But understanding where your pain comes from doesn’t give you permission to keep hurting the person you love.

In this episode of Initiated By God, I sit down with relationship expert, counselor, and author Love McPherson for an honest conversation about childhood wounds, marriage, boundaries, and what it takes to change the patterns we learned growing up.

Love opens up about how she once tore her husband down during arguments—and the boundary that made her recognize her own behavior.

We also unpack:

• Why familiar relationships can feel like chemistry

• The difference between supporting someone and carrying their responsibilities

• Why knowing your triggers doesn’t automatically change your behavior

• How faith and boundaries intersect when loyalty becomes harmful

• Learning to love your spouse through parenthood, grief, and aging

• Breaking patterns before another generation inherits them

This conversation challenged me, moved me, and brought us somewhere deeply personal.

Watch the full episode, and tell us: What relationship pattern have you had to unlearn?

Chapters:

00:00 Tearing Him Down

01:31 Welcome and Setup

03:45 Learning Love Early

07:50 Unlearning Conflict

11:06 Why Inner Child Matters

14:23 Amygdala Autopilot

19:41 Signs and Getting Help

25:59 Avoidance and Boundaries

32:50 Triggers vs Boundaries

36:02 Carrying Their Load

46:57 Toxic Loyalty Explained

48:10 Loyalty Becomes Toxic

49:49 Defining Real Abuse

50:20 Dating Your Childhood

57:09 Familiar Feels Like Home

58:39 When Peace Feels Wrong

01:00:20 Healing Versus Talking

01:01:54 Stop Building Partners

01:05:19 Inner Child Work Steps

01:11:24 Safety and Respect Needs

01:17:56 Marriage Seasons Change

01:24:05 Breaking Generational Avoidance

01:30:03 Legacy Before Loss

01:32:29 Boundaries Shift Marriage

01:35:45 Closing and Where to Find Book

Find Love McPherson and her book, Train Up a Child: Cutting to the Core to Heal Your Inner Child, at:

https://lovemcpherson.com

Instagram: @love_mcpherson

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In this conversation with Jessica, Candice talks about church hurt, learning to hear God for herself, the fear of starting something unfamiliar, and why she believes digital ministry still needs real human connection. She also shares what it took to keep showing up after the first prayer session.

What does it look like to make room for people who still love God but feel disconnected from church? Share your thoughts below.

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Discover how Dr. Lester’s journey challenges stereotypes about homelessness and reveals the power of empathy over sympathy. Hear about his bold choice to live on the streets to raise awareness and the deep lessons learned about human dignity and service.

Takeaways include:

- Purpose often emerges from the pain we endure.

- Healing requires both personal responsibility and community support.

- True empathy means seeing beyond circumstances to the inherent worth in everyone.

- Faith can sustain us through the darkest seasons.

- Service to others transforms both giver and receiver.

How do you see purpose unfolding in your own life amid challenges? Share your thoughts below.

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00:00 Introduction and Early Life Struggles

05:40 Mentorship and Spiritual Awakening

13:21 Living the Message: From Homelessness to Service

23:09 Empathy, Worthiness, and Community Impact

30:53 Personal Challenges and Redefining Worth

35:56 Purpose Through Persistence and Film Project

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Darius Benders had about $1,200 to his name and needed his mother’s help to pay his phone bill.

Then he drove to Atlanta for a conference he could barely afford. Was that faith—or a risk he couldn’t afford to take?

On Initiated by God, Jessica Laine MacDonald sits down with Darius for a conversation about the pressure of starting over, the relationships that changed his direction, and what happened after he gained access to money.

An entrepreneur and credit and funding educator, Darius shares how a conference connection led to weekly accountability calls and, in his account, $167,000 in funding in 47 days. But Jessica keeps pressing beyond the numbers: access to money isn’t the same as wealth, and believing in a decision doesn’t automatically make it wise.

In this episode, we explore:

The embarrassment that pushed Darius to make a change.

How follow-through turned a new connection into an ongoing relationship.

What losing money in additional ventures taught him about focus.

How distrust affected his ability to grow with other people.

