the experience, get wisdom, bring it back to your tribe. Speaking of tribes… what is his tribe like? A mix of people who care/practice and those who have no connection whatsoever.

He also believes that magic is like love and everyone has their own definition.

Does magic ever become a fetish or kink? No, but kink is a part of it sometimes… for example, using sex or masturbation without orgasm to “charge” a sigil for use at a later time. Pain, starvation, kink etc. can also be used as a means of instilling a “charge” and then once you release the orgasm from your body, you are releasing the sigil as well.

***”Sigil” is being used as a term for a magical device to hold energy and intention for a specific purpose, and then as an aid in the release of said energy and intention towards bringing forth the outcome of your focus.

As an aside, while sex magic is fun, it takes planning and mental concentration, so John uses the term “fun” sex to refer to non-magical and spontaneous sex that occurs without aforementioned planning and concentration.

So just how important is finding a like-minded partner? Turns out that it’s pretty challenging to find someone who is not only also into sex magic, but into the specific type of sex magic that is of interest to him. And along that line, he isn’t interested in engaging with someone who requires pain to be a part of their sex magic even though he engages in activities like self-flagellation in his own practice. This boundary is the result of past abuse and is something he just won’t do. He has considered the possibility of allowing someone to apply pain to him for the purpose of gaining ownership of his abuse experience, but it would have to be with someone he trusted implicitly in that realm; hasn’t happened just yet.

Next we get into the “label” talk: is he pansexual? heterosexual? other? Turns out while he would say bicurious, and has had same-sex relations, he thinks about women while masturbating and so that’s perhaps more truthful? This leads to some discussion about the commonality of bisexual experience and fantasy about typically straight men and the reason for hesitancy in embracing that part of themselves. John speaks about it openly when asked, not because he feels safe in doing so, but because he just doesn’t give a shit anymore.

Nowwwwww we get into the other stuff he’s into, specifically GIVING ORAL SEX. In fact, he wonders if perhaps he does it too much. Wait, what? Turns out sometimes he’s on a first date and all of a sudden he finds himself going down on a woman, that he perhaps jumps into it too soon and too willing to do it without knowing someone very well.

Aside from the cunnilingus, he’s into intimacy and touching, emotional connection, etc. He would be into having larger group experiences if he had an “anchor” or someone with whom he was connected to, engaging into said activity with him… this hasn’t happened YET.

Sooooo, how did this interest begin and is he good at it? Unsurprisingly, it resulted from his religious upbringing and the idea that penetrative sex was sinning thus the oral sex was his workaround. He

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Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy]]> <p>An interview that starts with sex magic and turns to pussy whispering, much to my surprise.</p><p>First of all, what the f*ck is sex magic?? John describes the philosophy and practice of it but it basically sounds a lot like being intentional and using language and focus to manifest something. Like “The Secret” perhaps?</p><p>John came from a repressive and born-again Christian background and some time in his late teens he turned to reading and studying as a means of comfort. This research led him to discover texts about mindset and action.</p><p>Which came first, his exploration of magic or sex?</p><p>He believes pleasure is a tool not a way of life &gt; use pleasure, have the experience, get wisdom, bring it back to your tribe. Speaking of tribes… what is his tribe like? A mix of people who care/practice and those who have no connection whatsoever.</p><p>He also believes that magic is like love and everyone has their own definition.</p><p>Does magic ever become a fetish or kink? No, but kink is a part of it sometimes… for example, using sex or masturbation without orgasm to “charge” a sigil for use at a later time. Pain, starvation, kink etc. can also be used as a means of instilling a “charge” and then once you release the orgasm from your body, you are releasing the sigil as well.</p><p><em>***”Sigil” is being used as a term for a magical device to hold energy and intention for a specific purpose, and then as an aid in the release of said energy and intention towards bringing forth the outcome of your focus.</em></p><p>As an aside, while sex magic is fun, it takes planning and mental concentration, so John uses the term “fun” sex to refer to non-magical and spontaneous sex that occurs without aforementioned planning and concentration.</p><p>So just how important is finding a like-minded partner? Turns out that it’s pretty challenging to find someone who is not only also into sex magic, but into the specific type of sex magic that is of interest to him. And along that line, he isn’t interested in engaging with someone who requires pain to be a part of their sex magic even though he engages in activities like self-flagellation in his own practice. This boundary is the result of past abuse and is something he just won’t do. He has considered the possibility of allowing someone to apply pain to him for the purpose of gaining ownership of his abuse experience, but it would have to be with someone he trusted implicitly in that realm; hasn’t happened just yet.</p><p>Next we get into the “label” talk: is he pansexual? heterosexual? other? Turns out while he would say bicurious, and has had same-sex relations, he thinks about women while masturbating and so that’s perhaps more truthful? This leads to some discussion about the commonality of bisexual experience and fantasy about typically straight men and the reason for hesitancy in embracing that part of themselves. John speaks about it openly when asked, not because he feels safe in doing so, but because he just doesn’t give a shit anymore.</p><p>Nowwwwww we get into the other stuff he’s into, specifically GIVING ORAL SEX. In fact, he wonders if perhaps he does it too much. Wait, what? Turns out sometimes he’s on a first date and all of a sudden he finds himself going down on a woman, that he perhaps jumps into it too soon and too willing to do it without knowing someone very well.</p><p>Aside from the cunnilingus, he’s into intimacy and touching, emotional connection, etc. He would be into having larger group experiences if he had an “anchor” or someone with whom he was connected to, engaging into said activity with him… this hasn’t happened YET.</p><p>Sooooo, how did this interest begin and is he good at it? Unsurprisingly, it resulted from his religious upbringing and the idea that penetrative sex was sinning thus the oral sex was his workaround. He<br/><br/>Advertising Inquiries: <a href='https://redcircle.com/brands'>https://redcircle.com/brands</a><br/><br/>Privacy & Opt-Out: <a href='https://redcircle.com/privacy'>https://redcircle.com/privacy</a> 5a67998b1f318dd1bbef2062:5c4ef8a28a922d088110c0d9:5d39fd61a95c1600018d71df https://sexcompod.com Thu, 25 Jul 2019 23:13:03 +0000 3803 yes full Episode 50: [QUICKIE] How I Got Off 7/15 - 7/21/19 50 1 Brianne McGuire Porn, play and photography... Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy So much porn! Well, at least on Monday [see below for links]

The very next day I wound up playing with a real-life person! One of the recurring dudes from the masturbation party — good times were had by all but still no penetrative sex…

Next, I continued photographing erections for the male body series I’ve been working on. Saturday I shot a gentleman who I’ve been in touch with for a while; captured the before, during and after while playing the selection of porn clips he had sent me prior to his visit.

The rest of the week was occupied by work and then yesterday I celebrated 7 years of sobriety! Also! I appplied to lead a panel at the SXSW conference; proposal idea: “Using Sex And Porn Online To Change The World IRL.” You can view my newbie-made, quick video accompaniment if you promise to be kind.

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Porn links:
Bisexual 3-way / MMF, underwhelming / not particularly believable or hot
Amateur cuckhold threesome, decent except for fake tits
Cunninglingus close up, not believable / meh
Another pussy licking close up, not my preferred technique / hard pass
Restrained lady getting manhandled, yes! but ugh fake tits
Japanese nipple stuff, yes!
Amateur nipple play, decent but awful music and too close up

We start by recounting the start of our friendship and openness among the two of us and others regarding the discussion of sex.