Why depending on God can remain a struggle after circumstances improve.

When have you had to distinguish faith from pressure to make something happen? What helped you decide?

Subscribe to Hardly Initiated for honest conversations about faith, relationships, and growth. Share this with someone navigating a difficult next step.

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Chapters:

00:00 Broke and Embarrassed

00:15 Risky Drive to Atlanta

00:44 Funding Changed Everything

01:21 Meet the Host and Guest

02:36 Pandemic Season of Faith

04:04 Cell Phone Bill Breaking Point

06:05 Faith Versus Recklessness

08:51 Car Ride Mindset and Environment

10:24 Inside the Conference Room

11:15 Networking and Accountability

14:56 Credit as Leverage

17:10 From Funding to Cash Flow

20:25 Mistakes and Doubling Down

21:44 Going Viral for Traffic

23:25 Discipline to Keep Wealth

24:28 Consumer Mindset Traps

24:51 Strategic Debt vs Reckless

26:01 Trust in Partnerships

28:01 Trauma and Money Boundaries

30:48 What Success Reveals

33:05 Character Corrections

34:42 Does Money Buy Happiness

36:22 Staying Dependent on God

38:27 Discernment Over Deals

41:18 Identity Beyond Success

43:49 Faith Over Fear Action

48:23 Study Money and Credit

49:23 Where to Find Darius

49:40 Final Takeaways

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But behind what looked like success, Joy Hunt says she was losing access to her finances, overlooking warning signs and slowly losing herself.

In this episode of Initiated by God, Jessica Laine MacDonald sits down with attorney, entrepreneur, mother and business owner Joy Hunt for an honest conversation about financial control, betrayal, divorce, faith and what happens when the life you worked so hard to protect begins falling apart.

Joy explains why she says she “colored the red flags green,” how she found herself asking for grocery money while living in a home with a $10,000 mortgage, and why one of her hardest realizations was that although she knew how to protect businesses, she had failed to protect herself.

They also unpack:

• How financial abuse can hide behind the appearance of provision

• The difference between enduring a difficult season and accepting disrespect

• Why successful women sometimes protect the image of a relationship

• What financial transparency should look like inside marriage

• How Joy rebuilt her faith, identity and finances after losing everything

If you have ever ignored something because leaving felt scarier than staying, this conversation is worth sitting with.

What is one red flag people often explain away for too long?

Chapters:

00:00 Attempted Murder Shock

01:15 Welcome to Initiated

02:28 Toxic Marriage Turning Point

03:39 Hard Reset Rebuild Joy

04:54 Attorney Without Protection

06:05 Losing It All Quietly

07:12 Financial Abuse Red Flags

09:08 Warning Signs Checklist

11:38 Identity Stripped Away

12:41 Reinventing the New Joy

13:17 God in the Storm

14:37 Silence and Stillness

15:11 Winning While Hurting

18:26 Endurance vs Obedience

20:00 Forgiveness and Boundaries

21:09 Ignoring Gods Signs

24:14 Protect Yourself Financially

26:43 Money Wealth Security

27:55 Stewarding God Vision

29:41 Losing It All Lesson

32:01 Faith Move Or Reckless

33:53 Purpose Over Millions

35:31 From Broke To Bank

36:45 Why Smart Women Stay

40:16 Advice For Starting Over

42:41 All In On Purpose

47:43 God Removes Reveal

50:10 Book Links Farewell

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Dr. Lyons explains why we can become—or attract—the person who hurt us, how self-protection can sound like discernment, and why biblical honor does not require enabling abuse or pretending the past was healthy. She also distinguishes confession from genuine repentance and offers a practical standard for recognizing lasting change.

The conversation includes Dr. Lyons’ personal journey away from Jesus, her dramatic return to faith, and the lessons behind her book Honor Thy Mother. This episode is for anyone ready to tell the truth about what happened without allowing it to determine what happens next.

Live from Invest Fest, Jessica Lane McDonald joins Touré Roberts, Tim Timberlake, and Philip Anthony Mitchell for a powerful conversation about discerning opportunity, pursuing success, and remaining faithful to what God has called you to do.