Jenny grew up as a preacher’s kid, with conservative values and many restrictions — no dating, no sex before marriage, no pants, no short hair — and now she’s open and exploring her sexuality with abandon!

How did this evolution occur? She was determined after adult sex sans orgasms for years. Now she has discovered she’s a squirter and owns nipple clamps ;)

Her plan was aided by therapy and being encouraged to explore by the therapist and friends, plus dating more and maturing, getting better at picking partners. As her intentions grew, she became more vocal about asking for what she wanted and moving forward with trying new things. There was one guy in particular that she tried a whole bunch of new things with and in a more committed relationship type of setting.

What was her “talk” like with her family? Turns out it never happened. She also didn’t feel comfortable talking with her older sister about it. And it wasn’t just the sex talk, the period talk didn’t either. Development occurred at her own hand and contributed a lot to her slow progression but also her determination to know and do more. These days, she works at a middle school and she makes sure the kids know they can come to her and speak about sex and periods and anything else they want.

We detour with some personal sharing of period stories and experiences with mothers. Specifically, learning how to use tampons and pads and the hands-on approach my own mother took. Also a bit about our experience viewing sex in movies and how long it took for both of us to get our first vibrators.

Are our evolutions the result of age or something more specific? Is it our social circles or just maturity? There certainly is a confidence that comes with age.

How about the stuff she’s interested in trying? Threesomes and new positions!

And since she mentioned threesomes, we get into some nitty gritty about male bisexuality and sexual fluidity, especially as it relates to her own relationship… she used to be threatened by it and now she feels like it’s natural and not something to be concerned about. Though it does still give her pause some times.

And when she says threesome, does she mean MMF or FFM? FFM! She digs women and thinks they are lovely, seems easier to imagine and something she’s interested in exploring. If she was to have a MMF threesome with a man that had bisexual tendencies, would that be threatening? In thinking about it, she sees the FFM setup as being a bit safer but also she would prefer to have all the attention in any setup. Maybe just add more of each gender to balance everything out?

We dabble into my own threesome experiences…

And that get into the anal sex and how she wants to get into it more and the experience I had that made me an anal sex convert [magic wand!!]. This led to my memory of our initial encounter and how I had promised I was going to draw her a “how to” book about successful masturbation and other sex stuff.

That conversation led to some bondage talk — the experiences we’ve both had and what has worked best. Rope stuff, ball gags, handcuffs, etc…

We finish up with her musing about the vanilla direction she feels her current relationship is headed, her concerns and plans to focus more on spicing things up. This leads to discussing watching porn with partners and how we each watch porn.

We love each other :) The end.

So, I watched a couple have sex on Skype Tuesday… I went into it thinking that the experience wouldn’t be much different from watching porn but it really was. It was very surprising how affecting it can be just being able to communicate in real time with the “performers.” Going into it, I wasn’t certain that I would masturbate while I watched, but in preparation for the video call, I was asked to at least be naked so that really set the odds in favor of my beating off.

I arrived sans clothes as requested, prepared with my two vibrators and lube just in case I felt moved to act. Turns out the other lady had the same cordless Magic Wand at the ready so that was a fun moment of recognition. I don’t suffer from much self consciousness in such circumstances so once the couple began going at it, so did I.

Another surprise was how envious I became of sex they were having, which was of the anal variety btw. I was sitting there, casually using the wand and my Tiger vibrating dildo and wishing I was the one getting fucked in the ass… sigh. Anyway, my envy inspired me to use a third toy, a slim curvy thing, up my ass as a consolation. Eventually I was worked up enough that I put the Tiger up my ass instead and had a self-produced anal [A-spot?] orgasm for the first time in ages.

Thursday was the first shoot of the “Growers vs. Showers” series. The gentleman arrived and we chatted to establish a base comfort level. We moved into my bedroom and began shooting the pre-arousal, flaccid pics. My model had sent me a selection of porn links so I put on a few of the clips and began shooting images of the “during;” pics of him stroking and then the resulting erection.

I really didn’t know what to expect but I anticipated the possibility of getting aroused which didn’t actually happen. I was so focused on the images and the lighting, etc. that no other thoughts had space to exist. I finally understood how professional photographers can manage to shoot nude models for erotic shoots without getting distracted! Anyway, more shoots to come so we’ll see if this is the case every time.

Aside from those excitements, I beat off with toys on two additional occasions — pretty standard fare. The only new development was maybe last night’s session when I stroked and pulled my own nipples, imagining of course it was being done by someone else. Generally I stick to imagining that act or watching it, not attempting to do it myself because it’s so apparent that it’s me, the knowledge of which pretty much kills the joy.

More to come next week!

Toys:
”The anal toy” except it’s NOT an anal toy [aka The Silky G]
Cordless Magic Wand
Tiger Vibe G5

How is his “quest for love” working out? Apparently not so well because his partners always want to keep it casual and not explore a relationship with him. Is it his personality? Is he bad at dating? Why do women not want to date him but are happy to screw him? He thinks it is mostly just bad timing.

How about his orientation? Straight but identifies more as “coming out as something else in the next five years.”

As an aside, if a woman was describing his dating situation it would be labeled as a series of “he’s just not into you” situations; is this different for him as a guy?

Has he ever had a long-term relationship? Eh — 22 months is the longest so far. He started kind of late, having sex for the first time at 18. Part of it may be that he gives more than he asks for, or because he is open about being non-monogamous. He does not believe it’s a product of “hookup culture” nor does he feels he just “hooks up” with women. He takes interactions seriously but just prefers to do it with multiple people. Except for right now! He’s actually too busy for relationships at this very moment.

What led to him being non-monogamous? Turns out he found out about it relatively young and it just made sense to him; it seemed natural that loving a person might overlap with loving another person. Then — he wound up randomly meeting a former swinger in person and that helped legitimize his feelings. Plus some Ryan Reynolds movie, “Definitely, Maybe.” All these things also contributed to him being as comfortable as he is speaking so openly about sex.

We speak about how a person’s openness inspires openness in others… this is how communities form! How self acceptance spreads!

Backing up a bit, why did it take so long for him to have sex? Well, he had no idea how to speak to women but mostly, he was bullied quite a bit. He learned, not from family, but mostly porn, the internet, common sense, and later from sexual experiences with women who told him matter of factly what to do and how.

About porn… what was he watching back in the day? What does he look at now?

About body image, weight, etc… his struggles, his acceptance, his wins. He shares about the specific struggles of having body issues as a dude and the lack of body positivity campaigns out there directed at men. How does his body image affect his sex and dating life?

More about porn! Does body image affect his selections or experience? Does he make his own? What about the porn you said you were in? [Teen BJ II]

What’s left to try? Pegging! Also receiving attention from a lot of women at once.

Speaking of butt stuff… how much butt stuff has he done?? He uses lots of toys but this one sounds like the most fun: the Motor Bunny.

Early in the week I did an interview with a woman I consider to be a bit of a squirting expert and she had very specific recommendations for how I could make myself squirt, which is why I was focused on that for beat-off round #1. I probably got closer than I had before, judging by the sensation I achieved, but alas nothing. I couldn’t quite achieve orgasm with that specific type of motion and focus and I think trying so hard didn’t help matters. I finally switched to just trying to get off and that worked out much better.

In all honesty, while I REALLY want to squirt, I don’t want to be the one to make it happen. I want someone else to drive it out of me! Not only because the mental part is just too out of whack with where I prefer to be when I masturbate, but because I’d like it to be a bit of a surprise. And a bit of a challenge to whoever the ‘someone else’ may be. Anyway, goals!

Aside from beating off, I was supposed to watch a couple have sex over Skype on Saturday night but we needed to reschedule for tomorrow. I assume I’ll participate in sexytimes in some way when it happens but I don’t want to plan too much, would rather just see how it all shakes out.

In other news, I’ve decided to stop taking birth control so we’ll see if my mood and weight improve at all without the addition of bullshit synthetic hormone crap in my system!

Also, it’s really fucking hot where I live, and not just hot, but oppressively humid. Is anyone fucking in this weather? Kudos to you if ya are.

Porn I watched:
Amateur wife-sharing MMF thing
Japanese big tit porn

Seriously, after the deliciously dirty audio, I share all the ins and outs and dos and don’ts of playing with the butt. Hygiene, prep, setting, mindset, props, etc…

But, let’s not ignore some important lessons from the recording:
Ask first: can I put my finger in your ass?
Start small: fingers!
Check in with your partner about their comfort and pleasure: do you like that? does that feel good?
Give feedback: wait, that burns, harder please
Mix it up: blow job for one, finger up the bum for the other 
Positive reinforcement: that feels so fucking good, you take it so well

Among my tips and tricks, I talk about the A-spot, a wonderful cluster of nerves present in female bodies. And if you’d like to know a bit more about the anatomy stuff and how to stimulate the area, here are two handy articles:
How To Have Butt Orgasms

All About The A-Spot

I wouldn’t go so far as to say my dryspell is over, but I did get off once… Sheer force of will? I think I was so put off by my own wallowing and emotions during the weeks before, that I did it out of pure determination.

This last session was porn-free; I got my mind right by thinking about being manhandled by two different people at once. I used my usual toys: a cordless Magic Wand and the Tiger insertable vibrator. Compared to the last time, the orgasm I had this past week was much more powerful than the week before. I think it was a combination of intention but also allowing the vibration of the Tiger to really do its part. I drew it out a bit and then when the blood was flowing and my breathe getting heavy, I switched from slow and deep penetration to quick and more shallow pumping. After doing that for a few seconds, I remembered it vibrated (it had been turned off until that moment). Once I pushed that button, the combination of the internal rumbling with the faster in-and-out motion just pushed me over the edge and I finally had that deep, internal orgasm I was hoping for the last time.

Will this upcoming week surprise me? After all, the only plans I have so far are to discuss a client’s website design — not the sexiest summer holiday plan! We’ll see, wish me luck ;)

Toys
Cordless Magic Wand
Tiger Vibe G5

First off, how did his foot fetish begin, and how do you act upon it? Does it combine with femdom interest? Like, pain applied by feet? Being stepped on? How far do you go?

Next we talk about intercourse and how often it comes into the picture. Also, how soon do his interests come up with new women? Does he speak about these things with friends?

Shane feels his culture, and black men especially, are pretty close-lipped and judgmental about sexuality; that there’s a perception of weakness, especially re: femdom stuff. Does Shane believe he is weak as a result of this? No! He believes it's therapeutic, a taking back of the power dynamic…

How and when did he find out about sex? Not from his grandparents, who raised him and sound completely asexual. Shane feels like a black sheep, like he developed the way he did in opposition to the repression around him.

What about race… preference or fetish? Does he use race keywords in porn searches?

We finish up by discussing his social comfort level with his interests, frustration with current circumstances and experiences using professionals to engage in his kinks.

Shane was one of the most entertaining and sweet guests I’ve spoken with yet, and you can speak with him too! He lives in Indiana and can be found on FetLife, username: US_AGENT

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No one ever speaks about the emotional toll of investing in yourself — it’s not very easy! It brings up all sorts of unfortunate feelings of self doubt and lack of faith and fear of the unknown and failure and on and on.

Perhaps you’ll be disgusted by emotion or perhaps comforted to know it’s not just you, if you too have gone through similar challenges and bouts of emotion.

Anyway! I did beat off once this week and I am planning on arranging an orgy to celebrate turning 40 so there are sexy happenings afoot!

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Lotta identifies as both pansexual and a sensualist so we talk first about what these words mean to her and how they represent her identity. Also how that identity formed through early exposure to the LGBT community and an incredibly accepting open-minded and accepting family. Re: sensualist, Lotta is not into pain but into all aspects of sensory pleasure…

She is poly / non-monogamous, but “non-slutty” and focused on love. In fact, many of her relationships may be intimate and loving but not inclusive of sex. She enjoys watching her partners have sex with other people, and is known among friends as a bit of an “instigator.” Lotta grew up in a non-monogamous family and community and open relationships were the norm.

Unsurprisingly, she is open with her family about her interests and relationships, as they seem to be with her.

We dive into some specific interests and how they manifest in her activities: age play, doctor/patient play, needling, etc… Lotta also identifies as a “humanist” and is accepting of all people regardless of how they present. Her endless compassion, coupled with experience caring for elder relatives with disabilities, developed into a role as caregiver and nurturer, both personally and professionally.

We discuss all of the many ways she has been intimate and exploratory with her sexuality and love, as well as how and why she has brought these aspects of herself into her work…

With all of her experience, is there anything left to try??

***Lotta and I are making plans to meet in real life! Stay tuned :)

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And heads up, the posting date of the regular episodes will be switching to Thursdays soon - probably around Episode 49

So. I didn't get off this past week even one single time - even with the extra day! But, now I have the opportunity to speak about the effect of my depression and hormones on my mood and subsequent interest, or lack thereof, in anything sex. Also stress! Stress remained a big factor for me this past week.

More about my approach to depression (hint, I don’t “treat” it): "Why I Choose Not To Medicate My Depression”

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Some highlights!

Vaginal vs. anal sex — they now almost exclusively have anal sex and share a wealth of tips and insight into how they make it a great shared experience…

Brendan and Erika met in the burlesque world and we talk about the inherit sex and body positivity that comes with the territory along with the effect of being a burlesque performer on one’s sexuality.

What it’s like for two sexually open people to exist in a world that doesn’t share their approach and how their openness developed. Being the ice-breaker in the social group…

Thoughts on marriage and what makes a relationship good and healthy. Also, specifics on the communication during sex, verbal role playing and trust.

Frequency of sex / masturbation — they have sex every day, but how often do they beat off?

These two are maybe poly-light? Some talk on the struggles of juggling multiple partners.

Speaking of multiple partners, what is it like to attend your first orgy / sex party? Some helpful tips like, go just intending to scout!

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But as long as this project is about communication, I figured I’d tell you about a shitty date and the shitty shit leading up to it and the shitty shit that came after. Also, about a series of failed attempts at a date and general scheduling woes…

To sum up the lesson from both the shitty date and the failed, attempted date: LISTEN TO THE UNIVERSE. If something is a struggle, LET THAT SHIT GO. Friction, rejection, etc., these things are generally indications that something is not the right thing. Save yourself the wasted time and pain and pay attention! Oprah says this too so you know the advice is good.

Anyway! Till next week my dears…

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We jump in with how they distinguish between the function of the labels they identify with; queer vs. pansexual vs. non-binary and how identity differs from orientation. They mention body dysphoria so we talk about how that plays into their identification as non-binary; what does it mean to have a penis? We dive deeper into the expectations that come with a body with male genitalia and how that affects identity and pleasure. What is it like to have sex with a penis? How does physical presentation affect the experience and expression of sexual pleasure?