The panel examines why every open door is not necessarily a God-directed door, how ambition can distort discernment, and why convictions must be established before a major opportunity arrives. They also discuss stewardship, intimacy with God, identity beyond achievement, and the character required to sustain influence.

In this episode, you’ll discover:

• How to distinguish a good opportunity from a God opportunity

• Why success can become a dangerous distraction

• How peace, purpose, and convictions can guide major decisions

• Why character matters more than talent

• What it means to pursue prosperity without being possessed by it

• How to trust God during seasons of waiting and sacrifice

If you have ever wondered whether an opportunity is an answer to prayer or a distraction from your assignment, this conversation will help you evaluate what the opportunity may truly cost.

Before she was old enough to choose her own path, Dr. King inherited one of the most significant legacies in American history. Behind that public responsibility was a private struggle with grief, anger, identity, faith, and the pressure of constantly being compared to her father.

Then came a moment that changed everything.

After struggling in law school, Dr. King reached such a painful place that she was prepared to end her life. In that moment, she heard God speak:

“Put the knife down. People are going to miss you.”

In this deeply personal episode of Initiated by God, Dr. Bernice King sits down with Jessica Lane McDonald to discuss:

• When the King legacy became her God-given assignment• Resisting the pressure to become her father• The personal losses that made her afraid to experience joy• The moment God saved her life• Why it is okay to be angry with God while grieving• Fighting anger, ego, pride, and entitlement• Why nonviolence is “warrior work,” not passivity• The strategy and discipline behind lasting change• Why America’s crisis is deeper than politics• How to recognize God’s voice and spiritual direction• Her warning about artificial intelligence and our humanity

This isn’t simply a conversation about preserving Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s legacy. It’s about the woman Dr. Bernice King had to become to carry her own assignment.

Watch until the end, then answer this question in the comments:

What has God been asking you to carry—even when you wanted to choose a different path?

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Does God promise financial abundance to every believer—or is provision connected to purpose, stewardship, and assignment?

After a powerful conversation with Pastors Philip Anthony Mitchell, Touré Roberts, and Tim Timberlake about business acumen and biblical wisdom, I had to confront an uncomfortable truth:

A business can be profitable and still be out of alignment.An opportunity can look perfect and still not be your assignment.An open door is not always God’s door.

In this episode of Initiated by God, I share why I stepped outside my comfortable lane of teaching money, how criticism made me question this podcast, what disappearing from social media for six months taught me, and why obedience cannot depend on applause.

We’re talking honestly about:

• The difference between prosperity and accumulation• Why success isn’t always confirmation from God• How comparison can make you chase someone else’s assignment• When stewardship quietly becomes worship• Why some profitable opportunities require a “no”• Whether you could surrender the thing you spent years building

I believe in ownership, investing, entrepreneurship, and building wealth—but I also believe we must ask a deeper question:

“God, what did You actually assign me to build?”

Watch until the end, then answer this in the comments:

What have you been chasing that God may have never asked you to carry?

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It wasn't. And what happened in that back seat became the foundation of everything he teaches now.

In this episode of Initiated By God, Jessica Laine McDonald sits down with bestselling author and financial educator Anthony O'Neal for a conversation the church rarely has out loud — the difference between being taught to give and being taught to build.

Anthony breaks down why the poverty mindset convinces believers they don't deserve wealth, why your income is not your greatest wealth-building tool, and why he tells his own family no without flinching. He talks about tithing during a month his company made zero dollars, the three layers written into his estate, and why his nieces and nephews have never received a birthday gift from him — only a 529 receipt.

He also says something that will make some people uncomfortable: you cannot build generational wealth if you are your family's emergency fund.

This one is about legacy. Watch it, then send it to somebody who needs it.