Next we get into how they got into sex education and how it all began with work at a shop in Philly and a class aimed at people of color and kink. While we’re at it, they clarify the distinction between kink and BDSM before moving on to the practice; is sex always included? They describe how BDSM functions in their life, professionally and personally, and how it can be therapeutic for practitioners.

BlakSyn describes how their upbringing and trauma have affected the development of their identity and expression of sexuality. We get into some nitty gritty about family and the struggles that come with being the “black sheep” and using independence and distance as a means of self care.

The importance of being the “first domino” and an advocate, and the responsibility that comes with visibility in a marginalized community. They discuss how the work they do has long ago evolved past their own needs, but instead is about others and how they me be of value to others.

So many projects! We dive in to all the platforms and work they are currently working on. Writing, photography, porn, education, etc…

Race is a big part of all these things for them; especially when it comes to providing representation for people of color in the kink community. We talk specifically about race in pornography and the kinds of porn they are into right now. It just so happens they have a lot of friends who are making kick-ass, diverse and inclusive porn — check out the links below which include the makers they mention.

In addition to their personal projects, they are also participating in a number of events around the country — links below to those as well.

What a great talk! BlakSyn is awesome — follow them on all their platforms for fantastic content, information and inspiration…

***One more thing, this is Pride month and while it is certainly a time for celebration, it is also a time to be mindful of all the work which remains. Rights are being stripped, people are being killed, and the battle for equality continues every day. Here is a list of vetted organizations doing year-round work on behalf of the LGBTQ+ community: https://www.charitynavigator.org/index.cfm?bay=content.view&cpid=5013

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Independent and Queer Porn:
Eva Wo
Aorta Films
Bishop Black
Pink and White Productions
Crashpad Series
Hot Bits Film Fest

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Events:
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Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy]]> <p>An Interview With BlakSyn…</p><p>We jump in with how they distinguish between the function of the labels they identify with; queer vs. pansexual vs. non-binary and how identity differs from orientation. They mention body dysphoria so we talk about how that plays into their identification as non-binary; what does it mean to have a penis? We dive deeper into the expectations that come with a body with male genitalia and how that affects identity and pleasure. What is it like to have sex with a penis? How does physical presentation affect the experience and expression of sexual pleasure?</p><p>Next we get into how they got into sex education and how it all began with work at a shop in Philly and a class aimed at people of color and kink. While we’re at it, they clarify the distinction between kink and BDSM before moving on to the practice; is sex always included? They describe how BDSM functions in their life, professionally and personally, and how it can be therapeutic for practitioners.</p><p>BlakSyn describes how their upbringing and trauma have affected the development of their identity and expression of sexuality. We get into some nitty gritty about family and the struggles that come with being the “black sheep” and using independence and distance as a means of self care.</p><p>The importance of being the “first domino” and an advocate, and the responsibility that comes with visibility in a marginalized community. They discuss how the work they do has long ago evolved past their own needs, but instead is about others and how they me be of value to others.</p><p>So many projects! We dive in to all the platforms and work they are currently working on. Writing, photography, porn, education, etc…</p><p>Race is a big part of all these things for them; especially when it comes to providing representation for people of color in the kink community. We talk specifically about race in pornography and the kinds of porn they are into right now. It just so happens they have a lot of friends who are making kick-ass, diverse and inclusive porn — check out the links below which include the makers they mention.</p><p>In addition to their personal projects, they are also participating in a number of events around the country — links below to those as well.</p><p>What a great talk! BlakSyn is awesome — follow them on all their platforms for fantastic content, information and inspiration…</p><p><strong>***One more thing, this is Pride month and while it is certainly a time for celebration, it is also a time to be mindful of all the work which remains. Rights are being stripped, people are being killed, and the battle for equality continues every day. Here is a list of vetted organizations doing year-round work on behalf of the LGBTQ+ community: </strong><a href="https://www.charitynavigator.org/index.cfm?bay=content.view&cpid=5013" rel="nofollow">https://www.charitynavigator.org/index.cfm?bay=content.view&amp;cpid=5013</a></p><p><strong>Please consider making a financial donation this month, and every month.***</strong></p><p><em>GRAPHICPAINT will be making donations throughout the year but also with every episode published this month</em></p><p><strong>Independent and Queer Porn:<br></strong><a href="https://evawo.com/" rel="nofollow">Eva Wo</a><br><a href="http://www.aortafilms.com/" rel="nofollow">Aorta Films</a><br><a href="https://xconfessions.com/performers/bishop-black" rel="nofollow">Bishop Black </a><br><a href="https://pinkwhite.biz/" rel="nofollow">Pink and White Productions</a><br><a href="https://crashpadseries.com/" rel="nofollow">Crashpad Series</a><br><a href="https://www.hotbitsfilmfest.com/about" rel="nofollow">Hot Bits Film Fest</a></p><p>*</p><p><strong>Events:<br></strong><a href="https://www.aasectannualconference.com/" rel="nofollow">The American Association of Sexuality Educators, Counsel<br/><br/>Advertising Inquiries: <a href='https://redcircle.com/brands'>https://redcircle.com/brands</a><br/><br/>Privacy & Opt-Out: <a href='https://redcircle.com/privacy'>https://redcircle.com/privacy</a> 5a67998b1f318dd1bbef2062:5c4ef8a28a922d088110c0d9:5cf95f1f95f0880001767272 https://sexcompod.com Fri, 07 Jun 2019 19:07:51 +0000 3508 yes full Episode 36: [QUICKIE] How I Got Off 5/26 - 6/1/19 36 1 Brianne McGuire An almost total dry spell saved by broken by the fantasy of pussy licking... Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy Up until yesterday, this episode was set to be about 5 minutes because ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HAPPENED.

So what turned the tide? Well first of all I was busy and cranky all fucking week; I someone cancel last minute and then another just completely blow me off with no apology or explanation. Aside from those irritations, this has just been a very legwork-heavy 7 days. Lots of reaching out and following up and planning and recording, etc… I felt drained every single day and not all interested in “rubbing one out.” And then — I was back in contact with a younger gentleman I met several years ago (the friend of an ex) and he’s been trying to get together and with very filthy intentions. Well young sir started getting real explicit and it got my mind going and then my body going and then Saturday afternoon I’m beating off in bed watching clips of cunnilingus.

It started with a repost on Instagram of a new “Must Have Big Dick And Thick Skin” graphic to which he messaged and asked if it was an invitation to submit. Of course I said yes! He sent 3 pics of a pretty good size dick, nothing gigantic but a solid entry.

The pics were shortly followed by:
“I got tested last Friday also I’m negative for everything. So let’s fuck pls [kissy face emoji].

Next:
“At least let me eat your ass?
Lmao.
Thank you. [I said he had a nice dick]
It’s better in person. [winky face emoji].

AND THEN we were texting and he sent:
“For reals tho. Like I do really want to fuck you and shove my face in your crotch but I also want to hang out as friends and not think about just sex.
I’m a perv and a lot of stuff I say is related about sex. But I wanna chill with you as a person…
Sit on my face please.”

All this talk of faces in crotches! My crotch specifically! Ahhh what’s a girl to do!!! To clarify, this guy is very attractive — banging body, beautiful face, sweeeeeet personality — pretty full package AND we already know each other as people. Anyway, I actually laid down fantasizing about being manhandled by two men at once but there was some pussy licking stuff that came up in my feed and I just went with it.