📖 Anthony's new book Stop Living Paycheck to Paycheck is available at anthonyoneal.com

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Chapters

00:00 – Cold open

02:00 – Who is Anthony O'Neal

04:30 – Broke in a nice car: where the mission started

08:00 – Wealth from a spiritual perspective

11:00 – Homeless at 19 and the night everything changed

19:00 – The most dangerous lie the poverty mindset tells

24:00 – What the church teaches about giving vs. building

32:00 – Step 1: Get stable

38:00 – Step 2: Create margin

42:00 – Step 3 & 4: Investing and the legacy process

50:00 – Financing insecurity

57:00 – Investing when the market drops

1:04:00 – 89% of Black families inherit nothing

1:10:00 – Telling your family no

1:18:00 – Stop Living Paycheck to Paycheck

#InitiatedByGod #AnthonyONeal #GenerationalWealth #FaithAndFinance #FinancialLiteracy

After the Philip Anthony Mitchell episode, Jessica realized something she

couldn't unrealize: she'd been interviewing people instead of finding the

thing inside them that applies to everybody. That one realization didn't

just change how she preps an episode — it changed the entire direction of

this platform.

So we made a decision. Hardly Initiated isn't just a podcast anymore. It's a

network.

In this episode we open up about the pivot nobody asked us to make: why

Jessica stepped away from relationship content to build Initiated By God,

why Michael is considering taking over the show he handed off, what the

comments got wrong about "replacing then with a woman," and how five shows

a week get made. Two people who already have full lives, two boys, and

Invest Fest two weeks away.

We're also introducing the full lineup for the first time:

MONDAY — Initiated By God with Jessica Laine McDonald

TUESDAY — Hardly Initiated with Michael J. MacDonald

WEDNESDAY — Spiritual Discernment with Bishop Senegal

THURSDAY — Bible Study With The Homies (live) With Ladun

FRIDAY — Hardly In Love With/ Special Host

One of those started with a single person in a room. It's now close to 100

people packed into a coffee shop every Thursday night. We're taking it

outside those four walls.

Content is king — but context is what makes it matter. We're not here to

gossip and we're not here to tear people down. We're building for whoever

is sitting in a dark place right now looking for God and doesn't know how

to hear Him.

New studio. New shows. Same mission.

Subscribe so you don't miss the launch of all five.

Stay initiated.

—

00:00 We've been gone — here's why

01:15 The new studio (and the real reason we moved out the house)

02:40 "Seek ye first the kingdom" — the decision behind the pivot

04:05 What the Philip Anthony Mitchell episode exposed

05:30 Announcing the full network lineup

07:10 Bible Study With The Homies: 1 person to 100

09:00 "Relationships is not me" — knowing what you're not called to

10:45 Should Michael take back Hardly Initiated?

12:20 The dream guest list

14:00 InvestFest: the biggest business plan can't happen without God

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A year later, a broke, overweight preacher called her and said five words: “God said you’re my wife.” She said okay. That was 31 years ago.

In this episode of Initiated By God, Jessica Laine MacDonald sits down with Bishop R.C. Blakes and Lady Lisa Blakes — the couple behind The Father Daughter Talk, Queenology, and a global movement healing women around the world. They open up about losing their entire church overnight in Hurricane Katrina and rebuilding from zero at 40, the depression nobody saw while he was saving lives every Sunday, and how Lady Lisa turned surviving childhood abuse into a ministry that fills altars with women who thought they were alone.

Bishop Blakes breaks down the father wound — how it gives the world access to a woman’s soul, why it’s the root of “my type,” and the biggest lie wounded women tell themselves. Plus: why you should never marry potential, what an unhealed person looks like inside a marriage, why happy marriage became taboo, and the generational curse they intentionally broke in their son.

“Everybody wants the anointing. Nobody wants the crushing.”

If you’ve ever wondered why you keep choosing the same kind of person — this conversation is the answer.