And now I can’t stop thinking about his mouth on my clit…

The end.

Porn links!
The threesome I started with but quickly turned off because meh, whatevs

An accidental click / Threesome action. The music in this one ohmygod!

Another threesome — fully intended to watch this but got distracted by the pussy licking clips that appeared in my feed below it…

***HOLY SHIT! BEST PUSSY LICKING EVER! Check out the move at 1:25 time marker ***

Good rimming, rubbing, pussy licking, etc!

However! I do recall a wealth of other details regarding my rocky journey to become the open, self-lovin’ woman you now know.

My earliest memory of touching myself is putting my hand between my legs, cupping my vagina, while trying to fall asleep. I think it must have started around the age of 9? It never really progressed from there; it was a satisfying feeling, one of protection, comfort, pressure. It was essentially my sleep aid — later it would inspire my first sharing of sex tips though I didn’t quite see it this way at the time.

I was maybe 12 years old, a devout attendee of Girl Scout camp, and one summer night I led the other occupants of my tent through a guided-masturbation exercise. Ok that may be overstating a bit; basically the topic of masturbation had come up and I decided to mention what I did, described how I did it and as far as I know (it was dark of course) we all tried it together. Also by “together” I mean at the same time while remaining in our individual cots. You can read more about that night and the other trouble I got myself into here.

After that I finally started having sex and was more interested in that than figuring out how to make myself cum. My teenage years and early 20s passed uneventfully but full of partner sex.

It wasn’t until the age of 28 or 29 that I finally masturbated to orgasm; it happened while watching porn and fast, like one minute at most. I watched quite a bit of porn after that, as you can imagine. I got my first toy, the classic Rabbit shortly after, at the age of 29 or 30. Both worked well and helped counter the “but I see the man behind the curtain” feeling that comes with attempting to beat off without visual or physical assistance. I just couldn’t clear the mental hurdle of overthinking and hyperawareness of self-generated pleasure. For me, the orgasms come when I can lose myself in physical feeling and fantasy, which are both tied to my ability to imagine being touched by someone else.

Fun fact, I only masturbated to porn as an experiment, prompted by a terrible relationship and the porn-viewing habits of my partner.

Moving into my early 30s, my drinking and drug use was escalating at a steep pace and I started relying on masturbating to porn in the wee hours of the morning to help me fall asleep for a brief spell before having to leave for work. It was during this same time that I discovered my body was more prone to fantasy and arousal at midday; naps especially got me all hot and bothered. One magical Saturday, I spent several hours masturbating with my Rabbit over and over again. And then it died. I knew the moment I smelled the acrid electric burn that the motor had burnt out.

I kept this now defunct vibrator in my nightstand along with a smattering of other devices that never managed to get me off: a hard g-spot vibrator, a small handheld waterproof deal… I shut the door and went back to porn exclusively UNTIL I began dating a man who owned a Magic Wand and one day made my vagina cry.

When I say, “made my vagina cry” I mean this in the best way. You see he’d pull out this giant device to use on me while I was restrained in a variety of manners so I already knew what it felt like, what it could do; it was a flash of genius the night I thought to position it under me during anal sex when I ha

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Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy]]> <p>Did you know that babies touch themselves? For reals it’s true, and if that doesn’t normalize masturbation, I don’t know what can. Now I’ve had fantasies and sexual inclinations for as long as I can remember, but sadly I don’t recall my own baby beat off sessions to recount for you.</p><p>However! I do recall a wealth of other details regarding my rocky journey to become the open, self-lovin’ woman you now know.</p><p>My earliest memory of touching myself is putting my hand between my legs, cupping my vagina, while trying to fall asleep. I think it must have started around the age of 9? It never really progressed from there; it was a satisfying feeling, one of protection, comfort, pressure. It was essentially my sleep aid — later it would inspire my first sharing of sex tips though I didn’t quite see it this way at the time.</p><p>I was maybe 12 years old, a devout attendee of Girl Scout camp, and one summer night I led the other occupants of my tent through a guided-masturbation exercise. Ok that may be overstating a bit; basically the topic of masturbation had come up and I decided to mention what I did, described how I did it and as far as I know (it was dark of course) we all tried it together. Also by “together” I mean at the same time while remaining in our individual cots. You can read more about that night and the other trouble I got myself into <a href="https://www.graphicpaint.com/blog/2018/2/17/the-dark-side-of-the-cookie" rel="nofollow">here</a>.</p><p>After that I finally started having sex and was more interested in that than figuring out how to make myself cum. My teenage years and early 20s passed uneventfully but full of partner sex.</p><p>It wasn’t until the age of 28 or 29 that I finally masturbated to orgasm; it happened while watching porn and fast, like one minute at most. I watched quite a bit of porn after that, as you can imagine. I got my first toy, <a href="https://www.babeland.com/sex-toys/p/BL165/vibratex/rabbit-pearl-vibrator-?lref=Srch%7Crabbit%7Ca%7C8%7Cc%7C0%7C-relevance%7Csearch_page%7C0" rel="nofollow">the classic Rabbit</a> shortly after, at the age of 29 or 30. Both worked well and helped counter the “but I see the man behind the curtain” feeling that comes with attempting to beat off without visual or physical assistance. I just couldn’t clear the mental hurdle of overthinking and hyperawareness of self-generated pleasure. For me, the orgasms come when I can lose myself in physical feeling and fantasy, which are both tied to my ability to imagine being touched by someone else.</p><p>Fun fact, I only masturbated to porn as an experiment, prompted by a terrible relationship and the porn-viewing habits of my partner.</p><p>Moving into my early 30s, my drinking and drug use was escalating at a steep pace and I started relying on masturbating to porn in the wee hours of the morning to help me fall asleep for a brief spell before having to leave for work. It was during this same time that I discovered my body was more prone to fantasy and arousal at midday; naps especially got me all hot and bothered. One magical Saturday, I spent several hours masturbating with my Rabbit over and over again. And then it died. I knew the moment I smelled the acrid electric burn that the motor had burnt out.</p><p>I kept this now defunct vibrator in my nightstand along with a smattering of other devices that never managed to get me off: a hard g-spot vibrator, a small handheld waterproof deal… I shut the door and went back to porn exclusively UNTIL I began dating a man who owned a Magic Wand and one day made my vagina cry.</p><p>When I say, “made my vagina cry” I mean this in the best way. You see he’d pull out this giant device to use on me while I was restrained in a variety of manners so I already knew what it felt like, what it could do; it was a flash of genius the night I thought to position it under me during anal sex when I ha<br/><br/>Advertising Inquiries: <a href='https://redcircle.com/brands'>https://redcircle.com/brands</a><br/><br/>Privacy & Opt-Out: <a href='https://redcircle.com/privacy'>https://redcircle.com/privacy</a> 5a67998b1f318dd1bbef2062:5c4ef8a28a922d088110c0d9:5cf14ff8652f97000133f1b7 https://sexcompod.com Fri, 31 May 2019 21:09:22 +0000 1844 yes full Episode 34: [QUICKIE] How I Got Off 5/19 - 5/25/19 34 1 Brianne McGuire Even more explicit info about my self-lovin plus a new intro and outro! Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy Well I certainly wound up beating off more this week than last. It did help that I’ve been using the recorded audio from some one-on-one sessions as episode material because that led to reliving the events which led to sexy thoughts which led to communication with the parties which led to more sexy thoughts and on and on.

Also there was porn again! I did watch some gangbang stuff as I had planned, but only one clip. There was one scene in particular where this group of guys picks the girl up and they’re all groping her while she’s held in the air — that was pretty amazing. However! It was one of those clips driven by the premise of a bunch of well-hung black guys and a [surprise!] blond white girl. The racial aspect turned me off and I didn’t finish the clip or search for much more beyond scrolling through the rest of my “recommended” feed. Whatever, I’d already gotten off and the clip was too long anyway.

Basically this week was toys toys toys and lots of lusty musings while in transit or attending events not conducive to masturbation. The exception was last night, when I got in a quick session which I recorded for the sake of Masturbation Month; I don’t know if the pressure of the mic got to me or what, but the toys weren’t cutting it and I relapsed on two porn clips I’ve watched a million times. Also, the vibrator dildo died midway so that did impact the effectiveness of the toys. As it turns out, the Tiger toy is quite effective in it’s own way and I really miss it when it cuts out.

Also! There was another cybersex encounter. My ol’ cuckhold buddy across the border talked me through to a pretty satisfying orgasm, the two of us role playing a MMF threesome situation where he’s doing cleanup and servicing me in various ways while I enjoy the much larger cock of the other guy. It was a lot of fun and he has a great voice. Unfortunately he is still working up the nerve to allow me to use our interactions as episodic material but someday…

Here are the links from this week…
Porn:
Interracial gangbang with the superhot lifted groping scene
ohmygod why is this clip so short [relapse video 1]
I legit wish I was this girl when I watch this, and the choking! Ahh so hot [relapse video 2]

Toys:
Vibrating dildo
Cordless Magic Wand

How does this happen? Well it starts with the unexpected reveal that said interviewee is too fearful of his voice being recognized to participate in said interview without vocal distortion. What to do instead? It didn’t take long to figure that one out so a few minutes later, the gentleman was on my bed, my podcast mic now directed his way.

This particular guy enjoys the ball torture and used a figure eight cock ring that he just happened to have with him ;) Anyway! I do enjoy watching this guy beat off and the cock ring really makes his dick look very enticing so I touched him every once in a while till finally I couldn’t take it anymore and I started beating off as well.

An unexpected turn of events but quite pleasant…

***See pics from this encounter on the web page for this episode!

Happy end of Masturbation Month!

The silver lining of the orgy disappointment is the increased motivation to organize my own. I’d much rather participate in one of my own making anyway and I’m already hosting sexy sex events anyway so why not move up the timeline for this particular theme?

Anyway! No porn this week either but I did beat off over twice; once inspired by a very brief text check in with the gentleman from Friday’s episode: Mutual Masturbation With #57, and once inspired by boredom? I actually can’t remember just that it was satisfying and I was surprised my dildo was not more covered by creamy pussy juices after since it felt like a gusher.

Till next week!

I’m on a new birth control which has fucked with my cycle and so I’ve been bleeding for well over a week which has curtailed my self-love inclinations considerably. A lot of it is practical concerns; I don’t want to get blood all over my sheets. I mostly beat off at night, which means after I cum, I’ve got to have my shit together enough to put some period panties back on which means no post-orgasmic drift into sleepytime for me. Also, as much as sex and masturbation are said to lessen cramps and other fun menstruation effects, I have less to no interest in getting off when my belly is burning with deep cramps.

But getting back to the mid-week sex; #54 was back, successfully cleared for service. I didn’t get off during the first round, but managed to in between the first and the second when I straddled his body and still-recovering cock and buried his face in my tits. Much hand and mouth stimulation later, I came quietly but still craving some deep internal orgasms. That happened later on the second go, his big and long dick doing it’s job from behind and below after I kicked things off with some Magic Wand action.

I mentioned the sex was complicated, and that’s really because I have two sets of competing feelings when messing around with #54. I’m extremely attracted to him, physically, chemically, but aside from that, I swing between compassion and nothing. There’s tangible sadness within this man and it’s a tricky thing to interact with when trying to get busy. He isn’t exactly emotionally available, so discussions about life and thoughts and feelings and circumstances turn dark and eventually flat because there will never really any resolution with him. It’s like having this beautiful gift in front of me that disintegrates when I touch it.

That’s all for now, Happy Mother’s Day

Links!
More about #54…
The “stealthing” incident: I HATE THIS: “Stealthing,” A Review
Episodes featuring him: Episode 9 / Episode 17

First up, the difference between tone of profile versus tone of personality which leads to a reading of his FetLife profile which is delightfully specific. Next we dive into his experience having slaves and how his kink developed. Discussion about the challenges of exploring the slave kink in public — race and gender make it a dangerous game. Then we talk about specific acts he’s engaged in as his kink has evolved. Introduction to the subject came from porn.

We discuss whether or not he is open about this interests with friends and family… and then about what equipment he owns. And then we talk more about race as it relates to his kink, dating and porn in general. Then his firm stance about sex stuff with men, even though he lists his sexual orientation as N/A — confusing??? Then more discussion of his experience being on FetLife. Then some talk about how soon the kink subject comes up when dating someone new and NOT from FetLife and the general struggles that come with the search for relationships and sexual compatibility.

And finally, we discuss any double standards regarding judgment of those willing to participate in fantasies and then a bit about my own interests, which of course leads to a dick size discussion. By the way, since I didn’t refer to dimensions in the interview, my preference is 7” to 8” long, 2” wide.

Before we close, he tells me he feels like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon having had this discussion. :))

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Sunday or Monday I beat off trying to get to sleep, was especially difficult and turned to porn to finish the job [see clips below]. I was already close with the toys so it took very little, hence only two clips and not very exciting clips at that.

Thursday > I had an interview scheduled with one of the male attendees from the party but he didn’t tell me until he arrived that he required some sort of vocal distortion in order to feel comfortable. While that issue and capability gets resolved [we rainchecked for two weeks from now], he started masturbating, which I recorded and also eventually acted in kind.

Friday > I beat off with toys, easy peasy.

Saturday > #54 has been lab-test cleared for sex service [you may remember him from Episode 9 and Episode 17] and upon learning this news, I attempted to quickly cobble together some male/male group sex. It didn’t pan out. Nevertheless, we will be playing together soon.

Porn links!
This girl is cute and I like the POV of the clip

Same girl. Also, reverse psychology saying it’s not a pornographic video? It is more of a screen test but again, the POV worked for me.

The recording covers a range of his attempts to “break me,” something I asked him to do… while he did not break me he did happen to say one thing that fucked my head up good. What was it? I explain at the very end, probably not what you think. Anyway! Because this recording is so instruction-heavy and “The Brit’s” voice is so effectively dominating, I encourage you to take advantage of the low volume of my responses to play along and pretend he’s telling you to do the things he describes and demands — why not??

When this play session ended, my immediate thought was that I would never be able to publish this particular exchange. Within 24 hours I managed to get over that idea and commit to sharing it and maintaining the fearless honesty and vulnerability I believe to be so crucial to this project.

**Many thanks to “Alex” who wrote me and encouraged me to keep taking risks after hearing the recording of the first play exchange, Episode 13.