⏱ CHAPTERS

00:00 Welcome and Introductions

01:48 Katrina Loss and Rebuild

03:01 No Options but Faith

05:28 Wife as Covering

09:09 The Wounded Healer

11:04 Turning Wounds to Doors

13:22 Finding Purpose in Pain

17:28 Anointing and Crushing

19:44 Pain as Identity

26:16 Healing Through Marriage

28:57 Father Daughter Talk

32:38 Father Wounds Explained

38:53 Unhealed in Marriage

41:07 His Past and Consecration

42:54 She Left for a Millionaire

43:18 Becoming Whole First

44:11 Calling Her Back Home

45:08 Her Strength to Walk Away

48:25 God Confirmed the Marriage

50:30 Healing Starts with God

54:44 Why Happy Marriages Feel Taboo

01:00:12 Don’t Marry Potential

01:04:26 Biblical Submission and Safety

01:06:59 Reconnect with Fun and Vision

01:09:31 Fight for Marriage with Change

01:12:24 Breaking Generational Curses

01:14:20 Books Ministry and Farewell

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He was right. And he now says he was wrong.

In this episode of Initiated By God, Jessica Laine McDonald sits down with Bishop Demetrius Senegal — the "master prophet" training nearly 7,000 prophets across 43 countries — for one of the most unfiltered conversations you'll ever hear about the prophetic.

He breaks down the difference between false prophets, true prophets, and people who are simply not prophets, why the "10 millionaires by Friday" prophecy machine needs to be held accountable, and what really opens the door when believers dabble in tarot cards, psychics, and horoscopes.

He also goes where most prophets won't: the time his gift outran his maturity, the prophecy a political leader ignored right before losing everything, why he asks God to show him nothing about the women he dates, and how to finally tell the difference between God's voice and your own.

If you've ever been hurt by a prophetic word, manipulated in God's name, or just want to know who's really hearing from Heaven — this conversation is for you.

⏱ CHAPTERS

00:00 Prophetic Culture Today

01:08 Life Before the Call

02:52 Hearing God Early

06:53 Discerning Gods Voice

10:20 The Cost of Yes

14:06 When Prophets Want Out

17:11 Spiritual Gifts and Darkness

25:26 Master Prophet Explained

27:50 Social Media and Prophecy

29:40 Ego and Entertainment

33:15 Gift Ahead of Maturity

37:17 Hard Words to Deliver

40:12 Spotting False Prophets

40:28 False True or Not

41:27 Fruit and Accountability

42:44 When Words Miss

44:35 Judging Prophecies

47:24 Healing From Abuse

48:49 Prophets Responsibilities

51:57 Idolatry and Validation

53:55 Trust and Self Doubt

57:23 Loneliness and Dating

01:03:09 Prophetic Discernment Love

01:07:49 Lessons and Losses

01:11:17 Awakening and Training

01:13:10 Programs and Farewell

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That's why he's sitting across from her for the very first conversation of this new assignment.

In this episode, Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell opens up like few have heard him before — the night he sat with a shotgun and a bottle of Hennessy before God met him in a bathroom, the four years he ran from his calling, the five-year battle with depression he's never preached about, and the week half the country tried to cancel him.

He breaks down what really happens the moment you say yes to God, how to tell His voice from your own and the enemy's, why rest is holy, and the one question that determines whether your trauma becomes your identity or your testimony: Do you want to be healed?

If you're stepping into a new assignment, running from one, or sitting in a prison cell with the door wide open — this conversation was initiated by God for you.

⏱ CHAPTERS

00:00 Suicidal Breaking Point

00:30 Healing and Trauma

00:44 Discerning Gods Voice

00:56 Joy in Persecution

01:16 Podcast Launch Intro

02:49 Prayer Circle Miracle

06:21 Rest and Sabbatical

08:06 Warfare After Yes

11:39 Handling Criticism Wisely

18:29 Transitions and Opposition

24:01 Called to Ministry Story

35:39 Stewardship Over Outcomes

40:56 Protecting Mental Real Estate

48:31 Please Don’t Die Silent

49:06 Clinical vs Spiritual Battle

50:43 Tailored Help Plan

51:43 Counting Trials as Joy

52:48 Cancel Storm Testimony

55:59 Voices That Matter

59:37 James and Jesus’ Brothers

01:01:45 Suffering That Forms or Breaks

01:04:58 Do You Want Healing

01:11:57 Open Doors to Warfare

01:13:40 Why People Leave Church

01:18:55 Church Hurt and Expectations

01:24:42 2AM Surrender Invitation

01:26:38 Book Tour and Farewell

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