Other episodes featuring “The Brit:”
Episode 3 (audio of him dominating his wife) / Episode 7 (our first interview)

Then I ran into #54 in real life and that sent my lady parts into a tizzy. Also this happened after I had been texting him, laying the groundwork for his participation in a MMF threesome with one of the party attendees, as he is also somewhat heteroflexible. [Previous episodes with #54: Episode 9 / Episode 17]

Anyway, with all this real life stimulation, there wasn’t much need for porn but of course I watched it anyway. It was a pretty consistent and heavy week for masturbation overall.

Porn links!
Meh, girl-on-girl bondage nipple torture

Nipple torture bondage thing

Amateur nipple licking that was pretty good but underwhelming

Rope bondage fucking, also underwhelming

Last resort breast massage

Why exactly? The extreme loudness and explicit vocality of our sex right from the start…

We would vocally role play gangbangs, he clarifies that this subject is a fantasy and not something he wants to pursue in reality…

We discuss social standing and how it relates to one’s inclination towards being dom or sub in bed, his previous sexual experiences with men, his feelings on being submissive with women, how he is very opposed to having his own butt involved in play, more about male experiences and then how his sexual experiences began in childhood…

Next we discuss intimacy — is intimacy necessary? is it what makes sex good? how do fantasies and sexual compatibility and healthy relationships all relate?

Is a physical ideal an automatic guarantee of sexual compatibilty?

Intimacy, sex addiction, more about fantasies…

More about our sex and relationship and why he declined the opportunity to make a recording…

Back to our sex; the endurance! the dirty talk!

Thoughts of the masturbation party provided spank bank material for most of the week

Which led to specific fantasies involving the two guys who had been in attendance…

Which led to other group sex fantasies…

Which led to searching for MMF and group sex porn… see some links below

Reflections on the origin of my group sex fantasies, did the movie Summer of Sam start it all? [see Plato’s Retreat orgy scene]

The porn didn’t do much for me at all; with the bisexual MMF threesomes the guys always seemed more into each other and it was hard for me to “be there”

Porn links! Creepy but arousing MMMF foursome / Unarousing bisexual MMFF foursome with a fucking machine / This unarousing but seemingly popular POV of a guy fucking a guy fucking a girl / Bisexual orgy, last one before I gave up / Went to a saved favorite in the end, typical boob stuff

A conversation with Jo about what it’s like being the victim of “stealthing.” And for those of you who don’t know what stealthing is:

According to Wikipedia: “…the practice of one sex partner covertly removing a condom, when consent has only been given by the other sex partner for condom-protected safer sex.”

We discuss having both recently been victims of stealthing

Jo describes the circumstances of the event, how things were with the guy before… and then details of the incident

She considers how her upbringing may have influenced her reaction

“Fight, flight or freeze”

Talking through the aftermath

Men who want families, the women who don’t

Is societal shaping of men a cause of such behavior?

The confrontation with her stealther

My experience with this type of assault

On being women who love sex, feminism, and carrying on after these events

What is the lesson here? Is there a lesson?

The piece I wrote about my own experience with this type of assault: I HATE THIS: “Stealthing, A Review”

The morning after I finally slept with the (Dom) guy I had been dating — when the devices finally came out: suction cups, nipple clamps with bells, handcuffs, ankle cuffs with chain, blindfold

The days after…

The masturbation party — not my idea but something I was not opposed to exploring because I really enjoy watching men jerk off and I like to masturbate so…

The preparation, the anxiety, the scrambling to manage/maintain guest list

The arrivals, the start, the during, the finish (I used my Sexxxy Jams playlist on Spotify which was an excellent call on my part)

I was still so turned on I beat off another four times

Porn links!

These were terrible, useless and I rejected them: useless clip 1 / useless clip 2 / useless clip 3

This was better but too short

This was ok but they’re touching her too fast and the slurpy kissing sounds were so awful I shut it off

"The Experiment" — an arranged encounter specifically for the purpose of capturing an audio recording and documentation of the awkward reality of sleeping with someone new for the first time

The participant [#55] was willing participant in this documentation of the awkward reality of sleeping with someone for the first time

First, brief pre-sex interview about our concerns and thoughts about what was going to happen.

Given nervous awkwardness, we started with cuddling

Awkward conversation, we turn the lights off, plenty of consent questions about touch and next steps

Penis reveal!

I make the best of it

I cum [bc breast stuff easy peasy], he cums, all done

Post-sex review, i.e., HOW IT REALLY WAS

So I had a real life partner this week: #56…

***Line being drawn that this [QUICKIE] episode series will not be a matter of “reviewing” any partner, merely a matter-of-fact description of events. Ok maybe some review. Also I may change my mind.

The week started out with me thinking the real-life sexing opportunity was lost given scheduling challenges, but found out mid-week that overnight plans were on for Saturday

According to my phone, no porn. I think I accidentally closed some tabs and lost that data but maybe not?

Adapting to new batch of sex toys, certainly a better state of affairs than before: Internal vibrator — still no g-spot orgasm from it but I don’t hate it

Relied heavily on fantasies this week to motivate masturbation, anticipation is a powerful thing [new partner, potential for a night of being dominated, etc.]

The best part of the real-life sexing [specific!]

Show notes:

Blue is engaged and sexually monogamous with fiance, who is also in kink scene

Some history of Blue’s involvement with kink and vanilla relationships / The boundaries and agreements about kink vs. sex with fiance and other people

Needle play is something Blue does with other people

Rope play is something fiance does with other people

Fire play is something they do together with other people

More about fire play

Subspace described

How and when she subs or doms

What kink is really about and how she got involved in the scene

About munches

Safety and consent among kink / swingers

Where the play happens

About her bisexuality and how it works within her relationship with her fiance and kink play

More about her vanilla relationship past

Public openness about involvement in the kink scene

More about needle play

Even more details about fire play

The luck of finding her kinky partner

The nature of kink relationships — being open right off the bat

New kink interests on the horizon: Fire floggers on wish list / Kink registry for wedding!

A note about kink people: They are normal and fun! / Join us! / Explore but be safe

The respectful nature of kinky folks as opposed to "normal" / vanilla folks

LINK: Blue’s profile with videos of the fire play and examples of other kink play

No partners this week BUT I have been on several dates with one guy and he has inspired a lot of masturbation this week…

Mostly with the new toys from Babeland — which I’m still adjusting to

Internal vibrator / G-spot vibrator / Dildo

But also so porn…

Cuckholding 1 / Cuckholding 2 [Why is there so much cuckhold porn featuring “Big Black Cocks”?? I don’t understand why it needs to be a race thing]

Nipple suction cups

Rope bondage

Groping

**Some lessons learned:

I get off easily during sex but it takes so much more work and stuff to get off while masturbating…

The things I watch while masturbating also get me off during sex but there are so many things that get me off during sex that do nothing for me as porn

[HAVE YOU LISTENED TO PART 1?]

Part 2 of the 2.5-hour fuck session started in Episode 9. It’s hot, try not to get pregnant when you listen to it.

***PLEASE NOTE: I only barebacked with this guy because we both got tested beforehand - he even had his papers like a good boy. I believe strongly in safe sex and only bareback under circumstances like those I’ve just described.***

Foreplay with fellatio and rimming (me to him)

He threatens to fuck my ass

There’s some deep vaginal fucking

More rimming (him to me)

We lube up for anal sex

I bring in my Magic Wand to assist with the accommodation of his generously sized cock

We have the anal sex

Sunday: I slept with a real-life person! #55 on my list, a.k.a., “Carlos”. An underwhelming start to the week…This encounter was a long time coming - #55 is someone I found on FetLife and had been communicating with since mid-January. We did a pre-interview before having sex; the recordings from the pre-interview and the sex will appear in later full-length episodes

Thursday: masturbated successfully with toys. Still using my disappointing [broken] g-spot vibrator as a dildo in combo with Magic Wand. This week’s mission is to buy new toys in person at Babeland [they’re also online]

Saturday: masturbated unsuccessfully with toys and then successfully with porn (very boring-because-they’re-so-typical choices fyi):

Assisted masturbation nipple play https://www.xvideos.com/video36154051/nipple_play_orgasm

Nipple-pulling compilation https://www.xvideos.com/video34952739/awesome_nipple_play_compilation

“Japanese nipple destruction” compilation https://www.xvideos.com/video30527441/japanese_nipple_destruction

An interview with: Ray (@ten.against) / Cam (@notcamdamage) / Brad (@eatyourkids)

First, the confusing semantics of relationship labels: triad / not triad / polycule / ???

What is each person’s role in the relationship? Whose dominant or sub and when / how?

Is your relationship a BDSM relationship?

What are the logistics of your polyamory, i.e., who sleeps and plays with whom? What are the challenges?

What is the purpose of rope play for each of you? Is it therapeutic? Sexual? Spiritual?

How often does your fetish play lead to sex?

What else gets you off sexually?

Do the roles in your relationship affect how you communicate with each other?

How do you communicate about sex stuff versus life stuff?

What do you think generated your interest in kink / BDSM / bondage?

How did your relationship come to be?

What is the purpose of marriage between Cam & Brad?

What projects do you have coming up?

Bondage Expo Dallas

F.I.R.E. Orlando

Check out Brad’s chef skills at the John Brown General and Butchery in Maryland

Is Brad ever a cuckhold?

Oh yeah! Ray and Cam have promised to record some audio of impact play for our listening enjoyment - stay tuned for that!

Audio of guy vocalizing what he’s imagining as he jerks off plus a pretty epic growling orgasm

A quick roundup of my week in orgasms [3/9/19 – 3/16/19]

The underwhelming G-spot vibrator I’ve been using since the Rabbit double-died

The first play exchange with “the Brit”

Am I willing?

Negotiating what his options are for punishment

Discussing what am I envisioning for the what’s about to go down

He tells me to do various things

Slap my face

Touch my breasts

Call him “sir” [I won’t call him “daddy”]

He wants to know what my extreme desires are

He interviews me about various experiences and interests

He informs me of the things I need to ask permission for

He finally starts yelling at me

More interview, more use of toys, more yelling

Finally orgasm

Post-op discussion

“How I Got Off”, wherein I detail how I did or did not get me off over the last week

Referenced:
The cuckholding / cleanup porn that didn’t get me off
Cuckholding

Cleanup

Some random group sex/not-quite-bukkake shit I stumbled on

The porn that finally did though not especially anything…
Uninspiring tit-touching

What inspired me to reach out to this lady

On being a woman with a strong interest in sex

The effect of sex-drive stereotypes on men and women

“Sex blogger, author, pervert” — pervert eh?

How you start creating audio porn?

Some appreciation for men making a lot of reactive noise in porn/during sex

The intimacy of listening to sex

Visual vs. audio porn

More appreciation for male vocalization during sex

On making audio recordings of sexual activity

Original Doxy review with sounds:
https://www.girlonthenet.com/2014/03/12/doxy/

Doxy #3 review which includes sonnet reading while getting wanked off: https://www.girlonthenet.com/2017/10/11/doxy-number-3/

On relationships and remaining kinky with a long-term partner

The value of communicating openly about sex

On sexual addiction; the accusation, the implication, general thoughts

Choice to be anonymous in the internet sex space vs. not

ADDITIONAL LINKS
“Girl On The Net” audio porn
“Girl On The Net” books
Support “Girl On The Net” on Patreon

3rd Skype exchange with “The Brit”

This time we added pain play!

I was contacted by a lady domme and it got me all hot and bothered

Not much else

Oh hey, this photographer/stranger with a big dick came over Wednesday

I jerked off, he helped, it was weird and complicated

But later that night I jerked off again thinking about it

Thursday I got my period

Friday night I sex chatted with another stranger about a cuckhold fantasy and then…

Remember the 2.5 hour fuck session I referenced in Episode 4? Well here’s the first parcel of that audio. It’s hot, try not to get pregnant when you listen to it.

***PLEASE NOTE: I only barebacked with this guy because we both got tested beforehand - he even had his papers like a good boy. I believe strongly in safe sex and only bareback under circumstances like those I’ve just described.***

We check in about who else we’ve slept with recently, if anyone

We get started

(Also he’s on Viagra during this btw so he goes and goes but not sure he cums in this clip… later for sures!]

Some spanking, talking, orgasming, the usual

Ok so it was mostly my orgasms for now, and then we drink some water, and then we open up the window cuz things got HOT

“How I Got Off”, wherein I detail how I did or did not get me off over the last 8 days

Heyyyyy! Day 1 was Valentine’s Day which I identify as V-Day, or Vagina Day, and use as an opportunity to self satisfy, i.e., masturbate! Check out my call to arms with DIY V-Day

So after beating off and dirty Skype chatting…

I slept with #54 again…

…and then I played around with “the Brit” again, but this time with video!

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Referenced:

What I wrote about the play session #2 with “the Brit” [the one where I hit a shame boundary…]

What I watched Thursday [2/21] to put me over the edge when my toys failed me

Tit-sucking clip 1

Tit-sucking clip 2

As I mentioned, this is the first interview, one of many... in the course of meeting each other on the internet we have recorded at least 6 interactions on Skype, some are interviews like this one, and others are play sessions, wherein he doms, or at least, attempts to dom me, over the phone. But this, dear listeners, is where the whole thing started. We discuss very frankly our views on BDSM, what we are each looking to get out of playing with each other and exactly what we are willing to do. Enjoy...

Audio of me watching porn and masturbating

This is the recording I made for “the Brit” prior to our vocal play, cyber domination session via Skype

I wasn’t feel so sexy so I used porn AND my sex toys

Two clips

Underwhelming porn that I rejected

2 guys/1 girl porn that ultimately got me off

“How I Got Off,” with soooooo much porn!

It started rough…

Redneck rough stuff

Amateur “slapping my girlfriend around

Rough sex slave stuff (starts slow)

Then got soft [and foreign] **MUSIC IS AWFUL**

American

Cuban

Italian

Russian

More Russian

Then I felt bad about myself…

But I still got off!

Jerry doesn’t jerk off!

It’s been three years… really?

How did this start?

Are you asexual?

What if…

Why no porn?

He does follow sexy feeds on Instagram…

… and has sex with other people

No porn, no violence, basically nothing extreme

More what if…

I share my own experience getting into porn

What does the future hold?

• What I watched late night Friday to satisfy the demands of “the Brit”
  • Underwhelming porn that I rejected
  • 2 guys/1 girl porn that ultimately got me off
• What “the Brit” sent me to watch after our Skype exchange
  • Verbal humiliation/gangbang porn

• Referenced: 
  • Magic Wand [cordless] **do not buy this off Amazon, it will most likely be a counterfeit**
  • DIY V-Day
  • Sex Tips For Travelers
  • I HATE THIS: “Stealthing, A Review”